God Is Looking Back

Recently read an evil and fucked up story about evil and fucked up people doing evil and fucked up stuff and I glanced at the reviews and so many of them were negative reviews saying "this is evil and fucked up >:(" and I'm like. Why are you here.

Recently read an evil and fucked up story about evil and fucked up people doing evil and fucked up stuff and I glanced at the reviews and so many of them were negative reviews saying "this is evil and fucked up >:(" and I'm like. Why are you here.

it's crazy that rgadd says that in the hospital scene ruben and niall had to have it out and talk about everything that went wrong between them and chronicle all the many ways they've hurt each other. when there is actually one very huge looming thing that they don't talk about in that scene which they will never ever talk about ever

Regarding Niall's feelings for Ruben and whether he knew about them: I think the way Niall - in the barn scene - so readily tells Ruben all about his love for him when asked implies that he has known about it for a while, maybe even started to accept it. During the whole show Niall's feelings for Ruben were one of his most well-kept secrets. He shoved them deep down into his subconscious, repressing and denying them so much that at times he probably genuinely "forgot" about them. So between the prison scene and the wedding there must have been something going on inside of Niall that made him - at least a bit - more aware of his love for Ruben. I think when he told Lori before the weddig that "maybe a small part of me misses him" he was fully aware that he was lying. I don't think "a small part missed him", I think Niall was yearning for Ruben with his whole being, despite his best efforts not to. And in that way Ruben's appearance at his wedding must have filled him both with horror and with relief.