Dec 22, 2025
So I realised why my nightmares are the way they are...
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So I realised why my nightmares are the way they are...
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The fun part about being an abuse survivor is that sometimes you are sitting down and suddenly realise that you're currently feeling bad because you subconsciously believe having hobbies makes you a bad person. And you look at this batshit insane belief and you squint and you go "This is definitely a result of something my parents did to me, but I have too much memory loss to know what that is". And then you live for an indefinite amount of time until your brain decides to unlock whatever memory formed the belief and you sit there and suffer and afterwards you go "oh so THAT'S why that's there. Damn that's fucked up. Welp anyways" and move on. And you repeat that. For every single one of those beliefs, and there's a lot of those beliefs, and almost all of them are incredibly stupid.
Anyways I'll reblog this when I get my trauma flashback, because rn all I am is mostly just very confused.
i think this is the worst time of year for folk who suffer with religious delusions and religious trauma
sure, christmas has been becoming progressively more secular through the years, but there's still so many obvious religious connections, especially if you're someone who's studied religion and/or been taught that most things in christmas have some form of religious motif
can't forget the christmas songs and how many are related to the nativity/the birth of jesus, or how many carry that general motif of sin and god through santa and all that
i hope anyone who suffers with religious delusions and trauma is doing alright, and if not, i hope things get better
sincerely, someone with religious trauma who's been pulled into a delusion for a few days now and is still struggling with it due to this time of year
Reminder: it is not "a waste of time" or "unproductive" to do something you find fun or relaxing. It is taking care of your body and mind. So don't feel guilty for having hobbies, going on a trip, taking a nap or binging youtube. You deserve to have that
Your worth is not the profit your can make for others. Your worth is innate. You deserve to be happy
i dont understand why people yell at me when i say im slow (mentally), i mean it. its not derogatory or offensive unless YOU use it that way. i am slow. it takes me longer to understand and process things than most do, thats literally what being mentally slow means
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My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.
just when i’m starting to like life again, something has to go wrong. let me BREATHE.
"yay i have a job im an adult" 🐱
"i was never meant to be alive or live past the age of 2" 😐