fall down the rabbit hole 🐇🕳️🦌🐾

we are a newly discovered system who has just recovered memories, we are still very new to systemhood and aren’t even fully sure we ARE a proper did system yet, but for now this is helping our frame of mind. we needed a place outside of our brain to be ourselves in the meantime before we get properly diagnosed, hence this blog.

we sometimes will go long stretches without posting due to our several disabilities and hectic life.

we have fluctuating chronic pain and commissions/requests are always on a basis of we will get to it when we physically can get to it :)

our system mates will not tolerate disrespect to sys kids and middles inside or outside our system.

if we see you coming at us sexually out of nowhere without knowing who is fronting we will block you.

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content warnings

stances : pro endo, critical of dark fiction, pro kink, neutral harassment (in the sense that i will harass bigots), paraphilla critical, anti big 3, radqueer critical, anti harmful radqueer identities, etc prob add more if you are curious about something feel free to ask and we’ll add it to our stances after the fact

✅boundaries for interaction : be kind and respectful, do not send us mean jokes out of nowhere unless we are friends i am autistic and will not understand you are joking, similarly with joke flirting please do not do it unless you are a close friend and use /j, do not yell in all caps at us aggressively without a tone tag (/j or /lh works), do not be weird about alters and their sources, similarly don’t come onto posts made by alters and trash talk their source character and wish harm or violence on them i can’t believe i have to fucking specify this.

⚠️before you interact : we are a severe child abuse victim and survivor and we post and talk about topics such as child abuse, CSA, COCSA, domestic violence, incest, sibling abuse, familial abuse, sexual humiliation, grooming, religious trauma, transphobia, workplace harassment, c-PTSD, severe child neglect, hypersexuality, homicidal/aggressive thoughts, intrusive thoughts, self harm, multiple eating disorders, autocannibalism, other types of compulsions, horror/fear related trauma, kink + general nsfw content, mental/physical healthcare trauma, revictimization trauma, school bullying, stalking, paranoia, delusional thinking, guns/hunting, undiagnosed and untreated mental illness, system/memory related trauma, sexually compulsive behavior/attractions, suspected ocd and bpd thoughts, like all the types of abuse physical/mental/psychological/sexual. there’s probably more, if it makes you upset you should expect to find it here. take caution. we do not tag all the time. if we do tag it will be tagged either cw ___ or tw ___. proceed with extreme caution.

i do not support everything talked about on this blog, please use your brain i am not actually a serial killer cannibal incest lover. severe trauma conditioning is real. survivors shouldn’t need to be pretty or palatable for you to have the basic decency to respect them.

❌ do not interact : consang fuckers who think irl incest is okay in anyway. general dni bullshit. harmful radqueers and radqueer identities. (radqueer community in general are on thin ice but yall can hang out if you’re chill and also are anti harmful identities). pro contact big 3 paraphiles. big 3 paraphilia havers in general. (ocd havers are not included in that, you are safe here). homo/transphobic people. cishet men. transmisoginistic people. don’t believe trans men are oppressed. believe trans women are as a group oppressing trans men. use terms like tmra/transmisandry to describe anti transmasculinity, pls listen to women about why they don’t like these terms PLEASE GOD COIN A NEW TERM WHATEVER JUST CALL IT SOMETHING ELSE UNRELATED TO MISOGYNISTIC CIS MENS RIGHTS ACTIVIST TALKING POINTS. men’s rights activists. transmed/truscum. fake claim or reality check ANYONES lived experiences in anyway without consent. proshippers who use dark material for spank bank material, you guys fucking suck and ruin dark fiction as a coping mechanism for trauma victims. both proship + antiship discourse, you fuckers give me a headache. you dislike dark fiction as a means of exploring trauma and compulsions that come after trauma. transfem jax denier OR transmasc/enby/genderfluid jax believers. FUCK OFF. you want to bring syscourse into our dms. you lack critical thinking skills to apply to my posts. intend to criticize how and what i post to my own blog instead of blocking. you bring your own morals here onto my blog to push onto me. in any way have ill will or desire to fake claim our system. if you shame survivors for how they cope with their child abuse, DV, CSA, or incest trauma, DN FUCKING I. -jackal🐺🦷🐾

our beliefs vary between alters so you may find very different ways of seeing things depending on who’s fronting to talk about a topic. do not proscribe collective beliefs on our system even if we say we have them, our alters do NOT have the best communication or understanding of each others feelings and thoughts and they lack understanding of correct social etiquette and will straight up lie about the system sometimes for either self preservation or self destructive urges.

please block us if we make you uncomfortable!

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system members tags

✨ at the start of their # means frequent fronter!

🪟 at the start of their # means frequent observer!

⚙️ at the start of their # means average frequency front/observation from the alter!

⛓️ at the start of their # means infrequent fronter!

🛌 at the start of their # means ex frequent fronter!

🍹 at the start of their # means they are on break from fronting right now, can be short or long!

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#host tag🐇 - fluctuates who is using this tag

✨#jackal🐺🦷🐾 - he/it/her/rot/ram (no she), main host/cohost, protector, apathy holder, interest in all things macabre and death adjacent, aspiring future mortician, horror special interest haver, nu metal lover, yumes with leatherface, the scary evil frontstuck for 1 billion hours alter you’ve heard about, shapeshifter werewolf deer thing living in the woods

🍹✨#jackalope🥪🐶⭐️ - they/he/she/it/bark/woof, retired cohost, resident cofronter of the system, giggle maxxer, silly dog girl, gay boy lesbian, genderfluid thing, puppy pom pom purin fictive :333

✨#chilla🐇🧼🩹 - they/it/he/angels/wings, cohost, caretaker, a tired bunny with angel wings, loves cloud gazing and car rides and naps and stuffed animals :)) also likes drawing furries and other cute stuff :33

✨#badger🦡💥🐾 - he/it/hit, factive/fictive, anger holder, protector, emo little badger like that one mlp “we’re EMO!” meme, mcr fan 1st human being 2nd, the definition of preteen/teen angst, classic transexual furfag, creator of one BILLION dead fursonas, horror fan, emo cd collector, frank iero wannabe

🛌⚙️#lope🧪🐇🦠 - it/he/1T/H3, ex-host, liminal space special interest, nostalgic, aroace spec, was rarely fronting for a long time then suddenly showed back up one day, zombified lab rat opossum rabbit all sewn together, us at 15 pretty much, fucked up evil gay scientist, horny for science ^7^//🎉

✨#jackrabbit🪶🐇☢️ - he/it, co host? retired host, anxiety holder, paranoia holder, delusion/compulsion holder, self doubt holder, very into roles, loves nature, is like that one picture of the rabbit with the clock basically, he thinks he’s the host/og (he’s not) and that none of us are real 💀💀💀 god please save him

🪟#angel’s eyes🪽💫👁️ - she/it/they, angel alter, protector, silent watcher, hundreds of her all seeing eyes are always watching for danger to our system or friends, only ever fronts in emergencies, is religious and believes herself to be our “guardian angel”, any religious discussion will be tagged as ⭐️angels prayers if you would like to block the tag in advance

🛌⚙️#tommy/clem🍊☀️💥 - he/she/it, ex host, extremely source connected fictive, our trauma recovery internal specialist, she fluctuates from a rowdy teenage girl to a wise old woman who has lived 15 different lives in 20 short years, big lesbian

✨#wishbone🫀🪽🎀 - she/they/he/it, our research and development manager, our “voice of reason”, most in the system value her advice, chronic pain haver, big sister figure, loves pastels, loves research, is a unicorn with a love of gurokawa aesthetics + fashion

⚙️#smiledog🦷🩸🖥️ - it/its, frag, just a dog, helps us with our dental hygiene, it likes to bark a whole bunch!

🪟⚙️#cheshire🎀🐾💜 - any/all sysmate pronouns, gatekeeper, innerworld operator, stays in innerworld mostly and only ever really cofronts when not in innerworld, took the form of the cheshire cat :3

⚙️⛓️#millie🧸🎀🎠 - she/it, frag/fictive, little, nonhuman, ghostmate, resides deep in headspace, 1900s ghost girl thing, loves animals and nature

⛓️#ninaaa!🌈🫟🔪 - she/H3R/it/1TS, frag/fictive, subsystem member, scenegirl mental serial killer with a love for blood! XP i’m a coping mechanism!! yay!!!!

🛌⚙️#kat!!🪤🦝⭐️ - it/paw/he, middle, fictive, dehumanization holder/embracer, nonhuman therian soul, is incredibly connected to warrior cats, loves his source but doesn’t like talking about it outside dms

🪟#jax🐇🎀 🫟 - she/her system members can use she/he, derealization holder, depersonalization holder, memory eater, does not feel real 99% of the time, source memories, quiet when she fronts, heavily dissociated part, one half doesn’t want to be here, the other half is making the best of things!

⛓️#jtk🪦🔪🩸 - he/him, frag/fictive, protector, survival mechanism, alarm clock, radical self love/acceptance worker, self preservation alter, older brother figure, subsystem member, doesn’t front during the day usually, not a big talker

⛓️🛌#jack🩻⛓️‍💥🕳️ - it/he, ex host, fictive, survival mode holder, survivalist, protector, nonhuman creature, hates talking, subsystem member, mostly makes weird noises, can beam its thoughts into sysmates heads to be heard/understood

⛓️#toby🪓🔥🛢️ - he/him, frag/fictive, violent urges holder, fighter, intrusive thoughts embracer, anger/hate holder, protector, comforter, misanthropic, fire lover, hates or distrusts everyone outside the system, another subsystem member

🪟#habit🐇🫟🎥 - it/he/xe/H3/1T/X3, half abuser introject/half fictive, berserker/persecutor, locked out of solo front, intrusive thoughts maker, possessor, is the self proclaimed “evil alter” he just sucks don’t try to “ohhh all alters are secretly good and have good intentions!” with him because he literally is just a dick

⛓️#shadowlope🕳️🔦🦷 - it/its, half abuser/half headmate introject, mimic, loyalist, self doubt and self hate, enforcer, accuser, exhort, impersonator, fear shifter, subsplit in the system, nonfronting alter, a husk

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lots of our alters rarely front or front in only specific situations, we cycle mostly between five/sometimes six or seven (SHUT THE FUCK UP) alters. others never front on their own and others don’t front period.

if there’s anyone specific you wanna talk to you can feel free to ask but you might not get a speedy reply from that person or a reply from them period.

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profile navigation tags

⭐️new systems comic - our comic tag !! please check these out we worked a hard on them :DDD

⭐️alter intros - our extensive intros !! same as above we’d love it if you checked them out ^_^

⭐️our art - our own art not part of our comics, mostly oc work and commision work :P (commissions open!)

⭐️our stimboards - tag of all our stimboards (open!)

⭐️our moodboards - tag of all our moodboards (open!)

⭐️others requests - any requests we make for people (we make stim/moodboards, BAH, outfits, prob other stuff, if you have an idea ask us about it! <3) (open!)

⭐️our asks - asks/posts we’ve answered !!

⭐️ask games - different ask games you can send stuff from to get to know us! you can also see our replies to the ask games in this tag too :))

⭐️our barks - our text posts / random talking posts

⭐️jackal barks - more complaintive/argumentative posts, feel free to mute this :)) you might see vague syscourse stances (pro endo i love u guys) but not alot

⭐️angels prayers - religious talk / trauma discussion feel free to mute!!

any other tws or cws are not tagged with star emojis as to make blocking/filtering easiest for people.

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our personal tags

⭐️fave - generally our favorite posts on the site!!

⭐️my wife - posts that are about my irl gf or posts that remind me of her in some way !! <3

⭐️resources - all did resources we’ve collected so far

⭐️important - important posts we’ve collected so far

⭐️retag - need to go back and retag w alter tags

⭐️our requests - things people make for us! :)

⭐️art - others art that we want to study and learn from

⭐️graphics - graphics blinkies userboxes you name it!

⭐️terms + flags - self explanatory, lgbt and plurality!

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our ask box + dms are always open !!!