Sardonic Bitch

Here’s a chart that should let you get your answer, if you want to do it weekly it’s .70 mL per. This is sourced from https://pghrt.diy/#S3.SS5, a great resource for general questions about this kind of thing.

Gods there's so much to read into here

Like how upset are you with me making a broad statement that verges on venting on my little corner of the internet that you went out of your way to send me an anon ask about it, and I bet it felt so good too, I bet you smiled smugly and patted yourself on the back for a job well done

Anyway here's a quote from the book

On some level i get it, our cognition works a bit different from other animals, but how high on your own supply do you have to be to think that, "i work well when ppl treat me nice, and reward me in ways that i like and are pleasurable, and dont when ppl do the opposite" somehow doesnt apply to you bc it was said within the context of canine behavior. Like i wish i wasnt human, painfully, desperately so, but i am regardless of what i wish i was, and its just plain observable that humans act and have basic reaction patterns far closer to most other animals then not. It just speaks to a level of species hierarchy thats counter factual obvy, but also like so removed from the world around you and the organisms in it.

are people who still havent

seen this video

rest stops on highways

trails by the highway just out of earshot of traffic

schools during breaks

those little beaches right next to ferry docks

your friends living room once everybody but you is asleep

the lighting section of home depot

A lot of these places are called liminal spaces - which means they are throughways from one space to the next. Places like rest stops, stairwells, trains, parking lots, waiting rooms, airports feel weird when you’re in them because their existence is not about themselves, but the things before and after them. They have no definitive place outside of their relationship to the spaces you are coming from and going to. Reality feels altered here because we’re not really supposed to be in them for a long time for think about them as their own entities, and when we do they seem odd and out of place.

The other spaces feel weird because our brains are hard-wired for context - we like things to belong to a certain place and time and when we experience those things outside of the context our brains have developed for them, our brains are like NOPE SHIT THIS ISN’T RIGHT GET OUT ABORT ABORT. Schools not in session, empty museums, being awake when other people are asleep - all these things and spaces feel weird because our brain is like “I already have a context for this space and this is not it so it must be dangerous.” Our rational understanding can sometimes override that immediate “danger” impulse but we’re still left with a feeling of wariness and unease. 

The only things that work without rest are machines; literally everything that lives requires rest.

Got all sorts of stuff in here.

And yes, guaranteed sincere freak as a maker: