Juno

yearning for a man twice my size to get on top of me and hump me as rough as he wants while forcing his tongue down my throat and getting my face all sticky

i hope in the afterlife i'll be held by him, hopefully its an ideal afterlife so i dont need to force him to live it with me but instead i'll have my own version of him that'll love me and only me

life is pointless without him.. i miss him. i can barely interact with him without feeling disgusting, like i just want to cry around him. i just wish he could come save me and let me cling to him and cry in his arms while he tells me i'll never have to worry again... but instead, i'm too much for him and i pushed away the perfect man.. i wish i did not have such a life that beats me down so much and makes me this freak that hurts the only person in the world i care for. i just want him to be happy but i guess i cannot be the one to do that, so whoever falls in loves has to carry on my lifes purpose and take care of him for me

im worse i will never get better its just always worse and he left me and he just wants to just i want him to forget about me

men only care about sex, they are all evil they just want to hurt you and have sex with you thats all they ace r aboeut

it really hits me just how worthless my entire life has been

everything comes full circle. i ruin everything i touch. just completely unloveable, no value, not even human. beneath humans.

i need him to tell me hes going to get me pregnant randomly and say i need to prepare myself mentally and physically for him

People become so offended when you ask them to not use a slur like 'schizo' no matter how respectful you are. you can say you know they aren't using it maliciously and that you just want them to not use that term and they will Freak Out on you and call you a sensitive snowflake and that you cant force people to follow your beliefs etc. I really hate how the internet has made it this way where its so easy to just disregard someone as a person because I assure you they would not do this if this was an established friend. Someone feeling slighted in any way will jump to defend themselves when there is nothing to defend because that is more important to them than reflecting on their flaws as a person and maintaining basic decorum with another human being.

i think i just ruin everything i touch

im delusional im delusional im delusional but im awake

i was warned in a discord server for the terrible action of... posting a selfie where i had barely visible and completely healed scars. it was considered "graphic media/gore"... the audacity to warn me for not covering up my struggles is unimaginably offensive