Life after trauma can, at times, be harder. What do you mean they really did all that. What do you mean that all really happened. What do you mean it wasn't my fault. What do you mean.

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Life after trauma can, at times, be harder. What do you mean they really did all that. What do you mean that all really happened. What do you mean it wasn't my fault. What do you mean.

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Today everything hurts. The air, my skin, my thoughts. Iâve been crying, then numb. Present, then pulled out of reality, feeling like a ghost watching herself move through the day. Itâs the irritability of trauma leaving the body, the agitation of something I once held onto, loosening its grip. If this is healing, then let it wreck me clean.
Please, please I'm sorry, I said something wrong didn't I? I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please don't be mad at me, I didn't mean to, I'll take it back, please don't yell at me. I'll do anything, just please don't hate me, I didn't mean to make you mad. It's not my fault, it's not my fault I swear. I'll take the brunt of your anger, I'll take anything from you, your hatred and bitterness, but please don't break me too much. You know I'm fragile. You know that, right? I'll take it, I'll take it good and I won't complain but please don't make me cry too much, my head already hurts so much and I've already spent a morning dry heaving, and I can't keep finding excuses to tell people for my absence. I just want to be loved, not this, but if this is love I will take every bit of it, just please don't be mad at me. My heart can't take it, don't you know it's already broken? I know you're not him but I find myself doomsday planning anyway. Please don't be mad.
What I actually say: ahah hey look at this picture of a cat holding carrots btw isn't that so funny
Just heard the worst take ever..
That apparently it's fine to send a stranger to a psychward or say very weird things just cause they're really expressive about hating humanity/ open about their ruined life even if they make valid points.
Yet it's fine if someone keeps claiming how beautiful & flawless they are..but if it's the other way then it's a warcrime? Yeah get out.
Like if you ever read someone being misanthropic & they express how repulsive people are to them & get offended, then you're the problem, cuz no one's directly attacking you & you're getting bitchy over nothing đ

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The way you hold your hips shapes the way you hold life.
Your pelvic space has been silenced for centuries.
Thatâs why hip-opening often feels wrong for you and intimidating to others.
Our womb space holds an ocean of emotions. Especially shame.
Shame for not being allowed to move the way our body longs to.
Shame for being too much, too open, too powerful.
Many of us were taught (directly or subtly) to keep our legs crossed and our power tucked away.
Anything else was too much. Too vulgar. Too confident. Too alive.
So we learned:
Shrink yourself. Close your body. Donât take up too much space.
A generational posture, inherited and internalized.
But standing with your legs wide, pelvis open, facing the world?
Thatâs a declaration.
Of courage. Confidence. Boldness. Strength. Sensuality. Fertility. Life force.
Practices like Goddess Pose (Utkata Konasana) or intuitive hip circles arenât just exercises.
Theyâre invitations.
To reclaim our body.
To awaken the ancient feminine within.
To rise and meet life, fully open, wild-hearted and unshaken.
These movements donât just stretch muscles.
They stretch open emotional space:
Joy. Grief. Shame. Ecstasy. Anger. Power.
And yes, many find that intimidating.
Because most people are disconnected from their own feelings.
And because weâve all been conditioned to believe that open hips are somehow inappropriate.
Too much. Too exposed.
But hereâs the truth:
That discomfort you feel in hip-openers?
Itâs not just physical.
Itâs because your body remembers how powerful you are.
Every inch of openness in your hips is a soft unraveling of control, fear, and performance.
Youâre not too much.
And you donât need to hold yourself together to be loved.
Youâre allowed to expand.
To take up space.
To trust your bodyâs impulses.
To feel safe in your fullness.
Your pelvis is not a place of shame.
Itâs the portal of your life force.
Own it.
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đ 100 Letters to My Inner Child -- A Guided Journal for Healing & Reflection
Because the younger you is still waiting for a reply.
They kept every version of you alive -- the one who wanted to be seen, the one who was too tired to ask, the one who learned to survive by shrinking. This journal teaches you how to speak back.
đď¸ Inside youâll find: ⢠100 emotional letter prompts like: â> âDear little me, I forgive you forâŚâ â> âDear little me, I finally understandâŚâ â> âDear little me, let me love you now.â
⨠Whatâs Included: ⢠106 total pages ⢠Soothing watercolor aesthetic ⢠6Ă9 inch printable (PDF) ⢠How-to-use guide for inner-child and shadow work ⢠Bonus pages for memory reconstruction, affirmations, and closure
đ Perfect For: ⢠Therapy clients & trauma recovery ⢠Shadow-work journaling & grief healing ⢠Anyone who still flinches when they remember their childhood voice
Your younger self never wanted perfection. They just wanted to know someone would listen.
đ Begin today â write what needed to be said years ago. â¤ď¸ Your younger self is still listening. đ https://themosthumble.gumroad.com/l/hyllhn đ https://linktr.ee/ObeyMyCadence
đş Healing isnât becoming someone new. Itâs finally writing back to the one whoâs been calling. </div>
I wrote 10k words in 5 days. One of the best orgasms ever.