I try not to fall into the "I never liked their work anyway" ditch when an artist/creator reveals themself to be a terrible person
BUT
a feeling I do have and will stand by is "While I enjoyed their work overall I did have some gripes that I overlooked out of affection and whimsy, but now that my loyalty is gone and my affection tainted there is nothing holding me back from enumerating my many grievances, to which the revelations of the creator's shittiness may or may not provide a new and infuriating context."
#such a good summation of this actually#because yeah there’s usually things that were always present#but which were easy to overlook or give the benefit of the doubt#that suddenly become relevant after a revelation about the creator#and it’s really not the same thing as the self-defensive “’I never liked it anyway’
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Listen I get it but you CANNOT use "sensory nightmare" as an excuse to avoid essential things. You HAVE to find a way to make it work, such as finding effective alternatives. But you can't just avoid it.
You need to eat some vegetables in your diet or you will become a lich.
You have to wear a life jacket or you will literally drown and die.
You need to be able to exist in public spaces with children.
I think the biggest difference that surprised me between blind characters in fiction and making blind friends IRL is that irl blind people are making very few puns about their blindness. Soooo many blind characters are always smirking and going "well I won't see you later" but irl people will use sight based turns of phrase all the time because that's normal. When my friend asks to see something I understand that what she means is to hand it to her so she can feel it. I imagine the puns probably get very tiresome.
This is not to say that the puns don't exist but you have to unlock those. Just say "hi it's nice to see you" and don't be weird about it.
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Who wants a small essay about Neanderthal vampires! Time to move this screed from the groupchat to the internet at large! I have to actually eat at some point during this lunch break, and maybe posting this will let me relax long enough to grab a power bar. Please ignore how much I switch between tenses.
Neanderthal vampires exemplify community. They live much longer, emphasizing the importance of elders. They require the community to live even more so than others; they can survive from animal blood but become sickly. They must feed from their people. As elders require the community to live, so do vampires. They are the heart of a strong family. They lend their strength and experience, and in return the community feeds them.
They are not considered predatory. They are a rare and fragile gift. They need a strong group to support them to begin with, even before they can help support their people.
It is a very rare group that can support two at once. Sires are not counted on to support fledglings. Rather, the community teaches a new fledgling based on cultural knowledge.
A family may approach a larger, established group with the request to turn one of theirs.
I have chosen to interpret Neanderthal language capabilities as existent, but utilized less than humans. They would come across as extremely terse, favoring demonstrations and body language above words.
Vampires would also serve as the main source of record keeping across generations. Without written language and with much less of a tradition of spoken language, vampires would serve as a repository of information across generations.
A lone vampire is considered a tragedy. To outlive your family is terrible. They might join another family, but there is a cultural expectation that they might also commit suicide.
Neanderthals are noted from genetic records as having females join other families while males stayed with their birth family. The cultural reasons behind this are lost to prehistory, so I have chosen to creatively interpret this as women leaving home at the cusp of adulthood to find a new group, as a reversal of commonly assumed human gender roles. They would take on the role we associate today with "young bucks". Possibility more sexually forward, possibly seen as braver than men.
Because of this, female vampires are more likely to find a new family than male vampires. It is expected that a female vampire may be part of multiple family groups before succumbing to grief or accident, while a male vampire is expected to die with their first family.
After all, a female vampire's first community that she took care of likely would not be the one she was born into. She would have experience in finding and joining a new family.
Men would be considered to be prone to grief, and so are not as heavily favored to become vampires. There are instances, though rare, of male vampires who's family have died becoming predatory towards those who killed them. It's considered a great tragedy, and any local vampires are called together to stop them. This is strongly associated with grief-stricken vampires striking out against homo sapien groups, but in practicality, this likely happens just as often against other Neanderthal groups.
This is one of the reasons women are favored for vampirism, since they are considered to be less prone to grief. Vampirism is not strictly segregated by gender, however. It's a trend rather than a rule. The choice of who to turn depends much more on the individual family that is considering having a member turned. The person would be selected from a relatively small group, so individual personality and skillset would be much more relevant. Gender would have an influence, but it would not be the deciding factor.
Denisovans populated islands much more than Neanderthals. There isn't any evidence of them traveling between islands, but it is entirely possible considering how little information we have about them. If vampires could not cross running water, then perhaps they would be unable to travel with their family to different islands. Considering Philippino vampire analogous stories, perhaps this plays into vampires being a danger rather than a member of the community.
Neanderthals would consider them to be stricken by grief, as that is how they characterize their own predatory vampires. Abandoned by their family and unable to travel island to island, Denisovan vampires would be vulnerable to starvation. Characterizing them as driven mad by grief would be an easy way to make sense of them.
All this to say, a Neanderthal vampire would be confused and horrified at the common perception of vampires today. A solitary, predatory figure who maintains secrecy would be repugnant to them.
Also, if a Neanderthal vampire did survive to today, she is more likely to be a woman.
The last Neanderthal vampire would call modern vampires grief-mad, comparing them to orphaned vampires of her own traditions, and vampires from Denisovan customs. This would not make sense to anyone but her anymore.
Perhaps she would blame herself for not teaching homo sapiens how to have vampire family members, and instead letting Denisovan customs be the dominant force.
After all, as a woman, it would be her duty to take on another family and carry on her traditions. A man might be forgiven for giving up out of grief, but she is supposed to be above that, even if no one else expects that anymore.
The last Neanderthal would never again be at full strength. Homo sapien blood would certainly feed her better than animal blood, but it is not the same. She would never again be fed by her people. She will never see them again.
Likely, she would end up adopting human families in central Asia, perhaps up into Russia. Rural, isolated families that would not expose her to the modern world. Perhaps she hibernated shortly after she lost the last of her people in Gibraltar. Perhaps she never knew they were there, and despaired too soon.
Either way, she has had almost 40,000 years of being weakened and lonely. Who is to say if she even remembers what it is like to be fed by members of her own species. Who can say how deep her grief runs.
"When I came out Ratthi was still there. He grabbed my arm and tugged me past a couple of human techs and out through two levels of secure doors and into the display area."
"'Again, I have a court order,' Pin-Lee said, grabbed my other arm, and they walked me out."
"Pin-Lee said, 'We’re not taking questions now,' shoved Ratthi into the hotel’s transport pod, then grabbed my arm and pulled me in after her."
"Arada walked in then, and came over and patted my shoulder."
Some manhandling unithandling and a little pat. :)c
I didn't mean to write meta. The stuff above was supposed to be the whole post! I literally said I wouldn't write any new meta today, but urggggggh. My hand slipped.
I haven't been rereading ASR on repeat like the other books, so I got myself into misremembering canon trouble!
Whenever I have the show playing while doing other things, I always end up yelling at them to stop touching it when I get to the last episode. Bc they don't just touch it; it feels like they touch it a lot. And... I'd kinda had the picture form in my head that this was a TV-only situation, something to reinforce for the casual viewer just how happy PresAux are to have it back.
But... no, that's a book thing!
In fact, the book shows more instances of the team touching it than the show, which only has two that I caught (Ratthi gripping its shoulders in excitement after its memories are restored; Arada warmly touching its arm after it gets dressed in human attire). They might have still done all the dragging and pulling in the show universe, but we don't see that.
Anyway. I don't remember exactly what I had thought when I first read ASR; I might have not even paid much attention to it.
Bc here's the thing — Murderbot inadvertently recorded these actions like a human would. Not only did it leave off the explicit aversion (that the reader doesn't find out about until the next book), but it even left off any implicit aversion. By leaving these actions so bare, human readers easily slip back into the human perspective. We understand these are actions of protection, of care.
We know these touches were a message — a signal to the other humans to back off.
Even though there's only four instances, putting them together like this, I suddenly get the impression that it wasn't the thought of cleaning Mensah's farm or being a bodyguard no one shot at that repelled it. It wasn't even that it realized it wants to make its own decisions — that is merely the conscious thought it put to the subconscious feeling.
The feeling that drove it away was the more visceral experience of being touched in this way. Yes, it cares for the team and interprets their actions in good faith. It may even fully realize the intention behind the touches.
None of that can negate the reality that, to a person who has always been a possession, the touches are gentle but possessive.
The coercion lacks threat or force, but it exists, and Murderbot can feel it on its skin. The revulsion toward infantilizing was born of being pulled along benevolently by its arms, the way parents might grip their child's hands to steer and stride faster past danger. The fear of becoming a pet bloomed right from under the affectionate pat on its shoulder.
Ratthi and Pin-Lee, great non-verbal communicators with other humans, view the grabbing and pulling as a necessary touch. Aside from being visually protective, any gesture that signals for others to "back off" is also visually territorial, which they consider just as necessary to safely get SecUnit out of there as the court order. But it's the "territorial" aspect of the equation that is exactly the perspective and the problem for Murderbot.
Here's the other thing, perhaps the much bigger but vastly simpler thing — to the humans, it's just a touch. To Murderbot, this is the very first time it's being touched with loving care outside of its armor.
And the loving touch is still possessive in nature.
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idk what kind of hairstyle to give it so that’s subject to change if I ever draw it again fjjdjd love this series so much so I might if time and energy allows it