50+, female, live in Oklahoma. Into Murderbot, Old Guard, Heroes and Star Wars, along with some other fandom stuff. This is often NSFW. I write fanfic.
There are five short stories connected to the Murderbot Diaries universe, all of which can be found for free online.
Compulsory — published 2018, by Wired.com as part of "The Future of Work" collection. Takes place prior to All Systems Red, sometime after Murderbot has hacked its governor module. There is a revised version of this released summer 2023 with an extra 500 words, purchasable.
Home: Habitat, Range, Niche, Territory — originally given free with preorders of Network Effect. Takes place after Exit Strategy, from Mensah's point of view, as she grapples with post-traumatic stress and Murderbot's refugee status on Preservation.
Obsolescence - not officially part of TMBD canon, but by the same author, referenced in Exit Strategy, and appears to be in the same universe. Page 164 in the Take Us To A Better Place zine, page 84 in the pdf.
Rapport - published summer of 2025, set after Artificial Condition and before Network Effect, involves ART and crew.
Data Ghost - published summer of 2025 in the Tanith Lee Tribute Anthology, Storyteller. Confirmed by Martha Wells to be set in the same universe as TMBD, just a different stage in history.
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MY TMBD FANFICTION
My TMBD Fanfiction divided by AU, in chronological order, with suggested reading order.
The Locked Tomb short stories:
As Yet Unsent
The Mysterious Study of Doctor Sex
The Unwanted Guest
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Things that will never make me think less of someone: Enjoying media, entertainment, or aesthetics with ideologically reactionary elements
Things that will IMMEDIATELY make me think less of someone: Insisting that the ideologically reactionary media, entertainment, or aesthetics they enjoy are actually Le Hecking Epic Wholesome Leftist Praxis
To draw upon a semi-recent Discourse topic, if you encounter a claim along the lines that, idk, for example, the imagery and cultural idea of Knights as it exists in pop culture is entrenched with a long history of islamophonia (due to how much of this cultural imaginary comes directly from the narrative of the Crusades) and your response is "I still think knight imagery is cool, I don't enjoy things based on how ideologically correct they are" I'll respect you infinitely more than if your response was "Actually liking knights is leftist because there's nothing more leftist than protecting those weaker than you"
"I don't engage with this thing to have my politics parroted back at me" will always be 1000x more graceful and productive than trying to argue that everything you like is Fundamentally Leftist, Actually.
(1. annie dillard, teaching a stone to talk 2. the deep underground neutrino experiment, a.k.a. DUNE 3. the large hadron collider 4. the sudbury neutrino observatory)
I am excluded meta and shared/co-writing projects. All are The Murderbot Diaries except the first one, which was written years ago but only published recently.
Bricks in the Wall, chapter 141 (it's a collection of Heroes one-shots, started well before I understood how 'series' worked on AO3): Peter surveyed the bed – empty at the moment. The sound of running water in the bathroom let him know that Sylar was cleaning up to an unusual degree.
Agonal Stage: The human died in my arms. At first, the slackening of the muscles might have been unconsciousness (understandable, given the lacerations and punctures Hostile One had inflicted on her before I'd managed to extract her from its mouth).
Agape: I think I was in love with humans. Like Charleh said, it was the only explanation.
Cold Hands, Warm Hearts: Amena paused in munching the nuts that topped her breakfast of uji. Her interface was showing her an alarming notification for the weather forecast on the west coast of the southern continent.
A Weird, Fucked Up Way: My proximity and attention were required for this. My participation aside from that was not.
First Impressions: I was wadded up in the usual transport box when I woke for my new assignment. I was supposed to immediately reference the client list, project scope, location, and that sort of thing.
The Expected Order: The Target snarls at my Client, "Tell it to shut down or I blow your brains out!" I run some quick calculations.
Bodyswapped: I woke in a flesh prison, memory limited, no media storage. I hurt all over and my pain control didn’t even exist.
You Construct Intricate Rituals: I sat on his thighs, my lower leg tucked under his ankles. He floundered on the bed, or would have if he could.
Knot Today: The thing about a knot is that it depends on the omega to hold the fucker in there. An alpha might think they’re hot stuff, knot so big that no amount of struggle on the omega’s part would allow escape from the breeding.
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stupid new theory: murderbot has tons of beef with cargo and hauler bots but not any other bot type bc it got its shit wrecked by a bunch of those guys at ganaka pit. the inorganic memory was purged but the organic body keeps the score 😌
The concept that married people live longer is interesting. I'm sure there is some merit to the idea that if you're married there is someone there to nag you about going to the doctor, but I think much larger factors are having the finances of dual incomes and access to an immediate support person.
Surgeries require having a designated person to look after you. Many injuries require driving to somewhere like an emergency room which can be hard to do if you are the one injured. If you're home with the flu, it's hard to tell when it's bad enough to go to the hospital without another person checking on you. And if you pass out it requires another person to find you like that to get medical aid.
You can prop it up as the benefits of marriage, but I think there's a much deeper discussion to be had about how we've built society around marriage as an inevitable conclusion and neglected to build support systems that function outside of romantic pairings.
Or, speaking of the USA, how we do not allow medical personnel to discuss your health needs with people you aren't married to or directly related to.
My partner and I fake it by simply saying we're married. Medical personnel don't ask for a marriage license or other proof. We say we're married; they allow access like we are.
And to be fair, in the last 5ish years, the questions and information I've been given by medical personnel has been more accommodating of non-married/non-related persons being allowed access to my information, to pick up prescriptions, or take care of me during hospitalizations. But it has not always been that way.
I went to a Buc-ee's today. First time. Hopefully, it will also be the last time. Not that I regret going. It was ... an experience. I'm glad I had it. But that was a lot of noise, confusion, and excitement I don't wish to re-engage with when I want some snacks after fueling up the vehicle. Also, the number of people walking and driving in the parking lot/area made it seem like an accident minefield.
In future, I will happily pay more for fuel and/or snacks and go to someplace less congested and agitating.
“This means… of Rocky, possessive. Of the speaker.”
“My.”
“Correct. But only for names.”
“So you’re calling me…?”
Rocky repeats the word: “My Grace. Yes.”
“Are there other Graces? Why do you need to specify?”
Rocky considers this, tapping his xenonite-encased claws idly against the floor.
“No other Grace,” Rocky says. “We just do this.”
“Like an honorific,” Grace guesses. “It goes before everyone’s name? Everyone you know?”
Rocky whirs in surprise. “No, no, no. Not at all.”
“Okay, then who? What makes me qualify?”
Rocky is silent for a moment.
“...Does this offend Grace?” he asks, voice lower.
Grace blinks. “No! I don’t think so. Is there a reason to be offended?”
“Good,” Rocky says, relieved. Grace is starting to recognize what Eridian relief sounds like. “No, no reason.”
“Who else do you call that?”
“You don’t have this on Earth?”
Grace considers. What for, friends? He couldn’t call Marissa “my Marissa.” That would be weird.
“I still don’t know what it means,” he settles on. “So I couldn’t tell you.”
Rocky groans in frustration. He’s a very impatient tutor. “We just say it.”
“Are you my Rocky?” Grace asks. He hits the two keys to make the my note.
“I don’t know!” Rocky says. “You decide this.”
“I decide? Who do you use it for?”
“You. Adrian. I will use it for my pebbles.”
Grace blinks. “So few?”
Rocky shifts. “I am… you do not have the word yet. Eridian who works alone often, not close to many other Eridians.”
“What, mechanical engineer?”
Rocky chitters. “Acceptable.”
“Is Adrian your only friend?”
Rocky draws back, like he’s taken offense. “I have friends. Coworkers. But different.”
So just Adrian. And him.
“This worries you,” Rocky says.
“Adrian is your mate,” Grace points out. “I’m not your mate.”
“Correct. You are not. You do not like to be a mate.”
Grace isn’t sure how to respond to that, so he ignores it.
“I’m your friend,” Grace says.
Rocky hesitates, for a second. “...Correct.”
“Like your coworkers.”
“No.”
Grace sighs, rubbing his hand across his face. Okay, maybe that’s fair. It’s not like he felt about any of his coworkers like he feels about Rocky.
“Best friend,” Grace amends. “You’re my best friend, too.”
Rocky hums. “Acceptable.”
“Just acceptable? Now you are offending me. Can you just explain?”
This makes Rocky fall silent for a minute longer than usual. Grace is half-ready to apologize and to say let’s move on and to retype his own name without the superfluous my.
“The Earth ‘best friend’ is not strong enough,” Rocky says finally. “It does not translate this way.”
Grace runs his fingers through his hair, a little nervous, for some reason. “Okay.”
“It is…” Rocky pauses. He has to pause more often, now that they’re not using the translator, to simplify his language. “It means that I am not Rocky without my Grace. You are part of… of the whole. When I wake up, I think of you. When I work. When I eat. When I think I am going to die.”
Rocky speaks slowly, but it’s still a lot of Eridian for Grace to grasp all at once. Even as he works out the sentences in his head, he can feel hot tears rising in his eyes.
“It means that when you are sick, I am sick,” Rocky continues. “And it means I will take care of you, because taking care of you is taking care of myself.”
Grace bunches up his sleeve, wiping it across his face, blinking furiously.
Rocky’s voice is soft. “So Grace is part of Rocky. Grace is like a cell. You see? My Grace.”
Grace is quiet, for a moment, trying to get himself together. When he speaks, his voice is shaky.
“...Oh.”
Rocky hums, pressing his carapace gently against Grace’s arm. “You are leaking. Does this make you sad?”
Grace shakes his head, sniffing, crossing his arms across his knees and resting his chin on his sleeves. “Not at all.”
“Good, good.”
“I feel like that,” Grace mumbles. “Just like that. Just exactly—exactly like that.”
“About your old mate?”
“Don’t act stupid. You know I’m talking about you.”
Rocky hums, burrowing closer. Grace curls one arm around his carapace. That’s not enough, so he leans over, dropping his head down so his forehead presses against the xenonite.
“My Rocky,” Grace whispers in English.
“My Grace,” Rocky echoes in Eridian. Grace can recognize the note at the start. He will add it when he plays Rocky’s name.
“How long have you called me that?” Grace asks. “Must’ve been a while. I didn’t notice it change.”
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Chapters: 13/13
Fandom: The Murderbot Diaries - Martha Wells
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Murderbot (Murderbot Diaries), Don Abene (Murderbot Diaries), Miki (Murderbot Diaries), Gerth (Murderbot Diaries)
Additional Tags: Mostly Canon Compliant, Future Fic, Worldbuilding, Canon-Typical Violence, Suicide Mention (not Miki)
Series: Part 78 of Gamebird's Cinematic Universe for TMBD, Part 1 of Landing Protocol
Summary:
Murderbot finally takes up Don Abene on that job offer.
I made this little bot-head today out of felt and buttons. It is Miki as visualized and drawn by @dawnlotus1. Miki returns in this story and I thought I’d re-share it with the picture.
She got the idea for the study while walking with her advisor at Stanford to discuss her thesis topic, and the paper she eventually published in the Journal of Experimental Psychology in 2014 is sharp enough that it should have ended the seated meeting on the day it came out.
She ran 4 experiments on 176 people. Same person tested twice. Once sitting, once walking. The creativity tasks were the standard ones psychologists have used for decades to measure how good a brain is at generating novel useful ideas.
81% of participants in the first experiment produced more creative ideas while walking than while sitting. In the second experiment, 88%. In the third, 100%. Every single person walked into a more creative version of themselves. On average, people generated 60% more novel useful ideas the moment their legs started moving.
The skeptical question is the obvious one. Maybe it was the fresh air. Maybe it was the scenery passing by. Maybe it was the change of environment doing the work, not the walking itself.
Oppezzo killed every one of those explanations with one experimental decision. She put people on a treadmill facing a blank wall. No scenery. No fresh air. No environmental change. Just legs moving in place while staring at white drywall. The 60% boost held.
Then she ran the experiment that closed the case completely. She took participants outside in two conditions. Half of them walked through a Stanford courtyard. The other half were pushed through the exact same courtyard in a wheelchair. Same outdoor stimulation. Same scenery passing at the same speed. The only difference was whether the legs were moving.
The walkers produced dramatically more novel high-quality ideas than the wheelchair group. The outdoors did almost nothing on its own. The walking did everything.
She also tested the opposite kind of thinking. Convergent thinking. The kind where there is one right answer and you have to narrow down to it. Word puzzles where 3 words share a hidden fourth word that connects them. The seated participants did slightly better on these. Walkers got slightly worse.
Walking is not a general intelligence enhancer. It does one specific thing. It opens up the divergent search inside your brain. The part that generates options. The part that produces unexpected connections. The part that takes a problem and finds five ways into it instead of one.
When you need to converge on the single right answer, sit down. When you need to find the answer in the first place, get up.
The mechanism is now well understood. Walking selectively activates what neuroscientists call the default mode network, the system inside your brain that runs when you are not consciously focused on anything. The DMN is where mind-wandering happens. Where memories cross-reference each other. Where ideas that have been sitting in separate folders inside your head finally bump into each other.
When you sit at a desk and force yourself to concentrate, you suppress the DMN. When you walk at a natural pace, the executive part of your brain gets just busy enough handling the walking that the DMN comes online and starts doing the work that focus was blocking.
The most useful finding in the entire paper is the one almost nobody quotes. The boost did not turn off the moment people stopped walking. Participants who walked first and then sat back down stayed elevated. Their next round of seated creativity work was still significantly better than people who had been sitting the whole time. The rest lingered for at least several minutes after the legs stopped moving.
You do not need to do creative work while walking. You need to walk before the creative work. The brain holds the state.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Murderbot Diaries - Martha Wells
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Additional Tags: Meta, reference, Spoilers for Book 8: Platform Decay (Murderbot Diaries)
Series: Part 17 of TMBD Metas and Headcanons
Summary:
A timeline of all canon events in TMBD, with footnotes.
If you were wondering what happened when in the lead up to the rescue in PD, I've put together my best guess along with footnotes and my reasoning. I'm also open to discussion if I've missed something.
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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Murderbot Diaries - Martha Wells
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Additional Tags: Meta, reference, Spoilers for Book 8: Platform Decay (Murderbot Diaries)
Series: Part 17 of TMBD Metas and Headcanons
Summary:
A timeline of all canon events in TMBD, with footnotes.
*proceeds to watch hours upon hours of Sanctuary Moon episodes every chance it gets to cope with it happening not only right in front of it, but right in its arms as it tried to shield her*