feeling dramatic i love the moon and the magic

Revolting little machine I hope someone guy fawkeses you too.

PONZONA (2021) Purple Kiss

i got the first dose and almost immediately fainted. they had to call in a whole medical team and it was a huge fucking deal

i was kicked out of the study and got a phone call later where they were supposed to tell me what the drug was, so i could avoid it in the future. they told me it was saline water. a placebo. i fainted from the placebo effect.

anyway, it's been a few months and i just got an email from the same department asking me to be a research participant in a new study: testing the effects of open-label placebo.

open label placebo is when the subjects and the researchers all know it's a placebo. they're testing the power of my mind. my power to imagine anything.

i was partway through answering a question when i felt a rush of heat travel up my core. i said out loud "...whoa. that's strong." and then my head dropped. the grad student called everybody in and they leaned back my chair, blood pressure cuff, etc etc.

they called in the MD who did the whole "do you know where you are? do you know where you work?" questionnaire. i got confused and couldn't answer where I worked for like 10 seconds.

because this was a double-blind study, they were also convinced that i'd had an adverse reaction to the opioid, and that i wasn't safe to go home. they made me stay over an hour until "all the effects" had worn off and for my confusion to go away. i was completely experiencing opioid-like loopy-ness paired with weak muscle sensations. it was fucking wild.

Humans have been smoking shit since we first figured out how to light things on fire. Humans will always smoke. You will never, ever, EVER get everyone to stop.

The GOAL should be better safety regulations for what goes into smokes and vapes, better social support networks for people who want to quit, better safety nets so that poverty and stress and unmedicated conditions don't drive people to smoking as self-medication, and the creation of effective safe-usage sites where people can get their fix without impacting others unnecessarily.

Smokers aren't evil cackling villains who want to personally pollute your air. We're just...people. Personally, I probably wouldn't have started smoking as much if I actually had access to some ADHD medication. But that costs a fuckton of money and requires a doctor who gives a shit.

(Quds)

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