just a troubled nymph

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by me, Neon!

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Hello I wanted to ramble about my Twisted Wonderland interests for the first time. Mainly on Leona and how he treats himself. The one thing about it is he wants to be proud of his accomplishments and how far he's come. But reality has worn him down in a way that just hurts. I want to talk about like things that point to that. Outside of his chapter (I'm saying that cause I'm aware how deep the version novel goes into thing). One of the first is his birthday jacket card, specifically the question about who you would bring on a deserted island. If you read it straight, it seems like he's going to take advantage of Kalim's friendship and family resources to get off the island quick and easy. A classic Leona "work smarter, not harder" Kingscholar. Until you think about it for a second and remember that Leona is the second prince of a kingdom. If he went missing, why would does he believe his own people wouldn't save him just as fast if not faster? That cause he doesn't believe in his own value as prince he's just the spare of the spare, and that's messed up.

Next up, did you know that all the overbloting peeps get their own song? Well, they do, and Leona's hits your heart and destorys it. honestly you should just listen to it to understand this point.

Finally, and this is a spoiler for Chapter 7

Leona Kingscholar

Ruggie Bucchi

Jack Howl

Kalim Al-Asim

Jamil Viper

🐍 I Know What You Are in the Dark 🐍

I had the idea to draw something with mirrors and reflections for a while now but couldn't think of who to draw it with. Then I thought you know, maybe I should do this with Jamil and his OB self!

proceeds to cry bc OB Jamil design giving me a headache and hand cramps (╯ °˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥)╯彡┻━┻

referenced used under the cut!

what does this have to do with boiling your surgical tools? well look, the boiling water releases bubbles of steam which carries the malign influences up to heaven. you boil a knife, you send all the miasmic particles off with the steam to heaven. if you rinse the knife off in a bucket the water isn't hot enough, the particles go into the water and then right back on to the knife. you gotta boil it to get the particles all the way away. how can a tool or rag or a bed have miasmic particles on it when you can't smell them? humans have a lousy sense of smell. look at your dog on the hunt. are there no rabbits in the woods just because you can't smell them? we know that miasma is carried on the air, and is what makes stench so dangerous, and we know that humans can't smell worth a damn compared to dogs cats horses etc. a dog can smell if a rat died in a corner of the room last week. you can't. do you think licking the spot where the rat died is going to go well for you? luckily, what humans lack in snout we make up for in brains. we have extra brains where our sniffers should have been. God set that up for a reason.

and why does a rinse with wine spirits work? man, look how fast alcohol evaporates. my guess is that because wine contains a lot more vice than water, it evaporates a whole lot faster, in sort of an equal and opposite way that a rock falls faster than a feather. if you want the miasmic particles to get off there FAST, you dunk it in something that's going back to heaven at a gallop.

Sleep deprivation

Drugs

Pretty girl

Pretty not girl

Hungry

Stressed out

To understand our dear lion we first have to dive into his past, his family life.

From a young age Leona always knew he was the second son, the hated one, 'the backup plan' if something happened to the first born, felena. Felena was the complete opposite of Leona in people's eyes; approachable, kind, the loved one and the one who was BORN to be king. That made him despise his older brother so much, because if he were the one to be born first, he would have this all. In Leona's eyes felena was the reason for him being looked down on AND he's right, people are afraid of Leona BECAUSE HE'S the second one, because he could be a potential threat to felena, but despite this Leona cannot properly hate felena, because he is a supportive brother, he did nothing wrong, did he? He didn't ask to be born first, but Leona needed to put his resentment somewhere, the resentment of not being enough to be a king ONLY because he's second born. At first he tried his best in his studies and his duties, but what did people see in this? Nothing because he WASN'T the first born, he wasn't the crown prince, so why did they need to care? This makes Leona come to the conclusion that no matter how much Leona actually tries it won't change a thing because he will always be looked down on, always being feared. His laziness isn't a genuine trait, it's a defense mechanism. This way he avoids dealing with failure, what if he actually tried and it just... wasn't enough? What does he do then? This is a big part of why he doesn't try.

Everyone keeps telling him that he has potential, but if he tries his best and it still doesn't work, he truly becomes failure. This is why he's so afraid of hope. Because if he gets his hopes, tires to actually do something and it still doesn't work, then it was all for nothing, as he thinks.

If you don't try, you can't fail, if you don't hope, you can't be disappointed.

And I quote this from one of the people's analysis I heard months ago, "I could have done it if I wanted to, I just didn't feel like doing it." This is how he protects himself. This way he doesn't have to face the failure of trying your best and still not succeeding.

Then Cheka was born, the next heir to the throne. In his eyes this finally and lastly ruined all his chances of becoming a king, but it wasn't Cheka's fault. He never asked for any of this, but this way Leona has someone to blame his misfortunes on, this is what inferiority complex is. We also see this with his hatred towards Malleus Draconia, but we'll get to this later.

The reason why he avoids his homeland so much is because it reminds him of everything that he couldn't have, reminds him of the hatred and fear the people of his homeland have towards him and this is where the nrc comes in. For him the night raven college was sort of an escape, is an escape, to avoid his homeland. In nrc his dormmates admire him and call him king, this makes him feel a little better about everything in his life. And because of this despite all his efforts to not care, in the end he still did, he still started to hope.

Now this is where malleus comes in picture, malleus represents everything Leona is running away from. He's one of the five greatest mages in the whole Twisted Wonderland, he's the crown prince of briar valley and that's what makes Leona hate him so much, because he's everything he has ever wanted to be in life. And there comes the spelldrive tournament, malleus's dorm, diasomnia kept winning every year on the tournament and this is one of the reasons Leona tried to cheat, because knew that he would never manage to beat diasomnia because of malleus, after all he is one of the strongest mages in the world, he would never be able to win if he played fair. So he planned to sabotage the diasomnia dorm, even if in the end it didn't work, but Leona accepted this, because he expected the outcome. He knew it would happen, because he always prepared himself for failure, he thought it would make it hurt less, and for him perhaps it did.

This is the part one since I still have some analysing to do lol, I'm pretty tired of doing more rn bc I lit watched and read so many analysis of Leona's character and the canon shi, interactions this is GENUINELY exhausting bruu.

Anyways, see y'all in the next part!

Also this isn't proofread..

My friend said: "What if" and I said "Yes".

So that's my simple and little art of them.

[The Reference]

and i’m gonna say this first so no one starts arguing in circles

epel is misogynistic

not in a cartoon villain way, but in the way he associates femininity with weakness and something to escape from. and yeah, that is misogyny. it doesn’t come from nowhere, but that doesn’t make it not there

because for epel, femininity was never a choice, it was something forced onto him because of how naturally it came to him

he grew up valuing strength in a very real, physical way. hard work, endurance, being able to stand your ground. he biked miles to school, he fought back when he was bullied, he didn’t just sit there and take it

he was never weak

and then he gets put into pomefiore, where suddenly everything about him is reshaped into something soft, polished, and controlled

and that’s where the disconnect starts

people love to reduce him to a twink with a country accent or, somehow worse, a misogynistic femboy which completely ignores the fact that he doesn’t enjoy being seen as feminine in the first place

that perception isn’t something he embraces, it’s something that’s been forced onto him over and over again

so of course he pushes back

but instead of just rejecting the expectations placed on him, he starts rejecting what those expectations are tied to. softness, beauty, elegance. femininity becomes the thing he fights against, instead of the system forcing it onto him

and that’s where his character gets messy

because epel isn’t just angry at how people treat him, he’s angry at what they see when they look at him

every “you’re cute” or “you’re pretty” isn’t a compliment to him, it feels like being dismissed. like people are choosing not to take him seriously

so he overcorrects

he clings to strength, aggression, anything that proves he isn’t what people keep boxing him into. not because those things are inherently better, but because they’re the only things that feel like they’ll get him respect

and respect is what he actually wants

he doesn’t want admiration, he doesn’t want praise, he just wants respect

and that ties directly into his roots, which people also ignore way too much

epel takes pride in where he came from. his hometown, his family, the way he was raised. that part of him never goes away, even when he’s surrounded by pomefiore’s expectations

it’s the reason he studies potionology with a goal in mind. he’s not just there to fit into vil’s world or chase beauty for the sake of it, he wants to create something useful, something that helps his home

he has direction, he has purpose

which is also why i can’t fully agree with the idea that he should just follow the path vil sets for him

vil does care about him, but that care comes with a very specific vision of what epel “should” be. more refined, more controlled, more aligned with pomefiore’s standards

and sometimes that just… doesn’t fit

it feels less like helping epel grow into himself and more like shaping him into something else entirely

and yeah, that tension is important to his character, it’s where a lot of his duality comes from

but it also shows how often epel is put in situations where he has to trade pieces of himself just to be accepted

he’s stuck between two worlds

one that raised him to be loud, strong, and real

and one that rewards him for being quiet, pretty, and controlled

and neither side fully lets him exist without conditions

so of course he’s angry

of course he lashes out

of course he rejects the things he feels are being used to confine him

that doesn’t make him shallow, and it definitely doesn’t make him weak

it makes him someone who’s been forced into an identity that doesn’t fit and is fighting, sometimes badly, to break out of it

epel isn’t trying to be admired

he’s trying to be taken seriously

and he’s still figuring out how to do that without losing himself in the process