Black and more than a sacrifice and beyond wonder. Bisexual. You want my gender ? I want my gender too.(Transmisogyny/racialized transmisogyny/transmisogynoir exempt) "What does it mean to kind of…to try to experiment with living…uhm…in the context of a world that is in so many ways uninhabitable ?" Saidiya Hartman in conversation with Fred Moten
I've recently spent 700$ on various emergencies, and since then, 1000$ on living expenses and it has strongly depleted my bank account (it is now so severely overdrafted that I have NOTHING ). And if I want to somehow survive the first half of July, I'll need to fill this gap, preferably, by the end of next week. I also need 400$ out of this 1700$ ASAP since while I've received financial care, it went to overdraft fees and lingering debts, and I still need to have at least SOMETHING to tide me over for the first half of July.
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I've recently spent 700$ on various emergencies, and since then, 1000$ on living expenses and it has strongly depleted my bank account (it is now so severely overdrafted that I have NOTHING ). And if I want to somehow survive the first half of July, I'll need to fill this gap, preferably, by the end of next week. I also need 400$ out of this 1700$ ASAP since while I've received financial care, it went to overdraft fees and lingering debts, and I still need to have at least SOMETHING to tide me over for the first half of July.
I wrote this (publicly available) essay indexing the ways through which Black cishet men reinvent themselves as "exceptional Negroes" propped up through self produced media. I also expand on the afterimage of the "exceptional Negress" and on Black women so eager for the spotlight they might empty themselves for it. Here are excerpts to help contextualize the essay:
Hereby, some (of many) Black men, numb to the unvisible grinding machinery of Black cisheteropatriarchy, have been creating crossfades of scripts about what it meant to truly being Black, male, powerful, alpha, and therefore "special". Subjects, or rather, psychic constraints, a willful bordering of the mind, multiply and echo. It's not so much about Black women as it is about powerlessness rehearsing itself into a cinematographic and libidinal "kingdom".
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Through the evasion of a vexed Black masculinity and the greediness of being wanted, special Black men, as in "exceptional Negroes" cut through their "race" with a deep seated disgust, as a pledge of allegiance to the power holders they hauled themselves to. They want to be the only one, because to be the only one is always to be the best one. Thomas Clarence didn't so much sell his sister as he used her as a foil to accentuate his "exceptionalism", his "uniqueness", to use the interplay of shadow and light for a sharper photograph. Simultaneously prosperity pastor, good cop, "little child, running wild", New York lover, hip hop aficionado, megalomaniac, Eric Adams (mis)uses the signifiers of Blackness that he glues to his personal biography as a way to get New York to trust in the trials and tribulations that would made his a success story. And yet, he seems intent on prophesing his own rise to the top and his exceptionality, tying the death of the city to his personal failure, demanding to be believed in as a pastor herding his flock.
Candace Owens, as an "exceptional Negress", cannot be reduced to respectability politics; the slashing of Black victims of carceral violence, the open allegiance to white supremacy, are as much graves left for the thrill of having been the only one. Is that a home you're looking for ? Or a stepladder ? In any case, welcome to your own treachery.
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This (paywalled) poem turns on the exhausting and deadening labor of the First Lady, when trapped into a meaningless marriage during which she is made to bear her husband's infidelity, and the glassiness of a pained devotion. Here are some excerpts to help contextualize the poem:
Hello, my name is Nadin I’m from Gaza. I’m a graphic design graduate. I’m a wife. And now — I’m a mother.
I finished my design studies just before the war began.
I had dreams of starting a small design studio, of making art that told stories. I used to think about colors, fonts, sketches. I used to think about the future.
Then the war came.
And the future became something we tried to hold onto, moment by moment.
On October 22, 2023, I was pregnant when a missile destroyed my husband’s family home.
25 members of our family were killed — his mother, his siblings, his nieces and nephews, children. Entire branches of a family tree gone in seconds.
We were displaced twice after that.
Everything we had disappeared — home, safety, routine, rest.
A few weeks later, I gave birth to our daughter.
There was no crib. No stillness. No celebration.
But she came into the world quietly and beautifully.
And in her eyes, I saw something I hadn’t felt in weeks:
life that still wanted to grow.
Now, I spend my days holding her and trying to build a world around her that doesn’t shake with explosions.
We don’t know what comes next.
There is no clear path. We are walking toward the unknown, step by step — with our daughter in our arms and hope as our guide.
🧡 How You Can Help
This is why I’m asking for support. Not for comfort — but for survival.
To help care for one baby girl who entered the world after everything else collapsed.
My name is Nadin, and I’m a mother from Gaza.
If you can spare anything, it will help us:
Cover basic needs, so we can breathe and heal
Support a path toward even the smallest stability in a place that has none
My husband manages the donations securely through a U.S.-registered Stripe account.
Everything is converted to USDT and exchanged here in Gaza.
The rates are difficult — $100 becomes only 195 shekels (July 2025) — but we use every shekel carefully, with full transparency and documentation.
🎨 Sharing a Piece of Me
I want to share more than my need.
Over the next few weeks, I’ll begin posting some of my graphic designs from before the war.
They are pieces of who I was — and who I still am.
They may not be perfect, but they hold something real:
my story before the silence, and my belief that beauty can still live alongside survival.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you.
If you can give — thank you.
And if you can’t, just sharing this post is a form of support I will never forget.
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does anyone have $10 for a family of 7, 2 being kids, in a abusive house for food and $41 for Dereks insulin that he MUST take to stay out of an er? im panicking as his dosage was upped last year this is URGENT he's been out THREE DAYS now we're fucking overdraft by over 90 dollars so if anyone wants to help with that so please im begging we need any and all help to get through this anything helps be it a dollar or less. also please help me give these kids food to eat this summer
Heres my account balances. No help in DAYS, Derek needs his insulin, he's been out FOUR DAYS if he goes too long without it he might end up in ER or put in a dangerous position and He is already in a very bad mental and physical state right now. We found a bit of expired insulin to use for a day or two. Either way he needs his regular insulin dosage asap. Please, im literally begging, imagine if this was your family. We're also overdraft thanks to bill going through so any help with it would be appreciated cause til we pay this off no buying anything.
+ We need food desperately as kids need a lot of food and unfortunately we dont have a little food and they keep on asking about dinner. PLEASE HELP by donating r reblogging, @'ing anybody you think will share, liking this post doesn't help us gain traction, 1 reblog or 1 dollar adds up and makes a big difference. Please help us especially as its the summer & Liu will be eating all of her meals at home.
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does anyone have $10 for a family of 7, 2 being kids, in a abusive house for food and $41 for Dereks insulin that he MUST take to stay out of an er? im panicking as his dosage was upped last year this is URGENT he's been out FOUR DAYS we have some expired insulin enough for today but he needs his regular dose urgently please im begging we need any and all help to get through this anything helps be it a dollar or less. also please help me give these kids food to eat this summer
does anyone have $10 for a family of 7, 2 being kids, in a abusive house for food and $41 for Dereks insulin that he MUST take to stay out of an er? im panicking as his dosage was upped last year this is URGENT he's been out THREE DAYS now we're fucking overdraft by over 90 dollars so if anyone wants to help with that so please im begging we need any and all help to get through this anything helps be it a dollar or less. also please help me give these kids food to eat this summer
Heres my account balances. No help in DAYS, Derek needs his insulin, he's been out FOUR DAYS if he goes too long without it he might end up in ER or put in a dangerous position and He is already in a very bad mental and physical state right now. We found a bit of expired insulin to use for a day or two. Either way he needs his regular insulin dosage asap. Please, im literally begging, imagine if this was your family. We're also overdraft thanks to bill going through so any help with it would be appreciated cause til we pay this off no buying anything.
+ We need food desperately as kids need a lot of food and unfortunately we dont have a little food and they keep on asking about dinner. PLEASE HELP by donating r reblogging, @'ing anybody you think will share, liking this post doesn't help us gain traction, 1 reblog or 1 dollar adds up and makes a big difference. Please help us especially as its the summer & Liu will be eating all of her meals at home.
SADLY, MY FATHER, AHMED, HAS PASSED AWAY. THESE MAY BE THE FIRST WORDS YOU READ FROM ME TOMORROW.
Tonight, he was admitted to intensive care after losing his ability to resist, and he is now alive thanks to machines. I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and does not support me with a single word and ignores me.
The doctors told me his condition has become extremely critical, and without immediate treatment, he may not survive another night, so so I ask, can you help me get treatment for my father Ahmed??
As a young man suffering in Gaza, I appeal to you. I see my father in agony before my eyes, and I am powerless to stop his pain or help him. Donate now and help me save his life before it's too late.
I am standing outside the ICU, waiting for any sign that he is still fighting, but every second feels like a goodbye I am not ready for. Please donate now and help me save my father Ahmed
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does anyone have $10 for a family of 7, 2 being kids, in a abusive house for food and $41 for Dereks insulin that he MUST take to stay out of an er? im panicking as his dosage was upped last year this is URGENT he's been out THREE DAYS now we're fucking overdraft by over 90 dollars so if anyone wants to help with that so please im begging we need any and all help to get through this anything helps be it a dollar or less. also please help me give these kids food to eat this summer
