I see you, you know? I see the way you get up day after day; just trying to make it through one day to the next.
weary eyed, beyond exhausted, running on fumes. grasping at anything as an attempt to fill the void within. a piece of you is missing; here one second - gone the next. with no way to get it back.
I see you on the days you can't bring yourself to get out of bed. I promise darling, if it gets you through the day; it counts for something.
you eat less, talk less. finding yourself living in your head every day. you're there, but not really there. having no interest in things you used to love, never picking up your phone or answering texts. just wanting to curl up and not have to be needed. salt stained pillows. dark circles around your eyes, not remembering the last time you hadn't cried yourself to sleep.
you've stopped caring about everything, even caring for yourself. I get it; I do.
be gentle with yourself. the world doesn't stop for anyone, but yours has come to a halt. there's nothing wrong with putting it on pause to truly feel.
to feel, is to embrace your emotions. it's human nature, it's part of the human experience. no matter what they may be. let them flow through you, but don't let them make a home within you. you can't rush healing. take as much time as you need to get back on your feet.
and when you're ready; kick life back. better yet - curb stomp her ass. stand tall. carry yourself elegantly. because it's crucial that you remember, that through all the bad in life, there is equally as much good.
life will forever knock you down, and you'll experience great heartache and pain. but you'll always find your way back to the good things in life. the beautiful things in life. the kinds of things that are worth living for.
good and bad can coexist. in fact; they have to. you cannot have one without the other.
so take care. for every bad day, there are even more days ahead that will be so. much. better. it doesn't matter how long it takes you to come back. just remember that during those darker times; there are beautiful, memorable, days ahead. just waiting for you to meet them where they're at. life is a bitch. but you can make her yours if you play your cards right.
J. L.
