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(This post is about queerplatonic yearning, I'm aromantic, this is not about romance)
I want someone who will love me to the maximum extent they can love someone. Who will choose me as much as I choose them. Who will text me first. Who will continue the conversations I initiate because they want to know about my day too. Who will reply by the next day if I text them too late.
The stupid thing is that I've already got someone like that, but I don't like them as much as they like me (for a multitude of reasons, first of all bc they're kinda too much older than me for it to feel completely normal ngl, and they are not aro so it feels like romance eugh).
And the one I currently actually want to do all these things does half of them, but somehow I'm still not satisfied. I want requited love for once, that's it. Starting to think I should resign to open myself up for romantic relationships but those give me the ick.
It's so hard to fall in love as an aro when your QPR pool is already tiny and then you find someone so compatible and so lovely that it hurts and you've been through this already and you're making all the same mistakes.
I hate this so much
i remember the night i first realized i was on the aroace spectrum i texted my partner at the time about it because at the time, we were still dating, but it was like in that phase where i could feel everything ending and going downhill, so we already didnt have a good connection. however, they had always been so supportive of me in everything, and they already knew i was asexual, so i thought theyd be completely okay with me saying hey im on the aromantic spectrum too, but when i told them about it, they got mad and instantly asked if that was me saying i dont love them anymore, and something along the lines of if you just wanna breakup you can say that. and to this day i dont understand how "im aroace" translates to "i am incapable of love". but i got scared and told them i was just overthinking it, even though deep down i knew who i was, and i am still mad to this day that i didnt stay true to who i was despite their ignorance. and now, im dating a beautiful aroace man, who makes me feel like the luckiest boy in the world. and i wish i could go back and tell abused, scared, closeted aroace ozzy that he deserves sunshine. and he ends up finding his sunshine.
"Will you persist even after I bet you a billion dollars that I'll never love you? And will you persist even after I kiss you goodbye for the last time?"
"Will you keep on trying to prove it? Im dying to lose it."
Intro
This is my ficto blog, my main blog is @taru-nyx
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Howdy and welcome to my little corner of the world dedicated to Flowey and I!
I might occasionally reblog some ficto and selfship stuff, as well as some of my mutuals' selfships / relationships.
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Here's some of my boundaries, keep them in mind:
I'm non-sharing! Please DNI if you ship with Flowey the Flower or Asriel Dreemurr or if you are friends/mutuals with anyone who does, thank you! This is for the sake of my mental health.
Also preferably DNI if you ship with Flowery from Deltarune or are friends/mutuals with anyone who does. He makes me very uncomfortable and gives me a lot of anxiety!
Keep interactions SFW please, I'm sex-repulsed and prefer to keep certain topics away.
And just as a note, my relationship with Flowey is serious, he is my actual partner.
About Me
Taru | They/Them | Cosmic Dragon | Autistic
Agender | AroAce | Apothisexual | Fictoalterous | Dragonkin
I prefer gender neutral and draconic terms!
In a committed relationship with Flowey the Flower.
Some of my interests include: Flowey (obviously), flowers, space, lgbtqia+ terms and flags, and Hollow Knight.
I also love drawing and playing video games.
About Us / Our Relationship
My partner is Flowey the Flower from Undertale
We are aroace4aroace and enbian!
We are both equally obsessed with each other.
Our relationship can be described as either queerplatonic or alterous, whichever fits best. I dunno, labels are difficult.
We can be a bit of a chaotic duo. Partners in crime and life π
Helpful Tags
#flaru - Any art of us (including writing)
#/goldenstar - Our main story. I like making AUs, so I use this tag for just regular us stuff. You can find AU tags under blog tags (which will be linked).
#flarucore - Us core stuff
#taru rambles - Me saying whatever is on my mind / just yapping, this may include vents.
Other Things
Blog Tags
Headcanons
Ref Sheets

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I'm sorry this isn't a submission, but I've been wanting to write a relationship (mostly aroace4aroace) where characters feel exteramo attraction. But I have no idea what the specifics of this are!
So if it isn't much bother, could some people please share their experiences with exteramo attraction? Looking in the tag there hasn't helped me and I've never managed to see a post where it's explained in depth or via personal experiences. So I've never really understood the gist of it and what differentiates it from alteruous attraction, for example.
Thank you!! Sorry for the inconvenience.
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(β) (More) Colorful pastel "this user's selfship is _4_!" userboxes.
pt. one
Free to use, no credit required, but reblogs to show usage would be appreciated!
ace4ace, aroace4aroace, and aro4aro flags!