several years into their marriage is when ilya starts thinking about it. he decides to finger himself a little while shane is on a run. he needs more lube than he remembers using last time, but its still nice. he's thinking about shane, of course. his fingers and tongue, whenever ilya feels up to it. how nervous he was at first that he was going to hurt ilya in some way, but then how eager he was to learn after getting a taste

so ilya lets his mind wander to shanes cock, too. as he often does. hes had it down his throat so many times he thinks there must be a permanent imprint of it. hes even had it in his ass once, watching shane fall apart under him as ilya took what he wanted. watching as he hit a certain angle and could see shane's cock bulge in his stomach

that's what ultimately gets him off, waiting for shane to come back from his run. and he thinks, maybe he wont clean up the lube. maybe he'll stay laying on the bed, legs spread and cock twitching, until shane comes in to shower in their en suite. and maybe he'll beckon shane over with his messy fingers and see what happens next

shane doesnt make it to the shower. he sees ilya messy. he gets a little hypnotized by his dick throbbing between his lips. ilya tells him to eat him out and how is he supposed to say no?

eventually (after many many orgasms for ilya, and purposeful denial for shane) ilya asks him. "i want you to fuck me," he says, and before shanes gears can turn he adds, "in the front."

it's been a long time, yeah. shane is definitely bigger than anything hes taken there before. but ilya is horny, and feeling more than a little cocky, and a very quiet part of him says 'i want to give you one of my firsts, for once.'

he lets shane and his big fucking hands take over fingering and lube. shane insists on a condom even though ilya doesnt have a uterus or ovaries anymore. and the fit is very tight. shane bottoms out significantly before he's all the way in, and he looks kind of like he's about to pass out. but ilya decides its definitely on the side of horny passing out

and it feels good. even the initial stretch and positioning. ilya feels kind of like he's being split apart, not just physically but emotionally. because theyre in missionary and shanes catching his eye and asking "is this okay?" like hes checking in on ilya and asking if he's being a good boy. and how can ilya say no, when shane's big enough to brush his g spot every time, when its kind of pressing on his bladder and that feels both overwhelming and so fucking good, when shane looks so sweet and worried and like he's about to bust at any second

ilya ends up with his knees by his shoulders, shane using every muscle group in his body to pound into him. the angle gets him deep and it hurts but in a way that has ilya seeing god. his brain might be a little broken, even, because he's stopped giving shane orders and devolved into "fuck fuck fuck fuck me shane holy shit"

he thanks their athletic careers for keeping his body in check enough that his pelvic floor muscles are working. he thanks the dna in shanes body that made his dick this fucking big. he thanks the universe for putting him and shane together at that first meeting in saskatchewan because decades down the line that cute shy boy is the first one to fuck his cunt and its amazing

ilya comes twice more, shane pulls out after he does and doesnt even notice that the condom broke because hes so floaty. ilya doesnt give a shit, it's kinda hot that not only was shane the first cock in his front hole, he was the first and only one to come in it. ilya cares way more about the fact that hes crying and then shanes crying but theyre both just happy and overstimulated