Chapters: 2/2
Fandom: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Dan Howell/Phil Lester
Characters: Dan Howell, Phil Lester, Sophie Newton, PJ Liguori, Louise Pentland, Original Male Character(s), Original Female Character(s), Original Non-Binary Character
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Rock Band, Social Media, Texting Fic, Implied/Referenced Suicide Attempts
Summary:
Phil uses his first camera to shoot a viral music video with his emo band in 2008. Their first album âNorthern Anecdotesâ focuses on growing up in Northern England as queer teenagers, exploring self-identity, embracing diversity, friendship, and the power of vulnerability.
Dan is a suicidal teen and the album saves his life. It sets him on a path to study social work and he finds his home with the queer community at university. He starts a mental health YouTube channel while finishing his Masterâs degree and becomes a YoungMinds embassador.
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Or: Dan and Phil meet as adults. They fall into it hard and fast in any universe.
Iâm super proud of how this came out :D
Thank you to my fandom friends and the âDan and Philâ tumblr community users for donating their profile pics, suggesting social media handles, and helping me hunt down pictures!
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it's shit i didn't even register before transitioning too. i went out with my friends to a diner yesterday, one is a girl and the other gets clocked as a girl, and when we went in and they asked for the name of the table they asked Me specifically. like looked dead in my eyes and asked Me. i was addressed when it orders and payment first as well. like. Damn. Okay. Shit
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"Tattoos are becoming unpopular", "piercings are unpopular again", "keep your hair natural never dye it again, it's the trend now" literally fuck off I know what y'all are doing
if I see one more "why age verification is bad" post that doesn't even bother to mention that locking young people out of huge sections of the public sphere - literally the stated goal and primary impact of this shit - is wrong in and of itself I will simply start hitting people with bricks
yes yes biometric data privacy blah blah adults can hypothetically by harmed by this too. what about the immediate and deliberate and not at all hypothetical harm to youth. why are you acting like a potential data leak about what your face looks like, which if it ever happened would at least be generally recognised as a problem, is a more serious issue than cutting millions of people off from information and community and public expression which is happening right now in the open with large scale support
it's got the stench of fucking "banned books week" on it. thousands of adults congratulating themselves for reading books literally no one is trying to stop them from reading while doing nothing to improve access for the young people who are the ones actually having those books made off-limits to them.
(For All Mankind/Heated Rivalry fusion; part 2 back here)
Yuna Yoshida stands in Mars Operations Command Center and stares at the blinking red light on the map of Happy Valley Station. The invaders have cut off their access to the CCTV cameras, but they never turned off the transponders the Peacekeepers use for ankle monitors for criminals.
Peacekeepers. What a joke. They wouldn't be in this situation if the goddamn Peacekeepers had decided to protect wars instead of waging a guerrilla war for their corporate overlords.
Not that Yuna has much room to criticize. Sixteen years ago, she sold Shane's soul to them in order to save his life. But she really thought they'd keep their end of the deal.
Shane has been the face of Mars since he was a baby. It wasn't planned that way at first. But: baby born on Mars with his tragic familial backstory, a newborn living under the dire conditions they survived under in that first year before any emergency supplies from Earth could get to them â of course people would want that shot of hope. And then when the supplies came, that created its own news clips that kept him in the spotlight. (The video of him rejecting chocolate pudding was shown on late-night talk shows and morning broadcasts and is now a ubiquitous reaction GIF.)
And then the rescue mission came with the new crew, and it became clear Shane couldn't leave without more treatment and medical support. So the M-6 and the corporations made her a private deal. Keeping Shane alive would cost millions, and they needed Mars Ops people on site, not astrobiologists, which meant Yuna was also a burden. But not if Shane sang for their supper. They wanted potential colonists to feel Mars was a safe place to live and work, and child Shane was the perfect tool to create the illusion of safety. He was also the perfect lab rat for investigations of the long-term effects of Mars life. Eventually, their medical discoveries would allow him to go home to Earth. The multiethnic angle helped him appeal to a broader range of nations. All he had to do was appear in a few (some) (more) (many) (so many) (Mom, do I really have to do another?) videos. And to background the Yoshida name in favor of his father's famous family name, Hollander â something that her father-in-law Ed Hollander was 100% behind. And for Yuna to give up astrobiology in favor of Mars ops.
(Sometimes she wondered what would have happened if her scientist love David, so calm and thoughtful and brilliant, had survived instead of his chaotic astronaut father Ed. Would David have let her make the deal at all? Would David have leveraged Shane's position for political capital of his own, as Yuna had?)
But the medical discoveries they made using Shane's body as a lab experiment never allowed him to leave. The videos left every person who came to Mars feeling like they somehow knew Shane, attention that made him deeply uncomfortable, made him escape God knew where on the station when he'd had enough.
And also, because Shane had to be palatable globally, there were enormous restrictions as to how he presented to the world. His manner was studied, practiced, as nonthreateningly nonsexual as a Disney Mousketeer. The role was crushing the life out of her son, just more slowly than Earth gravity would have. And then a brief reprieve; around the time that her father-in-law got sick, the video requests ebbed.
And then somehow, the plans the M-6 and corps had hatched to make Mars a fully automated space settlement leaked. And Yuna realized they hadn't stopped making video requests out of consideration for Shane's family situation; they did it because they didn't need it anymore.
She had a vision of being dragged to the last departing ship in handcuffs while Shane stood on the surface in a spacesuit, waving farewell. So when rumors of rebellion started, she used her connections and her political capital to keep Martians on Mars.
But she'd never thought it would come to this. She doesn't know how many people have died. She doesn't even know where Shane was.
And she doesn't know where the M-6 invasion's command center is. But as the red dot moves, she knows they are about to find out.
"Rabbit is leaving his hole," says Carter, the poor young MOCC specialist who is now monitoring the operation.
Yuna presses her fingers to her lips. This has to work. She tries hard not to think of the cost. She has to keep her son safe.
Fortunately, Shane's heavy burden is unconscious for most of the trip through the tunnels to the medbay.
Fuck. Ilya Rozanov. Shane had never met him, but he's seen through Rozanov's eyes easily a thousand times. Because Rozanov was the Russian Army Hockey Juniors skater that wore a VR filming rig during a game to give people a POV experience of hockey.
Shane loved watching hockey, but even if the open space for a rink wouldn't have been a criminal waste at Happy Valley, the amount of water needed to create a rink would be. Ilya's VR clip was the closest Shane would ever come to the experience of playing hockey, and he'd been watching it over and over since he was 16.
And now he'd shot the guy. Fuck!
Rozanov rouses himself right about when Shane starts climbing the ladder up to the main corridor. (Maybe Shane can't survive Earth, but he has worked hard to be an exceptionally strong Martian.) "You torture me now?" he groans from somewhere around Shane's waist. "I have no information to give you."
"Next time I'll just leave you there to bleed to death," Shane says.
"Violation of Geneva convention," Rozanov says.
"Like you guys massacring a bunch of Peacekeepers wasn't?" Shane spat out.
"We did not â"
"Some of your guys did. I saw it. I was hiding in an air duct." The Peacekeepers had allied themselves with the invading force, stealing food and medicine and sabotaging equipment. Shane should have been glad they were dead, but he'd known some of them since he was a kid. "If I'd been a couple of inches to the left we wouldn't be having this conversation right now. You should have stayed on Earth and worked on your backhand."
"And you should have stuck to giving little Mars tours instead of overthrowing government."
Pretty fucking coherent for someone who is upside down, Shane thinks. "Shut the fuck up so we don't get shot," he says. He looks through the grating at the bottom of the door as they came up the stairs. It doesn't look like anyone is out there, and he can't hear any stompy boots. He slips into the corridor and quickly gets into the medbay.
"Is Dima here?" he asks as he came through the door. Every stretcher is full; it looks like a war zone. He gets down on one knee and carefully leans forward to slowly let Rozanov down onto the floor. He can hear the other man's suppressed grunt of pain. Shane strips off his hoodie and tucks it behind Rozanov's head as a pillow.
It takes a minute, but Dima, the doctor who has looked after Shane since he was a baby, comes over. Shane slips into Russian when describing the injury; all of his doctors were Russian until he was 7, and his brain just defaults to Russian for medical terminology.
"Good job on the tourniquet for two weeks' training," Dima says. He looks at the name on the soldier's chest. "Rozanov?"
"Ilya," Shane supplies.
"You're Grischa's boy?" Dima asks, squatting next to Rozanov.
Rozanov lets his head thud back on the makeshift pillow. He looks sweaty and pale. "You knew my father?" he asks.
Shane's stomach drops. Rozanov isn't an unusual name, but Shane knows exactly who Grischa Rozanov is. He died with Shane's dad. Sveta had never mentioned who Ilya's dad was.
Dima pats Rozanov's shoulder. "I will tell you about him later. But first let me get you something for the pain."
Shane follows Dima as he goes to the pharmacy. "Shanya, all I have left is baby aspirin," he says grimly. "Do you have anything left in your kit?"
Shane fishes out a couple of Tylenol. "Can you treat him?" he asks.
Dima gestures out to the medbay with a wave of his hand. "Our surgical bays are full. I don't have IVs. I don't even have a hemostatic dressing to convert the tourniquet. If we don't convert it soon..." he shrugs. "Compartment syndrome, acidosis. He'll keep the leg but he'll lose more function."
Shane thinks of that goal he's watched Rozanov make a thousand times, of skating around the goal. Rozanov might never have that again. It's Shane's fault. He has to fix it.
"I'll go get the supplies" he says.
"The Peacekeepers have them," Dima says.
An image flashes in Shane's mind of the pile of dead bodies in the machine room. He can feel himself start to freak out and tamps it down. It was a lot easier to do when he was working on Rozanov's injury. "There aren't many of them left. I think I can do it."
Dima looks at him grimly. "I'll make a list."
Ten minutes later, Shane is climbing back down a ladder. He's pretty sure he's got a sneaky way to get under Main Street and through to the section the Peacekeepers had taken over.
In the MOCC, the red dot on the screen keeps moving. "Rabbit is going across Main Street," Carter says.
Yuna keeps her focus on the screen. Shane is a medic trainee. Shane has probably already made his way to the medbay. He'll be safe with Dima.
She watches the red dot move across the map of Happy Valley.
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the place I work at remodeled these split gendered restrooms into âinclusive restroomsâ and never told us what they meant while construction was ongoing. I need you to know every atom of potential criticism or whining that couldâve happened disappeared when people found out this meant we got 10 fully separate private bathrooms with sinks inside. Iâve not heard a single person crack a joke about the inclusive signage. this is the world TERFs are trying to steal from you
This is called a "superloo" and terfs are actively trying to steal this from you, in the UK they changed bathroom regulations to mean new buildings have to prioritise gendered toilets rather than build superloos.
This also upset a lot of architects and designers who like the superloos. They're also typically more like small rooms rather than having doors you can look under.
I have a friend who was strongly against inclusive bathrooms because he felt that âbathroom stalls are already really exposed due to how theyâre constructed, so no wonder women donât want men in the same bathrooms as themâ and when I pointed out that we could just⌠build better bathrooms⌠with less exposed stalls, he got really quiet and then said âhonestly that sounds so much better, but there must be some problem with building them like that, because otherwise wouldnât we already be doing it?â BESTIE we are. WE ARE. Old-style bathrooms are cheaply made, poorly designed, and all around bad. Havenât you noticed that menâs restrooms rooms get weirdly sticky? Havenât you noticed that womenâs restrooms end up with giant lines? This is because these rooms are architecturally awful. And we can do better now, because we know more! And we are!!! People are actively designing better bathrooms that address known problems, and guess what: those bathrooms are âinclusiveâ in the same way that curb-cuts are inclusive. It doesnât matter if the ramp was built for a wheelchair or a stroller; it doesnât matter if the bathrooms were designed specifically for gender inclusivity or just because fall-apart-if-you-sneeze-on-them metal stall dividers with giant ass peek gaps suck. We can in fact improve our built environment to better meet our needs. Stop cutting off your nose to spite your face; stop settling for less just because someone else might also enjoy it.
Seattle's SEA-TAC airport has an all gender restroom that's a row of about a dozen fully enclosed separated little rooms that lock, with a shared bank of sinks and it's great. Love it. Lot of very strange encounters at the sinks, feels odd the first few times! But people laugh it off almost instantly. Because it's not actually a big deal to share a sink.
I thought at the time and still maintain that Victor's actions make perfect sense if you take the premise that he's just coming off an extended major depressive episode. this is EXACTLY the kind of behavior you would expect to see from someone who has categorically realized "I can't live like this any more" and has just been presented with an alternative that doesn't involve suicide
everyone give thanks to the middle eastern and north african people of over ten thousand years ago for domesticating the african wildcat and providing the entire world with some of the best pets ever đđđ it was probably the best idea any human has ever had.
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I keep trying to like red wine like a grown-up but like ⌠itâs rotten grapes, guys. You can drink things that donât taste like rotten grapes. Why
Okay I donât know when this post is from (I came across it stalking multiple blogs). But in case this might help, here is a brief science/wine lesson.
To start off, some facts:
-White wine is made from sweet pulp inside of the grape (minus the seeds).
-Red wine is made from both the skin and the grape (and the seeds and stemsâŚsometimes? Canât remember).
-Tannin is the substance found in red wines, coffee, dark chocolate. Tannins are responsible for the bitter taste in those foods.
-Tannins are found in the skin of the grape, as well as the seeds and the stems. Therefore, most red wines will have tannins, versus most whites will not have tannins.
-Red wines vary in level of tannins, depending on variety of grape, climate, and fermentation process. Pinot noir tends to be very low tannin. Shiraz/Syrah, choice of poison for our beloved brunette surgeon, is very heavy on the tannins.
-Some white wines (most commonly Chardonnay) are aged in oak barrels instead of metal containers. Oak barrels have tannins, which seeps into the wine during the fermentation process. Thatâs why Chardonnays tend to be âdrierâ aka it has tannins.
-White wines like Sauvingnon Blancs are usually fermented in steel barrels (aka no tannins. Aka usually very fruity and light and sweet).
Your ability to taste tannins is genetic.
There is a genetic marker determining whether your taste cells are sensitive to tannins.
Basically two people can drink the exact same wine and have wildly different reactions because:
1. Person A canât taste tannins, so they taste the actual wine flavor.
2. Person B can taste tannins, and that tends to overpower ALL the other flavors in the wine. Basically all they taste is tannins and none of the wine.
I am super tannin sensitive, so if I drink a wine like Cabernet Sauvignon (very tannin heavy, aka âvery dryâ, it tastes like bitter ethanol alcohol to me, whereas my best friend canât taste tannins so the same wine is maybe a little bitter but they can actually taste the grape and different flavors. To her, a wine like Sauv Blanc is too sweet, tastes like sugar water. But to me it tastes good.
So unless itâs the taste of the alcohol or all wines you hate, chances are you might hate the taste of red wine, especially the heavier red wines, because taste the tannin overpowers everything else. And all you taste is bitter bitter ethanol bitter more ethanol.Â
More tannin info:
-Tannins bind to fat.
-This is why tannin heavy wines are recommended with fatty foods (Shiraz and steak). Whenever you eat food with high fat content, the fat builds up on your tongue. A sip of red wine will bind with the fat on your tongue and clear it away. Thatâs why the sip of wine between bites of fat heavy foods is considered a palate cleanser.
-By that logic, this is why white wines are recommended with low fat foods, like fish. Salmon is fattier than most fish, which is why Chardonnay (tannin heavy white wine) or Pinot Noir (low tannin red wine) is recommended with salmon.
-People who are sensitive to tannins can drink tannin heavy red wines with fatty food and generally the wine wonât taste gross. The fat on your tongue (from that steak) will bind with the tannin and neutralize the tannin taste. Aka the only time I ever drink Cabernet Sauvignon or Shiraz is with a steak or heavy, creamy pasta. Aka never bc I donât often eat either.
-The reason dairy helps coffee taste better is because the fat in milk/creams binds with the tannins in coffee and neutralizes the bitter taste. This is why people who canât taste tannins can generally drink coffee black without milk (sugar is a different story). Itâs also why almond milk in coffee is the worst idea (almond milk is already bitter and has no fat).
More wine facts:
-90% of the âaromasâ of wine are marketing BS
-You know the labels that say like âcherry with a hint of blackberry?â Thereâs no real way to infuse cherry or blackberry into grape wine without screwing with the fermentation process. Itâs all created by the wine marketing industry to sell you win. Sometimes if you smell cherry before you drink the wine, you might taste it in the wine (because majority of flavor comes from smell). Or if you think there is cherry flavor in the wine, your brain can trick your taste buds into tasting it.
-The only true flavors found in real grape wine are grapes (obviously), oak/earthy flavor (the barrels), vanilla (barrels, oak sticks), tannins. (There are a few others but canât remember. I think maybe cinnamon?).
-Peopleâs perception of wine often affect how good it tastes to them. Social psychology studies show that people will rate the exact same wine differently if theyâre told the wines are different in price. (They rated the more expensive wine as tastier).
tl;dr
Whether you can taste tannins is genetic. Exact same wines taste different for different people depending on your genetic makeup. If youâre sensitive to tannins, red wines wonât taste like anything other than bitter alcohol. Genetics/tannins are why people generally have preferences for red or whites.
this is extremely informative and i have learned a thing about myself, which is that i CLEARLY inherited the tannin-tasting genes from my teatotaling mother and not from my dad who subsists entirely on espresso and cabernet sauvignon.
Black tea also has tannins, so if you - like me - need to drink it with cream and donât brew it nearly as long as tea aficionados say in scandalized tones you ought to, because otherwise itâs too bitter, you uh. might be sensitive to tannins.
I think that dark roast coffee has more tannins than light roast; I know for certain it requires a good deal more cream/milk to balance out the bitter/burnt taste.
Peeps in extreme temperatures, plain water is NOT the only way to stay hydrated and can in fact be more dangerous if you're sweating a lot and not putting more electrolytes back into your body.
There are a ton of quick and cheap electrolyte drink recipes that you can find online. Tea, coffee, cocount water, milk, milk substitutes, juice, etc are all hydrating despite extremely persistent myths. Many fruits and veggies like cucumbers, watermelon, strawberries, bell peppers, etc have high water content and are a great way to hydrate while also getting vital nutrients. Popsicles are also a good way to stay cool and hydrated and you can buy them or make your own with whatever ingredients you want; there are recipes online, including ones for electrolyte popsicles, but you can also just do basic ones with your choice of fruit juice and whatever you want to add, like chunks of fresh or frozen fruit.
Anyone who is telling you that you can ONLY drink plain water to stay hydrated is incredibly misinformed, even if they have experience with high temperatures.
If you're feeling shitty but been drinking plenty of water and have nothing to make an electrolyte drink
1. Eat fruit
2. Eat something with salt.
I had a day during the worst of the heatwave when I was a feeling really ill and I realised I hadn't had anything with sodium for a good while. I ate some crisps (chips) and immediately felt better. Was that the healthiest option? Maybe not. Was it the most accessible at the time? Absolutely
My mom was a camp counsellor and they were constantly telling the kids to eat potato chips as well as drink water bc chips are the easiest form of salt. Also gives you a little fat and starch boost. So yeah. Summer is the best time of year to have salty snacks!