I'm so tired of straight sized people, especially straight sized white women, trying to "heal" themselves at the expense of fat people.
Until you smash the fat hating bigot in your head, until you fight back against the horrible way we think about and treat people who are unambiguously fat, you'll remain haunted and unhealed.
Your inner child or teenager or whatever doesn't need to hear "oh, you weren't really fat at all, sweetie". Your inner teenager needs to hear, "your weight should never have mattered and nobody should've been saying shit about it to you and making you think there was a size limit on your value as a human being. You deserved a world where you could be a size 4 or 24 or 34 and it was all good."
Right now, all you're doing is reinforcing that yeah, of course being fat is horrible and bad, but people were just being too harsh in what they counted as being fat. Congrats, you're a step closer to becoming the mean girl you never got to be in high school.
The fat hating fucker in your head will never let you think of yourself as being truly on the right side of that line, not for long. That wound will always open back up.
You should never have grown up in a world where people pointed to the bodies of other women and said, "See those women? If you look anything like those women, we'll treat you like shit, just like we do them. But if you join us in treating these women like shit and saying they deserve it, we'll let you feel okay about yourself for half an hour and sit next to the cool kids' table".
I can't stop you making vertical videos and posts about how you're going on a journey of healing by proving that you were never "that big" and that the problem is mislabeling someone as fat, but I don't have to listen to you or support you or give you views.
I'm too busy fighting the battles that you're making harder by the day.
