ooh! ok, an npt pack for Gerard Way? if you don't quite get that one, just one based off of masculinity, guyliner, and red eyeshadow? thanks! maybe even the 2000s too.
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note: the tags i have put are for reaching the right audience i need for this.
so, to start off, i’m not a system and i don’t think i’m experiencing plurality in any way.
i came to tumblr specifically because i know there are people here who have good knowledge and experiences. on reddit people are usually arguing and debating. anyways; for a long time (around 8 years now) i’ve experienced something that i do not know a term for.
i’ll try to explain to my best ability:
i have some sort of connection, that people have called delusion very frequently, on characters, right? i don’t really know how irls work, but i think that could be a tiny bit related from what i’ve seen. i’m not entirely educated because so many sources vary. but get this, also; i have connection to my own form of perception on a character as if it were to be my own version. like an oc? i’m unfamiliar on how to describe but it’s just that it’s not a *specific* character. it can fluctuate as well, on “who” i’m feeling like.
but, here’s the bigger problem; it’s not just one. right now it’s two at a time. i feel like two people at once, overlapping. and i can’t really put my finger on who is mainly taking part. i hate to use the word “who” for it, because once again i don’t believe i’m plural (i have nothing that aligns at all with the concept of plurality). i just don’t know what to use.
and here’s the absolute worst part. please don’t come after me for this or anything, i’m really just trying to navigate this & not trying to seem like a weirdo; a real person (but my own form/version), can also apply to this. i don’t know why. it’s weird, & a music artist!!! wtf. & i get really really nervous bringing this up because i don’t want to look creepy :,-)
if anyone has help, that’d be amazing, and if you have mutuals who might know, please share.
i know people have succeeded with no pronoun usage . how do you succeed with no name . im asking as someone who feels so disconnected from names all the time ,, i have a name i go by but idk vague feelings of stuff . i have a name but it's like , only use that when getting my attention. otherwise no name ? does that make sense
How to tell if I'm aromantic or if I'm just fucked up because of my lifestyle (I barely talk to anyone in any of my classes and spend most of my time online instead of going out and actually giving myself opportunities to get into relationships)
I wouldn't mind being in a relationship I think? and sometimes I do want to be in one but I've only ever felt attracted to like. One person in my life, Maybe two?? but im not sure, it's complicated.
And while I do sometimes wish I had a girlfriend whenever I imagine myself in a relationship with a real person I get kinda grossed out in a way? with maybe one exception.
I guess I've always thought "oh I'll like someone eventually", but now that I have a friend group with people who actually have boyfriends/crushes on people I'm realizing I've never really felt this way about anyone? Like I've never actively wanted to pursue someone I guess. Again with one exception but still.
I also just don't think I'd be good in a relationship due to my mental health but generally I just can't tell if there's just something wrong with me or not
Hello my flowers, I'm going to be rebranding this account as more of a identity help blog that helps with fragments, gender identity, pronouns, names and whatever else might you might need!
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