shane whump enthusiast

[cringe post tw] love every angsty interpretation of hollanov daughter struggling through varied mental health issues but i also love the basics of them being girldads. shes 16 and some guy named tyler was mean to her and shes blasting good 4 u by olivia rodrigo for 6 hours a day

its like the teen version of when toddleds only want to listen to 1 bluey song on repeat. shane and ilya have to have a timeout for themselves theyre like i cant keep listening to this song ilya i get that she likes it but its too much and ilya is like no seriously shane i enjoyed the fucking song but not after 100 times. shane says should we like cut the wifi. ilya says no tried that she has all downloaded. shane says you tried that?? ilya says im dying i cannot do it anymore. shane says what the fuck is the point in buying her expensive headphones if she doesnt USE them

emotional about ilya and alexei again. the thing about growing up in an abusive household together is whether you want or not, you wind up defending each other. you cover for each other. you are on the same side. and sometimes you use each other as collateral, and sometimes you sic the abuser on your sibling to save yourself, and it’s always always a negotiation, you are always counting your allies, and sometimes (sometimes not, but still also sometimes) that ally is your sibling. sometimes it is you and them against whatever else. you learn to talk with your eyes, with your face, with half an eyebrow. you develop a language entirely confined to the two of you, for one explicit purpose, which is deescalation and survival. don’t go in there he’s in a bad mood. sit back down, she’s jumpy today. you live through a war together. and sometimes that brings you close and sometimes that pushes you apart but ultimately fundamentally they are the one thing nobody else on the planet is, they are your witness. they are the only one who knows what it was really truly like. they are the only other person who was there.