So I'll Just Keep On Building Bridges

Melancholy tones of winter melt into the warmth of spring. Seasons change. We become more seasoned, blooming with the flowers.

Every few months it hits me. Always lingering in the back of my mind, I'm never quite sure what to make of it. I am envious of how he constantly manages to live in the present. All the while, I can't help but remain fixed on the future. How can I live a life so effortlessly full of love? How do I create fond memories for those I hold dearest? How can I make the most out of something that pains me so much when I'm haunted by how soon it could it all end? It isn't his fault. It isn't a choice he got to make. But still, every few months it hits me.

I appreciate that what’s good in life won’t come easy. It simply won’t. Without the obstacles, the trials, the tears, I wouldn’t be who I am today. I’m proud. I’m proud that I decided to stand not fall, to swim not sink, to dream not die. I’m proud I’ve made it this far and that I’m still willing to keep going. I want the good despite the challenges. I want to say that I’ve stared life in the face and won my battles. My fight isn’t over quite yet.

Finding balance isn’t easy in a world full of change. The weights we carry will constantly shift and the truths we hold onto will slowly but surely fade. Delicate it may be, balance is what we must cling to the hardest because even when everything seems to be falling apart, who we are in times of need is what will always stay the same.

Why waste time searching for the faces I used to know when in all reality, I now couldn’t single them out in a crowd. People come and go, times change and so do the ones that surround us. We grow apart. So much so that what we thought we knew becomes unrecognizable, because what we thought we knew isn’t what we know now. The people we thought were ours just end up becoming a part of the crowd. Yes, people come and people go. Even so, I’m glad I got a moment with you despite all the odds.

Nowadays it only ever seems to be apologies and anger, and honestly, I don’t quite know what to do with us anymore.

I've built my walls, held my grudges, done it all because I've found that it's easier to stay mad than in love

Like butter on bread she spread herself thin, wondering when it would all fall apart

I made you carry the weight of my world, so no wonder you cracked under pressure. Afterall, you were only just a boy, nothing less and nothing more.

What if I forgive someone for hurting me, and one part of me wants to give him another chance, wants to be with him, but another part of me doesn't, because I lost the trust in this guy, and although I forgave him I'm still scared that he will hurt me again.

It's foolish to unbury what's long been forgotten, so forgive me for wanting to bring up the past.

And then one day the people we loved forgot to love us back.

There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart's desire. The other is to gain it.

Time so easily manages to slip through fingers, always chasing after something out of reach. Moving forward may be hard, but it's the looking back that pains. Fuel can catch fire as easily as it motivates, so darling, please don't get caught up in flames

Times will change, and so will we. The person who we are to become isn't who we are now. With every new season, flowers will blossom, and with time, we too will grow. It's not until we've had some exposure that we can open up, because even though the lights may seem blinding, the sun is what makes us grow, and until then, we all can practice patience

You fill up my senses, like a night in the forest, like the mountains in springtime, like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert, like a sleepy blue ocean. You fill up my senses, so come fill me again

It's been ages since I've felt this weight lifted off my chest. Not until now have I realized what it means to be free, and darling it feels so right