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Everyone deserves education.

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Yaaay Thanks for the fun ask!!!!! 💖 My son ;w; aaaa thank you (This is for the fic ask game)

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

That was hard to think about! (!!!) I have recurrent themes for specific characters, like Daigo and his inner conflicts, his family issues, his control issues etc. But I wouldn't replicate those for e.g. Phoenix or Alan or Furuya, so I don't think they count as things I add unintentionally in my fics in general.

Maybe one thing I tend to add in my fics without meaning to is...a made-up setting that involves the sea more often than not? The Elevator Pitch is located on Kanro island, "it takes him all at once" took place on Milokaloss island, and even if they're not written yet, rice!rice!rice! and Odnr on Shodoshima would take place in settings near the sea, too. I have a soft spot for islands, I guess. But I like "mini" worldbuilding in general too.

🧠Pick a character, and I'll tell you my favorite headcanon for them. (ayakouji - my OC)

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Since he's my OC, any headcanon I give him is actually his canon hehe >:3c I forget how much I dealt with it in the fic itself, but my main trivia for him is that he spent all his teenage years in a private boarding school in a remote town, that was meant to be located in the Poké-equivalent of Germany. So his tendency to say "Yeah" as a drawn out "Yaaah" is because he's rly saying "Ja".

2. AAHHH HOW IS HE SO CUTE I SMOOSH HIS BABY CHEEKS

found them in a folder and thought ‘! why not?’ they’re part of the ocs i’d made for plot purposes in 2 of my past incombustibleshipping fics: it takes him all at once  and for as many revolutions. both are antagonists, but ayakouji is just… ayakouji. he is a trans little gremlin, not even poor little meow meow, socialite, big party-goer, good at golf, hides his complexes well…

Thank you for the kind ask Nelja! 💖 (this is for the fic ask game)

🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.

I think one thing I love writing is characters "having their hands tied" figuratively (and literally). When I write Daigo, I like the conflict between what he wants to do (1) emotionally (possibly more ethical), and (2) rationally (possibly harsher but he has compelling reasons to do it). When it's difficult for him to reconcile the two, it creates internal conflict and he tends to be crueler than he is comfortable with. I tend to like using Alan as foil then. Generally, I feel Alan is the embodiment of what Daigo's emotional side wants, but cannot choose.

And then, a further layer of dichotomy or conflict within Daigo's subconscious, that I tried to explore in "of hubris and the stars" (and would explore in rice!rice!rice!), is that sometimes, what he considers "rational" has an emotional root as well. Devon, his father, his family, where he comes from and what made him... They push him towards rationality and decisions that he considers objectively obligatory. But these things all have an emotional root.

To an extent, I think it's also linked to the idea of nature and nurture.

Another common theme is probably the main ship loving each other, but not understanding each other. I try not to lean into the Miscommunication trope, so it's more about how, despite communication, some things are just so different for each other that they still don't Get It. With Alan and Daigo, one of the recurrent things is that their backgrounds and way of life are so different that they do see in a blur where the other is coming from. But they each feel a sort of contempt for the other's way. And they're both right to an extent.

Daigo finds Alan too naive, unable to survive in a harsher world without being tricked in some way. Meanwhile, Alan thinks Daigo's way is just odious on an ethical level, or that he's egocentric and wielding power in an unfair way. And they're both right about it.

OdoNaru is also in that same category, but more in the traditional "I will die before I can tell you what I feel" way. They're fighting demons they themselves can't name, and until they work those out, I don't think they'll really understand or be able to ask the other what's wrong with them.

Discovered last year I couldn’t look at my 2015 MacBook Air without it triggering nausea and migraines, and figured the screen died. Have been getting by on my phone, but concluded I really need a laptop again.

Saved up, realised I could afford a brand new MacBook Neo, and got one.

-And I couldn’t spend more than five minutes looking at the screen without massive eye strain, nausea, vertigo, and if I pushed it, I-need-to-lie-down-in-a-dark-room-for-hours migraines.

Looking up MacBook and Eyestrain explained what is going on. The liquid retina displays that Apple currently has uses Pulse Width Modulation or PWM. In order to give the screens a deeper depth of colour and contrast, PWM flickers between several hundred to thousand times a second.

And there is currently no way to turn it off. There are settings and apps to reduce it, but there is no way to stop the screen from flickering. Checked Apple forums, called Apple Support, and the time I could look at the screen kept shrinking. Got the laptop Tuesday, returned it Friday, today is Sunday and I’m still dealing with a vertigo migraine.

For MacBooks, it seems to vary on the computer model and the software it uses. In retrospect, the issue with my MacBook Air started after a major software update.

And it’s not just an Apple thing. Current Windows and Android screens do the same thing. There’s even a Reddit for people who are sensitive to PWM flickers to help find computers and screens that won’t trigger eyestrain and headaches.

So, yeah. This week has been a learning experience. But for those who are prone to headaches and migraines, this may be something to be aware of, cause I was not.

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part of autism is just being incredibly stressed. overstimulation? stress. holding a conversation? stress. something happening to our schedule? stress. people talk about how often autism is recognized and diagnosed via our stress responses (like meltdowns) because it is just so common to see autistic people stressed because of lack of accommodations to how our brains work.

like. loud noises physically hurt. it’s like a static shock from my ears to my spine that doesn’t stop until the volume goes back down. i thought we all agreed that ‘that’s too loud!’ and covering our ears meant ‘ouch!’. turns out i’ve been dealing with a stressor almost no one else has, my whole life, alone.