For years, Ahmed imagined returning to Pakistan after finishing his university studies in Canada. Now in his mid-twenties, Ahmed arrived in the Maritimes five years ago as an international student. He planned to eventually build a life back home, close to family. Maybe start a business with the skills he'd acquired in North America. Then, for the first time in his life, Ahmed fell in love with another man. But as he faced the reality that he'd have to go back home and enter into an arranged marriage, the two separated. "It was six months of physical pain," Ahmed said of the heartbreak that followed and altered his future plans.

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How it's going

They are also, crucially, having the filthiest and nastiest sex that two guys in their twenties with an extremely willing monogamous partner can think up. Things are WILD. They are Yes And'ing each other in ways that they are legit going to have to process by sitting quietly alone in a room for an entire day at some point in the future.

They're going at it raw, of course. Ilya is spitting in his mouth and making Shane thank him for the privilege, then calling him a slut when he does. Shane is letting Ilya chase him through the woods. He's wrapping Ilya's fingers around his neck and begging while Ilya tightens his grip. Ilya decides at one point that if Shane can't come on his cock alone then he doesn't get to come. Shane doesn't receive oral a single time at the Cottage without having to swallow his own cum. Ilya walks around with a piece of gauze on his forearm because Shane bit him and drew blood. Ilya fucks Shane with his nose way up inside Shane's armpit the entire time, huffing and licking. Ilya comes on Shane's face in the shower and Shane is so far down and loves the feeling of being marked so much that he asks Ilya to piss on him. Shane is never more than two minutes away from having Ilya's tongue or dick in one of his holes, no warning given aside from a command to spread his legs or get on his knees.

Median Center-Right American Dude at the party, also two drinks in: "Damn that's crazy, I never thought of it like that. Man, I'm sorry you gotta deal with this shit."

Me: "Ahh it's alright. I deal."

Random Guy: "People should just chill tf out."

Me: "No actually it was the opposite. It just made me even more upset and confused. I didn't know what being non-binary was. I saw people that transitioned from one gender to the other and knew I wasn't that. It took me a long time to figure this shit out."

Guy: "man that sounds rough. No wonder you guys are upset all this time this sounds painful."

Me: "Well, it sucks until it suddenly doesn't. It sucks and then it rules hard."

Guy: "so It's like working out."

she's the hottest woman in any bar she walks into. she started off at the edges of the most toxic polycule in the brunch circle and she demolishes the entire group dynamic in two weeks flat by fucking everyone until they realize that they all hate each other. she'll snort coke off your tits, fingerbang you until you cry in the club bathroom, and then completely disappear from the scene for three months.

when she showed up at Dyke Night at Machine in Fenway it was like a shark showing up at a beach full of swimmers. She'll hold your hair in the bathroom when you're sick, give you a breath mint, and then buy you another shot so you can get back in the game. she hooks up with couples who are looking for bi unicorns on the dating apps with the express goal of breaking them up bc that woman deserves better than a man who talks about being an early crypto adopter.

Executive dysfunction comes from a lack of available dopamine. Common advice is wrong. You need to provide your own dopamine before you can start. Otherwise you're trying to run your car on empty.

"But what if I still don't do it" well you already weren't getting it done anyway. Now you have a little treat. Try again later.

You deserve kindness and care even when you aren't being productive.