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could be more, they (I) can always suffer a little more

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(This post is about queerplatonic yearning, I'm aromantic, this is not about romance)
I want someone who will love me to the maximum extent they can love someone. Who will choose me as much as I choose them. Who will text me first. Who will continue the conversations I initiate because they want to know about my day too. Who will reply by the next day if I text them too late.
The stupid thing is that I've already got someone like that, but I don't like them as much as they like me (for a multitude of reasons, first of all bc they're kinda too much older than me for it to feel completely normal ngl, and they are not aro so it feels like romance eugh).
And the one I currently actually want to do all these things does half of them, but somehow I'm still not satisfied. I want requited love for once, that's it. Starting to think I should resign to open myself up for romantic relationships but those give me the ick.
It's so hard to fall in love as an aro when your QPR pool is already tiny and then you find someone so compatible and so lovely that it hurts and you've been through this already and you're making all the same mistakes.
I hate this so much
i remember the night i first realized i was on the aroace spectrum i texted my partner at the time about it because at the time, we were still dating, but it was like in that phase where i could feel everything ending and going downhill, so we already didnt have a good connection. however, they had always been so supportive of me in everything, and they already knew i was asexual, so i thought theyd be completely okay with me saying hey im on the aromantic spectrum too, but when i told them about it, they got mad and instantly asked if that was me saying i dont love them anymore, and something along the lines of if you just wanna breakup you can say that. and to this day i dont understand how "im aroace" translates to "i am incapable of love". but i got scared and told them i was just overthinking it, even though deep down i knew who i was, and i am still mad to this day that i didnt stay true to who i was despite their ignorance. and now, im dating a beautiful aroace man, who makes me feel like the luckiest boy in the world. and i wish i could go back and tell abused, scared, closeted aroace ozzy that he deserves sunshine. and he ends up finding his sunshine.
I'm sorry this isn't a submission, but I've been wanting to write a relationship (mostly aroace4aroace) where characters feel exteramo attraction. But I have no idea what the specifics of this are!
So if it isn't much bother, could some people please share their experiences with exteramo attraction? Looking in the tag there hasn't helped me and I've never managed to see a post where it's explained in depth or via personal experiences. So I've never really understood the gist of it and what differentiates it from alteruous attraction, for example.
Thank you!! Sorry for the inconvenience.
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ace4ace, aroace4aroace, and aro4aro flags!
IMAGE ID. 3 rectangular flags with 11 stripes that are, in order: black, grey, greenish grey, light greenish grey, green, darker green, green, light greenish grey, greenish grey, grey, black. The first flag has an interlocking heart symbol. END OF ID.
୨୧ • aro4aro
︵︵︵︵︵︵★ ꒱ explanations :
Flag for aromantic individuals who prefer or prioritize dating other aromantics, or simply for aros who date other aros.
PT. aro4aro. explanations. Flag for aromantic individuals who prefer or prioritize dating other aromantics, or simply for aros who date other aros. END OF PT.
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୨୧ • ace4ace
︵︵︵︵︵︵★ ꒱ explanations :
Flag for asexual individuals who prefer or prioritize dating other asexuals, or simply for aces who date other aces.
PT. ace4ace. explanations. Flag for asexual individuals who prefer or prioritize dating other asexuals, or simply for aces who date other aces. END OF PT.
IMAGE ID. 3 rectangular flags with 11 stripes that are, in order: black, dark blue, blue, light blue, light dull yellow, orange, light dull yellow, light blue, blue, dark blue, black. The first flag has an interlocking heart symbol. END OF ID.
୨୧ • aroace4aroace (rose4rose)
︵︵︵︵︵︵★ ꒱ explanations :
Flag for aroaces individuals who prefer or prioritize dating other aroaces, or simply for aroaces who date other aroaces.
PT. aroace4aroace (rose4rose). explanations. Flag for aroaces individuals who prefer or prioritize dating other aroaces, or simply for aroaces who date other aroaces. END OF PT.
im aroace, and have realized this more and more as time goes on!
but something about my husband, man.
i can’t deny the absolute beauty of being in love with him, the look in his eyes when he’s happy.. is something else.
stanford, my husband, is absolutely my soulmate. i believed it when we first confessed 5-6 years ago, and I believe it now.
something about t4t love and understanding is absolutely gorgeous.
i never felt comfortable being intimate with anyone like i do before. he’s a huge inspiration for all my writings.
i love you, and i love being gay with you. :’—)