#crazymaking

you keep asking to confirm they can see it, that you both are seeing all of this, that they can see the teeth and tendrils and sheer size of it. they downplay whatever detail you bring up, or confirm it's there but shrug

“the tentacles? yeah true, the tentacles did swallow the fire exit, you're not wrong”

“oh yeah, I hated when it ate Brendan. look, nobody was more upset about it eating Brendan than I was”

“mhmmm I don't know about pincers. I think we all have problems with pincers and being pinched in one way or another. it's actually relaxing the pincers lately, most people only have the pincers loosely around their throat. if you were serious about this, you would be happy about its movements pincer-wise”

“wait, you're still going on about the teeth sunk into Marie? that's because the jaw is right there, of course the teeth are going to be puncturing her. do you really expect the jaws to be where they are, unfortunately where she was sitting, and the teeth to not be puncturing through her? that doesn't seem very fair of you”

FOUNDATION | 3.03 "I was five when I first saw her use it. When the math moved around, it was like… the language of angels. But her calculations are about what's best for the Genetic Dynasty. Not the rest of…" "Humanity."

crazymaking burnout culture who the fuck knows what goes on in the news anymore? i fought for safety with my fingernails, blood between my teeth, screaming my beliefs out loud, because i believed if i could just make it out of the frying pan, i would be happy. now the whole world is on fire. (or it always was) freedom, safety no longer promises deferred but expectations pushed upon us. aren’t you happy? aren’t you happy? this is normal, this is normal, this is paranoia, the war is over, the war is ten different petty arguments on twitter, meanwhile people are dying, drowned in debt or choking in a respirator and yet another politician is trying to make me illegal, but sure, i’m the crazy one.

get up, coward, i scream at myself, get up and fucking fight, but my fingernails hit air, leave trails of glitter in this technicolor dreamworld, and honestly, i’m just fighting to stay on my feet as the world bucks and shifts under me. the other day, someone said to me “the center cannot hold,” but i think the center has been missing for a while now, and we’re all just stars, missing our galaxy, flung far out and spinning on and on and on into some new nightmare dance like fucked up marrionets

but maybe we’re not. maybe they’re right, and we’re about to land in the pillow of the soft, warm, ground. i can’t tell, and it’s making me kind of crazy.

what is true but irrelevant? what looks beautiful but lies?

Excuses Bullies Make to Justify Bullying

The excuses bullies make for their rotten behavior are endless. Here are the most common excuses bullies make. “Just because.” “Because he’s annoying.” “She brings it on herself.” “I was only joking.” “Because he’s a nerd.” “Because she’s a loser.” “Because he’s so stupid.” “Because you deserve it.” “Because you have a crooked nose (or funny ears, etc.).” “Because he’s a wimp (wuss, geek,…

Adding Insult to Injury: Stonewalling and Closure-withholding as Precursors to Reactive Abuse and the Smear Campaign

I want to add another relevant point to the above quotation.

The position of begging and pleading into which targets are forced by their narcissistic abusers is already both humiliating and painful. Indeed, that’s often the purpose behind the abusive baiting-and-stonewalling or baiting-and-ghosting that drives the target to beg and plead in the first place. (When the abuser’s purpose is not entirely to humiliate or hurt the target, his or her purpose is at least partly to manipulate or coercively control the target, often in order to avoid having a serious conversation, or to avoid the honesty and cooperation that would be required to resolve a standing issue in a fair and healthy way).

However, to add yet more insult to injury, the abuser also tends to mock or otherwise shame the target for the begging and pleading behaviours that have come about because of his or her abusive treatment. This is called ‘reactive abuse’, since it consists in the abuser’s punishment, condemnation, misrepresentation, or gaslighting of the target’s distressed reactions to prior abuse.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder (DSM 5)

Diagnostic criteria

Proposed criteria (alternative model)