haunt .7

i have some sort of connection, that people have called delusion very frequently, on characters, right? i don’t really know how irls work, but i think that could be a tiny bit related from what i’ve seen. i’m not entirely educated because so many sources vary. but get this, also; i have connection to my own form of perception on a character as if it were to be my own version. like an oc? i’m unfamiliar on how to describe but it’s just that it’s not a *specific* character. it can fluctuate as well, on “who” i’m feeling like.

but, here’s the bigger problem; it’s not just one. right now it’s two at a time. i feel like two people at once, overlapping. and i can’t really put my finger on who is mainly taking part. i hate to use the word “who” for it, because once again i don’t believe i’m plural (i have nothing that aligns at all with the concept of plurality). i just don’t know what to use.

and here’s the absolute worst part. please don’t come after me for this or anything, i’m really just trying to navigate this & not trying to seem like a weirdo; a real person (but my own form/version), can also apply to this. i don’t know why. it’s weird, & a music artist!!! wtf. & i get really really nervous bringing this up because i don’t want to look creepy :,-)