Moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul

Feeling physically sick when I'm completely alone

I constantly mimic the people i talk to, their way of thinking, and i basically become them when i talk to them.

I have never had a single good emotion in my life and never will.

I feel like I've manipulated everyone i know into loving me by pretending to be a good person

Chronic emptiness

(Remembers that bpd isn't curable and can't really be medicated effectively) ah. Hm.

Feeling like i have no personality when I'm alone

Life is okay sometimes

Repeated cancelling of plans makes me want to kill myself. No joke, i feel like you're tired of me or just do not care about me and therefore i have no reason to live.

If i am not useful, i should not exist.

Tearing myself apart for other people and being surprised when they don't do the same for me.

I am the hottest bitch on this earth

I am the ugliest most abhorrent and irredeemable disgusting being in this universe.

I am an all-wise sage. My soul is so old

(inconveniently horny)

Maybe I'm the only real person

Maybe I'm not real actually

Upset about things I literally made up and didn't happen

My opinions of other people don't really change. My opinion of myself, however?

Weddell Seal vocalizing while asleep