Discovering.Krysta

This has become such a huge part of my daily mantra! I have to *choose* to heal & take ownership of what that means for ME. No one else can heal FOR me... they might be a part of my healing or help me heal, but they can't do it for me. I'm so proud of myself for taking the steps necessary to help me help myself & be the best version of Krysta I can be! 》#dailyinspo #motivateandcultivate #motherhustler #inspirationstation #motivationstation #healingisntlinear #discoveringkrysta #therapy #mentalheathmatters #mentalitymatters #iamworthy https://www.instagram.com/p/BsOBNtenOso/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lj1shy5ysf6r

Forever obsessing over all of the magnificent quotations from Mary Poppins Returns! This one is fitting for me today because I've been noticing more & more boss babes CHANGING their course, and it is so enlightening and encouraging! Coming from someone who has been in social sales for over 2 years, it does not MATTER how big your team was, how much $$$ you did or didn't make, how successful your friends thought you were, or even WHAT COMPANY you were a part of... what MATTERS, is you! YOUR passion, YOUR motivation, YOUR intentions, YOUR drive!!! And if all of those things don't line up with what you're "trying to do," and you're being pulled towards something else... it is OKAY TO CHANGE YOUR COURSE! 'Cuz Girl/Boy, LEMME TELL YOU! You are not going to find success LYING to yourself and others on the daily. 🤔 》#dailyinspo #motherhustler #motivationstation #motivateandcultivate #manifest #manifeststionstation #beaboss #makeachoice #takeachange #seeachange #mompreneur #marypoppins #todayornever #youmatter #livewithintention https://www.instagram.com/p/BsI_2-cnEnE/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1me9q51t9t8vq

● W E L C O M E • 2 0 1 9 ● 》 G0al 1 • Pay attn to ME, my HEALTH & I. This past year has been hellish on my body AND soul & I need to focus on rebuilding the woman I know I am, but have struggled to find in recent months. I yearn to feel great, look great, and do great... I WILL do what it takes to feel great, look great, and do great this year. 》 G0al 2 • COPE. I need to sort through "all of the things" and give myself TIME to reflect and adjust to "opening my box of worms"... shutting everything out and away has done nothing but encourage self-implosion, and I know this is one of the most important steps to bettering my mental health! 》 G0al 3 • Routine. I will develop a weekly routine for the kids and me to attend the YMCA, library, fun workshops, and get OUT of the house. No more anxiety rules my life BS. They don't deserve that & I am in charge of my brain. I can fix it. 》 G0al 4 • Self Love. I WILL devote at least one hour of each morning to MYSELF- either at the gym or at home. Personal Development, exercise, meditation, anything that makes me FEEL GOOD & gives me time to BE myself BY myself. I've noticed recently that I really don't favor being alone because I've forgotten how to appreciate and love myself... how is anyone else supposed to if I dont? 》 #goals #notresolutions #goalme #memyheathandi #selflove #routine #cope #reflection #selfawareness #motherhustler #momgoals #wifegoals #selfgoals #reachforthestars https://www.instagram.com/p/BsEgC7GHXho/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=j8wl6964kioy

Doubt discourages most. ✋ ...MOTIVATES me. 》#doubtme #watchme #motivateme #motivateandcultivate #dailyinspo #motherhustler #motivationstation #iamworthy #iamstrong #iamdeserving https://www.instagram.com/p/BsCRAbWnVdn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dgzs29v6g3ki

Feeling this tonight... 》#hitmerightinthefeels #bepatient #benicetoyou #giveyourselftime #romewasntbuiltinaday #butterflies #motivateandcultivate #motivationstation #yourselfislistening #saytherightthings https://www.instagram.com/p/BsCQrleHt53/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1oxvqx7e2i4lu

This morning, I took *BEFORE* pictures & Let. Me. Tell. You. 😳😳😳 I am downright ASHAMED... I am not showing ANYONE until I have enough results to make up for the pitiful sight: 》 💔 35 lbs above *GOAL* weight 💔 *ZERO* self-confidence 💔 Kidney infection & stones (why?!) 💔 Blatantly depressed (visible) 💔 Unhealthy relationship with food 💔 Low muscle tone (if any) 💔 Sluggish, *LOW* energy 》 I am literally sick over how sick I am & tired of how tired I am! And HOW does someone with NO previous kidney issues come down with a kidney infection AND multiple stones all at once?! I have got to be punishing the heck out of my body and it makes me so uneasy! 🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️ 》 I am so excited to hit the gym tomorrow morning & get back into my ROUTINE!!! I'm even more excited to start implementing GOOD products into my lifestyle... products that are going to HELP ME, my body & my home be cleaner, less full of junk & happier! 》 I don't want this to be my "resolution" for 2019... I want this to be my SOLUTION to a complete & utter LOSS of self! I know I need to change in order to feel good, and it starts with what I allow myself to put IN my body... what I use AROUND my body counts, too! 》 #motherhustler #beforepicture #healthyliving #soberliving #cleanliving #notaresolution #asolution #discoveringkrysta #workitout #naturallyme #loseweight #loseanxiety #losebadhabits #consumegreatness #usegreatness #begreatness https://www.instagram.com/p/Br8tsUJnkax/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1orc5o17lz9pn

No caption needed 🤷‍♀️💖 》#iknowmyworth #iknowimakeadifference #iknowimnotalone #iknowimbadass #iknowimgettingbetter #iknowandimaware https://www.instagram.com/p/Br02rcdHC8O/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7ndtzud3btjt

Feeling so grateful tonight... My bestie @tesamarie_ gifted me this beautiful cross necklace last night as part of our "Christmas night" & it's literally perfect! 😍 Today was seriously just the best impromptu family day EVER, I can'teven explain it! It has been a while since we made a random Sunday into a "family fun day" and it was so awesome! & now I've got homemade mac n cheese on the stove & we are about to FEAST and watch Elf! Days like today should happen every day- 😂》#sundayfunday #bestienecklace #motherhustler #soberaf #familyfunday #sunday #greatday #macncheese #elf #christmastime #happylittleb https://www.instagram.com/p/BrwF7xoHJZs/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18y4m5xcic1l3

🔹️14🔹️ ...I have made it *FOURTEEN* days without using a single drop of alcohol to "destress" or "relax" or whatever else excuse(s) I was coming up with... And I am DAMN proud of myself. 💖 》 I want to clear something up- I am SOBER BY PERSONAL CHOICE. No one asked me to stop drinking. No one told me I had a problem. I am not on probation, I am not being FORCED to be sober... I'm doing this because ME, MY HEALTH & I want to! 😍 》 In the last two weeks I've learned that if I get mad, or frustrated, or annoyed, I can always just do some crunches to let that out... & if I'm bored, I can do some laundry or read a book... what I mean is, I've noticed all of the "gaps" in my time or moments where I have the urge to grab a drink, and I'm so SO SO SO proud of myself for CHOOSING to do something ELSE! 》 #twoweeks #soberbychoice #soberaf #motherhustler #mentalheathmatters #mentalitymatters #offersupport #notadrink #sparklingwineformeplease #soberforchristmas https://www.instagram.com/p/Brs1I1GnYsH/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12d38ezyo6teq

It seems what I so desperately needed was a HUGE change of pace, and a solid refocus. Krysta needed to figure out who the hell Krysta is and wants to be... & let me tell you, I am SO grateful for the upswing in my mood, energy level, motivation, and overall feeling! I've been through enough CRAP in the last few months to know that there HAD to be a reason for at least SOME of it... and this is it. I am challenging myself, and reinventing myself, and it feels DAMN GOOD. If I am the only person that is proud of me, then so be it- that's one more person than there was two weeks ago. I am going to make this life into one that I'm proud of, starting with me, my health, & I! 》#dailyinspo #motivationstation #manifest #strenth #mentalheathmatters #mentalitymatters #cleanliving #leanliving #edrecovery #motherhustler #mompreneur #krazybrave https://www.instagram.com/p/BroTPK3HM_5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lkr55se3t0q9

I have never been more serious about getting better. Some of you may know, some of you may not- but the truth is, I've battled this stupid thing for over 10 years. And I'm quite literally just DONE with it. It is TIME to get off the scale and focus attention on how I FEEL instead of what the dial springs up to when I tiptoe onto the damn thing. Because let's be honest- ya girl feels like HECK! And that dial AIN'T MOVIN' [& if it does, it is going the WRONG WAY 🙈] Rightfully so, because I've not been spending any time on what I know it takes for me to feel GOOD. I am so excited to feel stronger, healthier, and happier! 》#growthgamestrong #howdoyoufeel #makingchanges #healthjourney #mentalheathmatters #mentalitymatters #getoffthescale #edrecovery #healingisnotlinear #beyourbest https://www.instagram.com/p/BrnXJy9HqJw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=yepbajnkt695

Be mindful- Your SELF is listening, & listening very closely. _ I am learning how to control my thoughts [that sounds kinda freaky 🙃] & use positive affirmations 24/7. I know I need to get better at stopping the yucky thoughts as they pop up; every single day is a new journey & I am just doing my best at making this life one I'm proud of! 》#positiveaffirmations #selflove #discovery #mentalheathmatters #mentailtymatters #benicetoyou #yourselfislistening https://www.instagram.com/p/Brloi_0nj1F/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=104dlti3b597o

I am seriously my very own worst enemy most days. So much of the internal growth that NEEDS to happen, has to do with admitting my faults, making changes, and creating a new routine of self-care & positive self-talk... it is so sad that I can sit down and make a list of all the things I'm going to do to help myself, and then never do a single one of them. It is even more sad that the people around me have been conditioned to EXPECT that I am not going to stick to the "things" I say I'm going to do. Enough is really enough, though. I'm done with knowing what I need to do and not doing that "because" *insert lame-ass excuse here*... I. AM. GOING. TO. DO. IT. All of the things, in TIME. I am first going to focus on healing, repairing myself and my family, and the "rest" will follow... I know I can do this, & I will. It's totally going to suck to have to rehash the bad stuff & sort through the trauma, but I KNOW I will just keep on keeping it all, unless I let it out, let it go & give it to God. Healing is not linear- this is about to be a MESSY, MESSY, M-E-S-S-Y blog... but that's okay because it's mine. 💖 Here. We. Go.

Xoxo- 💖✨