#cptsd problems

I will never forgive on what my sister Laura said to me.

• Dolly Parton

• Bjork

• Ozzy Osborne

• Madonna

• Snow Petrol

• One Ok Rock

• Lady Gaga

• Britney Spears

• A-ha

• Tears For Fears

• Pet Shop Boys

• Bon Jovi

• David Bowie

• Micheal Jackson

• Ice Cube

• Nelly

• George Michael

• Cutting Crew

• Modern Talking

• Ne-yo

• Kiss

• Black Sabbath

• Linkin Park

• James Blunt

• Blondie

• NWA

• LeAnn Rimes

• Snoop Dog

• Justin Beiber (my sister Laura really believes that the devil has taken over him)

• Eminem

• Taylor Swift

• Shakria

• Beyonce

• The Cure

• Jojo

• Evanescence

• Jordin Spark

I've had many evaluations, but Lynette could never get me sectioned. I asked all the right answers and in Lynette's words "she needs to be controlled. I can't control her". Why the NHS never got the police involved during this time, is beyond me.

My brat of a sister Laura, the golden child, wanted me to be sectioned too. But that didn't work.

I was never dELuSiOnAL. But Lynette made sure everyone around me thought i was DeLuSiOnAL and it nearly worked. If i hadn't posted memes and mocking everyone lol.

After when i cut off Jennifer, Lynette would always tell me, she would meet Jennifer's mum Andrea for coffee. Lynette would tell me "I'm meeting Andrea, behave and don't be delusional while I'm gone". So I would sit in my room and watch anime for a few hours.

One day they stopped meeting up, it was around the same time the police investigation started in 2012. Kinda odd, if you ask me.

I've always wondered if Lynette was telling me the truth. Lynette lied about everything and she would never do coffee meet ups, not even with her own friends. She would always say "i don't have enough money". So why was Andrea any different?

Lynette never told me the full truth. So I never got to know her as a person. Even tho, she's my so-called mother. She would lie about the tiniest thing and maniplates everyone into believing that lie.

Me and Jennifer did become friends years later, but I had to cut her out of my life in late 2022.

So when we were friends, I've always wanted to ask Andrea about the meet up with Lynette. But before I could ask, she hung up and blocked me. And no, I never got to ask, the only thing I said to her was "can I ask you a question". It wasn't even about Jennifer, it was about her and Lynette meeting up for coffee. But that never came to be.

I've always wondered if and i mean IF Lynette and Andrea did meet up for coffee.

They told me "it's your fault your grandma is sick. You should have never called the police. Look at your poor grandma who's ill, you made her that way because you reported your family. How dare you make your own grandma sick. You're the reason why she's sick and ill. She misses you terribly, if you go back, you can heal her. It's all your fault that your grandma is dying".

Not my fault.

But i would always sneak and walk on that road, anytime i know Lynette (my cunt of a mother) was at work or out of the house.

Laura (my brat of an older sister) would get other family members or one of her friends that could drive and patrol the road, so they don't see me on it.

But why? It's so fucking odd.

There's an abandoned church on that road called St Charles Hall and I know I've been there as a kid in the 90s. I went there for weddings and brownie scouts as a kid. Fun memories. Nothing bad.

Heck, the priest's house turned into an old people's home. It's a beautiful building too.

They keep telling me that I'm making it up when I mention the abandoned church, that I've never been and I making it all up. But I do remember. Why lie to me? Lynette, Laura, Ian (my cunt of a dad), uncle Anthony (Ian's older brother, who's also a cunt) and Lilian (my grandma that's pure nasty towards me) all said I'm being DELuSiOnAL when I have memories there.

It's so fucking weird.

Then I remember going to a house there at the end of Woolley Bridge Road and I was baby sat by a loving family. But I don't remember what happened to them and now that house is also abandoned.

I can't find out online what happened to that family. I looked on Google maps and the house sat there abandoned way before 2009. You could clearly see the house, now it's behind trees and bushes.

I can't find out online why the church was abandoned too. I know my town thinks it's incredibly haunted and many people think something bad happened to make it go unused.

I don't fucking understand the secrecy in my family. Why lie? Fucking why?

Edit:

I just found an article about St Charles Hall Church. It used to be a primary school back in the 50s and 60s. Even won awards.

Oh Lilian had a miscarriage and she said "god punished me. But i won't love that baby anyway, it was an accident". Like, wtf.

And people still support them.