the way days string together a life

the fact that "bargaining" is a stage of grief. + the fact that when I'm in extreme pain all I can do is lie on the floor and say "please please please" = we are such social animals. we really really really just have a brain that is wired for "surely there must be a way I can interact with someone else that will fix this" even under the most extreme of circumstances, where any rational thought will see a total absence of guys, such as when one is alone in the woods dying of exposure. humans have such a big hole inside us that's for "Someone Else" like a social placeholder such that we keep engineering stuff like religion in a million different ways in a million different places and times. we gotta have

real life: sorry im just not a social media kind of guy… i wanna live in the moment y’know…. im like really private i like having secrets

It bothers me so much that the healthcare system relies so much on the patient's ability to advocate for themselves, organize their history, and be so persistent against every medical “professional” who says there’s nothing wrong/they can do. But so many struggle with fatigue, brain fog, and face such ingrained systemic barriers, that the people who need and deserve help and support can’t access it.