i sometimes will be dissociated and zoning out for a bit and then when i “come back” i hear the tail end of a sentence being thought but i didn’t know i was thinking and i can’t remember/hear the start or what it was about and it just goes quiet in your head instead
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We just found out yesterday that we have a canon abuser of one of our introjects… And this new headmate locked protectors and gatekeepers away, sabotaged a few people, and then trapped their typical victim alone with them to continue committing canon abuse. Usually, we’d never speak about something like this on this blog, but after attempting to reach out to some friend systems, we were immediately hit with language that more protected the abuser instead of the currently countless victims, namely our one headmate who only thought they were having PTSD episodes of this person only to be hit with this horrific realization yesterday.
We are almost always one of the first people to advocate for the understanding of potentially problematic headmates, but this was so over the top. Like this was so evil, it was nearly cartoonish. And so now we’re just… Trying to figure out how to cope with this, because most people have gawked at us for wanting to peacefully lock this headmate up for what they did. No cruelty, but just space until we can figure out what in the hell we’re going to do.
We’d usually never post about this here, but… Good god. We just really need some supportive comments right now, plus advice of systems who have gone through this before.
I see a lot of discourse online about referring to your alters as parts because it's dehumanizing.
Our alters don't mind being called parts, and some of us even refer to ourselves as IDs, but we don't want to do this if it actually is harmful.
Is it okay to refer to yourself as a part or even ID? some of our alters when introducing themselves say, "My ID is (name)" instead of "My name is (name), I'm an alter/part" because it works better for them.
TLDR: Is it okay to use part or ID instead of alter / sysmate? Or is that harmful?
hi, uh, do you guys think you could draw what disassociating feels like? /nf
I hope that's okay, just so we can visualise it for non-sys friends? w/ credit of course!!
Of course I can!
Disclaimer for anyone else seeing this, dissociation can happen outside of DID and if you find anything below relatable I’d recommend looking into dissociation!
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note: the tags i have put are for reaching the right audience i need for this.
so, to start off, i’m not a system and i don’t think i’m experiencing plurality in any way.
i came to tumblr specifically because i know there are people here who have good knowledge and experiences. on reddit people are usually arguing and debating. anyways; for a long time (around 8 years now) i’ve experienced something that i do not know a term for.
i’ll try to explain to my best ability:
i have some sort of connection, that people have called delusion very frequently, on characters, right? i don’t really know how irls work, but i think that could be a tiny bit related from what i’ve seen. i’m not entirely educated because so many sources vary. but get this, also; i have connection to my own form of perception on a character as if it were to be my own version. like an oc? i’m unfamiliar on how to describe but it’s just that it’s not a *specific* character. it can fluctuate as well, on “who” i’m feeling like.
but, here’s the bigger problem; it’s not just one. right now it’s two at a time. i feel like two people at once, overlapping. and i can’t really put my finger on who is mainly taking part. i hate to use the word “who” for it, because once again i don’t believe i’m plural (i have nothing that aligns at all with the concept of plurality). i just don’t know what to use.
and here’s the absolute worst part. please don’t come after me for this or anything, i’m really just trying to navigate this & not trying to seem like a weirdo; a real person (but my own form/version), can also apply to this. i don’t know why. it’s weird, & a music artist!!! wtf. & i get really really nervous bringing this up because i don’t want to look creepy :,-)
if anyone has help, that’d be amazing, and if you have mutuals who might know, please share.
DID questions (trigger warning sa and suicide threats)
so my friend who thinks they maybe a system was talking about their experiences and I related to a surprising amount of them so I just wanted to ask questions about what people who do have DID think but trigger warning for me talking about my toxic exes
So I have recently been made aware that calling yourself something different in your head and asking yourself questions and answering them as a different person and seeing yourself as someone else isn't normal, but I have also had full conversations with people and just admittedly forgotten them afterwards and I'll be standing there after the conversations finished confused on what I was doing including getting out of bed getting dressed talking to my mom and waking up confused on why she's saying that she has already told me to get up and that we talked for apparently a hour I assumed I was just tired or something. In my head I will talk to myself and answer my own questions and call myself Cathy and Cathy has very different opinions than me I have also talked about myself as in my birth name like that's not me and I have been going by shadow for awhile. I have made decisions and talk as in I'm not the one doing it "she's having fun" or "you're talking to much" and explaining things to myself like full characters I have explaining them as in i am a audience. I thought that DID only happens in little little kids but my friend said it can happen when older I am a teenager. I thought I didn't have a trauma but I have been told that yes I do and I'll explain that so trigger warning for abusive exes grooming rape and death this will be in detail of it to explain everything I don't wanna leave anything out
When I was little like 6 maybe I had dated a 16 year old on among us and he had made me participate in sexual rps with him including him make me rp rape scenes with him and when we broke up he had told all of his friends it was the other way around and that I had made him rp the rape scenes. And my next ex who was 15 i think I was 8 had also made me rp sex scenes as DSMP characters and trauma dump on me saying his dad threw a vase at him and that his brother had killed himself and his sister had tried having sex with his older brother and that he had nearly kíll himself. My next ex had broke up with me because i wouldn't send nudes to him he was 18 I was around 10. My most recent ex had suicide threats made me sext and audio sex him on my Xbox and made me rp sex him on Minecraft including incest and rape. Last year my grandpa died and when I stop thinking sometimes I see his body. My friend has told me this is trauma and that I am still young enough to have DID from this. I am homeschooled and don't have the resources to get tested and my family is the type to play off some things as teens being dramatic, I don't know anymore I just needed to know if it's possible I feel like I'm faking everything and are just being weird even though fakers know that they're fakers