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“Hunter,” he said, all self-satisfied smirking before he’d so much as said hello, sliding his phone onto the table between them. “You are not in bed yet? Is very late.” “Rozanov,” he said, lips pressed in a resigned half-smile. “You don’t have anything better to do?” “No,” Rozanov shrugged, pouting so minutely Scott thought the expression might actually have been sincere, not meant for him to see. “My plus-one could not make it.” Ah. Now that, he could commiserate with. Though he seriously doubted that Rozanov was missing whatever poor woman he had attempted to sweet-talk into a slinky dress and onto his arm for the red carpet as much as Scott missed Kip. “That sucks. Mine neither.”

Or: Scott Hunter has an enlightening conversation with Ilya Rozanov after his speech at the MLH awards. (Words: 2,960)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) ::rating:teen.and.up.audiences ::category:m/m character:scott.hunter.(game.changers) character:ilya.rozanov character:shane.hollander relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov relationship:background.scott/kip ~ao3:coming.out ~ao3:relationship.reveal ~ao3:fluff.and.humor ~ao3:alternate.universe.-.canon.divergence ~ao3:overheard.phone.call ~ao3:scott.hunter.is.tired ~ao3:hollanov.are.happy ~ao3:mild.off-screen.homophobia ~ao3:pov.scott.hunter.(game.changers) ~ao3:shane.hollander's.socks ~ao3:yep.they.get.their.own.tag ~author:moonflowers

Harris: the sheer number of heart attacks ilya gives me on a daily basis and here you are adding to it Cassie: omg harris perfect segue Cassie: GUESS WHO JUST GOT THE NUMBER OF OUR NEWEST WAG!!!!!! Cassie added Jane to the conversation.

Or, five times Shane Hollander exposes that he's a little freaky in the Ottawa WAGs chat, and the one time it's not him. (Words: 7,269) | Part 3 of home is wherever i'm with you

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) +fandom:game.changers.series.-.rachel.reid ::rating:mature ::category:m/m character:shane.hollander character:ilya.rozanov character:cassie.boodram character:selena.chouinard character:lisa.hayes.(game.changers) character:caitlin.dykstra character:harris.drover character:ottawa.centaurs.wags.ensemble.(game.changers) character:original.female.character(s) character:original.male.character(s) relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:shane.hollander.loves.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.loves.shane.hollander ~ao3:book.6:.the.long.game.(game.changers) ~ao3:post-book.6:.the.long.game.(game.changers) ~ao3:married.shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:supportive.ottawa.centaurs.(game.changers) ~ao3:ottawa.centaurs.wags.group.chat.(game.changers) ~ao3:texting.fic ~ao3:autistic.shane.hollander ~ao3:freak4freak.shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:ottawa.centaurs.as.family.(game.changers) ~ao3:mentioned.ottawa.centaurs.(game.changers) ~ao3:humor ~ao3:ottawa.centaurs.f

Shane worries at the idea like a loose tooth. He's never seriously considered a tattoo before, genuinely hasn't even idly imagined getting one, but now the idea is firmly lodged in his mind. He avoids admitting to himself he's even contemplating what he would get, but in his heart he has known since he scrolled the account and saw a particular piece. A lily.

or Shane gets a tattoo. (Words: 4,668)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) +fandom:game.changers.series.-.rachel.reid ::rating:mature ::category:m/m character:shane.hollander character:ilya.rozanov relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:tattoos ~ao3:tooth-rotting.fluff ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.loves.shane.hollander ~ao3:shane.hollander.loves.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:married.shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:ilya.is.so.down.bad.it's.embarassing ~ao3:post-book.6:.the.long.game.(game.changers) ~ao3:but.the.spoilers.are.relatively.mild? ~ao3:shane.hollander's.relationship.with.control ~ao3:honestly.barely.m.but.they.are.low-level.horny.always.so ~ao3:stand.alone.fic ~author:januarium

"Dr. Belov wants you to come to next session." "Are you sure?" "Da." Ilya flopped onto the couch beside Shane. "There is something he wants us to try. He thinks…He thinks it could be good for me." "And what do you think?" Ilya had been quiet for far too long, picking at a loose thread on the pillow before he shrugged. "I think is maybe…probably good." Shane nodded slowly. "Then we'll do it," he promised, reaching out to squeeze Ilya's arm. "As long as you think it is good."

Or, Ilya's therapist suggests he try age regression as a coping mechanism. (Words: 4,368; WIP)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) ::rating:not.rated ::category:m/m character:original.male.character(s) relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:non-sexual.age.play ~ao3:age.regression.caregiver.shane.hollander ~ao3:age.regression.little.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:age.regression.as.therapy ~ao3:pacifiers ~ao3:age.regression/de-aging ~ao3:domestic.fluff ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.needs.a.hug ~ao3:neither.of.them.are.experts ~ao3:they'll.figure.it.out.together ~ao3:emotional.hurt/comfort ~author:insomniacwriter17

Scott watched as Hollander leaned in, further, to hear Rozanov. This was the part that didn’t entirely make sense to him. The missing piece of something that felt like it was just beyond his reach. This was quiet ease and small moments of comfort and a look that makes the rest of the world fade away. This was how he felt with Kip. Scott stilled. It was as if someone had whispered it in his ear. It was as if the final piece of this insane, deranged puzzle finally clicked into place. His heart was pounding in his ears. He was probably wrong. In fact he was entirely wrong. This wasn’t like him and Kip. It couldn’t be Kip. Scott had been watching too many romantic comedies. His head was in the clouds. But they weren’t touching. Hollander and Rozanov were as close as they could be, without laying a single finger on one another. They were specifically, rigidly, separate. The warmth between them was bridled. Entirely. And this, Scott realized, his heart sinking into the floor, was also how he had felt with Kip. Oh. Oh fuck.

OR: Scott Hunter figures out Shane and Ilya are together at the NHL award ceremony and tries (and fails) not to freak out about it (Words: 8,823)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) +fandom:game.changers.series.-.rachel.reid +fandom:game.changers.|.heated.rivalry.-.all.media.types ::rating:general.audiences ::category:m/m character:scott.hunter.(game.changers) character:ilya.rozanov character:shane.hollander relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov relationship:scott.hunter.&.ilya.rozanov relationship:shane.hollander.&.scott.hunter relationship:kip.grady/scott.hunter relationship:shane.hollander.&.scott.hunter.&.ilya.rozanov relationship:kip.grady.&.shane.hollander.&.scott.hunter.&.ilya.rozanov relationship:scott.hunter.&.carter.vaughn ~ao3:pov.scott.hunter.(game.changers) ~ao3:scott.hunter.finds.out.about.shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:minor.kip.grady/scott.hunter ~ao3:scott.hunter.loves.kip.grady ~ao3:kip.grady.loves.scott.hunter ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.loves.shane.hollander ~ao3:shane.hollander.loves.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.is.a.little.shit ~ao3:shane.hollander.is.a.little.shit ~ao3:coming.out ~ao3:hockey ~ao3:scott.hunter.is.

Shane Hollander isn't allowed to get back on the ice until his (barely!) sprained ankle heals. It's been two days of light-stretching only, and he's going fucking insane. So, like anybody would, he decides to deep-clean the house while Ilya is at practice. He gets caught.

(Words: 6,311)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:game.changers.|.heated.rivalry.-.all.media.types +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) +fandom:game.changers.series.-.rachel.reid ::rating:explicit ::category:m/m character:shane.hollander character:ilya.rozanov relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov relationship:shane.hollander.&.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:married.shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:shane.hollander.loves.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.loves.shane.hollander ~ao3:hockey.injuries ~ao3:minor.injuries ~ao3:anxious.shane.hollander ~ao3:autistic.shane.hollander ~ao3:no.smut ~ao3:bdsm ~ao3:sub.shane.hollander ~ao3:dom.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:good.boy.shane.hollander ~ao3:shane.hollander.has.a.praise.kink ~ao3:oh.did.i.mention ~ao3:praise.kink ~ao3:domestic.discipline ~ao3:spanking ~ao3:non-sexual.spanking ~ao3:and.just.to.be.safe ~ao3:non-consensual.spanking ~ao3:but.trust.shane’s.right.where.he.wants.to.be.he.told.me.himself ~ao3:crying ~ao3:aftercare ~ao3:author.did.not.use.ai ~ao3:fuck.ai ~ao3:you.can.pry.oxford.commas.and.em-das

JJ ok why don't you tell me what your type is since the last four men were no good Mon Capitane🫡 I'm just not interested in dating right now! JJ right but no one said you had to date these guys. just some fun with them😏😏 — Cens groupchat Roz i need someone to take out Boiziau in next game no questions asked

(jj tries to matchmake for shane after finding out he’s gay. things unfold. ilya crashes out. jj finds out a little more) (Words: 2,131)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) ::rating:not.rated ::category:m/m character:jean-jacques.boiziau.|.j..j..dagenais relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:texting ~ao3:relationship.reveal ~ao3:jealousy ~ao3:matchmaking ~ao3:everyone.wants.shane.and.he.is.oblivious ~ao3:silly.and.unrealistic.lol ~ao3:redeemable.jj ~ao3:humor ~ao3:fluff ~ao3:crack ~ao3:social.media ~author:goldengalaxies

Shane Hollander is a lot of things. Achingly Canadian, disgustingly polite, distractingly beautiful, and probably the love of Ilya's life. Recently, it has come to Ilya's attention that lurking just under the surface of Shane's shining golden persona is someone who's....particular. In peculiar ways that don't fully make sense to him. He knows what they call it in Russia. It terrifies him. They say his mother had it, that it is why she...did what she did. Depression and...this thing. He tries to talk to Shane about it. It goes...so badly.

(Words: 26,757)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) +fandom:game.changers.|.heated.rivalry.-.all.media.types ::rating:mature ::category:m/m character:shane.hollander character:ilya.rozanov character:cliff.marlow.|.cliff.marleau character:hayden.pike character:jackie.pike character:yuna.hollander character:david.hollander character:irina.rozanova relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:implied/referenced.suicide ~ao3:autistic.shane.hollander ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.is.trying.his.best ~ao3:shane.hollander.needs.a.hug ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.is.obsessed.with.shane.hollander ~ao3:shane.hollander.walks.ilya.rozanov.like.a.dog ~ao3:depression ~ao3:mental.health.issues ~ao3:schizophrenia.mentioned ~ao3:grigori.rozanov.can.get.fucked ~ao3:russian.psychiatry ~ao3:ableist.language ~author:winshieldwipernoises

Here are some facts: Six months ago, Ilya and Shane sat on Ilyas’ couch, in Boston, and said, we want to be more, even if it has to be in secret. Four months ago, Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander bought new houses. If asked, they would both say it was a complete coincidence. They were not asked, because most people do not browse Zillow for fun in their free time (Shane-) and the real estate of hockey players was of very limited interest to even the most hardcore fan. Two hours ago, Shane Hollander was bleeding out on the ice. Yuna and David Hollander were at least three hours away, at the exact moment their son hit the ice. Yuna Hollander is a perceptive woman. If she enters the house, she will know her son does not live alone. Here is the most important fact Ilya knows right now: Shane would not want to come out to his parents like this. Ilya has one hour to wipe his existence from his boyfriends’ house.

(Words: 7,885)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) ::rating:not.rated ::category:m/m character:ilya.rozanov character:shane.hollander relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:alternate.universe.-.canon.divergence ~ao3:episode:.s01e05.i'll.believe.in.anything.(heated.rivalry) ~ao3:hockey.injuries ~ao3:suicidal.thoughts ~ao3:established.relationship ~ao3:what.if.ilya.and.shane.dug.themselves.into.a.very.deep.hole.and.looked.around.and.said."wow.we.could.make.a.home.here" ~ao3:microhome.but.it's.living.in.the.closet ~ao3:shanes'.injury.is.worse.than.canon.but.not.career.ending. ~author:ghoulien

Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?" Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night." "Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?" Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."

Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities. (Words: 37,182)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) +fandom:game.changers.series.-.rachel.reid ::rating:explicit ::category:m/m character:ilya.rozanov character:shane.hollander character:galina.molchalina character:hayden.pike character:yuna.hollander character:david.hollander character:original.characters character:troy.barrett character:jackie.pike relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:alternate.universe.-.canon.divergence ~ao3:book.6:.the.long.game.(game.changers) ~ao3:spoilers.for.book.6:.the.long.game.(game.changers) ~ao3:car.accidents ~ao3:whump ~ao3:suicidal.thoughts ~ao3:depression ~ao3:panic.attacks ~ao3:depressed.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:anxious.shane.hollander ~ao3:autistic.shane.hollander ~ao3:hospitalization ~ao3:implied/referenced.suicide ~ao3:angst.with.a.hopeful.ending ~ao3:established.relationship ~ao3:medical.inaccuracies ~ao3:medical.procedures ~ao3:hurt/comfort.but.the.comfort.is.kind.of.delayed ~ao3:i.promise.it.turns.out.okay!!!!! ~ao3:mental.health.issues ~ao3:eventual.smut ~ao3:com

The phone was still ringing. Shane took a deep breath and pressed answer. “Hello?” He was immediately met with an overwhelming cacophony of noise. “Hollaannddeerrr!” Rozanov’s voice screamed into the phone, fighting to be heard over the sound of deafening Russian club music, the heavy beats making Shane’s phone vibrate.

Or Moscow to Montreal: Drunk Dials Five times Ilya Rozanov drunk dials Shane Hollander in the summer of 2016, and one time Shane drunk dials back. (Words: 8,825)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) +fandom:game.changers.series.-.rachel.reid ::rating:explicit ::category:m/m character:shane.hollander character:ilya.rozanov character:svetlana.vetrova character:hayden.pike character:jackie.pike character:hayden.pike's.children character:ruby.pike character:jade.pike relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:5+1.things ~ao3:alcohol ~ao3:drinking.&.talking ~ao3:drunk.dialing ~ao3:drunk.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:drunk.shane.hollander ~ao3:dirty.talk ~ao3:smut ~ao3:phone.sex ~ao3:jerking.off ~ao3:masturbation ~ao3:mutual.masturbation ~ao3:anal.fingering ~ao3:skinny.dipping ~ao3:nudity ~ao3:flirting ~ao3:awkward.flirting ~ao3:situationships ~ao3:denial.of.feelings ~ao3:yearning ~ao3:mutual.pining ~ao3:angst ~ao3:developing.relationship ~ao3:miscommunication ~ao3:idiots.in.love ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.loves.shane.hollander ~ao3:shane.hollander.loves.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:jealous.shane.hollander ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.is.bad.at.feelings ~ao3:shane.hollander.is.bad.at.feelings ~a

SHANE HOLLANDER, center, Ottawa Centaurs; Gerald's owner: Gerald was started on September 14th, 2009, at approximately 4:30 in the afternoon. I used a combination of organic rye flour and filtered water at 78 degrees Fahrenheit. The ambient kitchen temperature was 71 degrees, which is within the acceptable range for initial fermentation, though the lower end. I kept detailed notes. I still have them. [He showed me the notes. They are in a composition notebook, written in small, precise handwriting. The first entry reads: "Day 1. Mixed 50g rye flour + 50g water (78°F). Covered with cloth. Placed on counter away from direct sunlight. No activity yet. Expected." There are years of entries. The notebook is the third volume.] SHANE HOLLANDER: I don't understand the question. Why wouldn't I keep notes?

(Words: 6,142) | Part 2 of babushka (aka shane's grandma lifestyle)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) +fandom:game.changers.series.-.rachel.reid ::rating:general.audiences ::category:m/m character:shane.hollander character:ilya.rozanov character:hayden.pike character:lapointe.(game.changers) character:original.character character:brandon.wiebe character:jean-jacques.boiziau.|.j..j..dagenais relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:shane.hollander's.grandma.hobbies ~ao3:autistic.shane.hollander ~ao3:shane.hollander.loves.ilya.rozanov ~ao3:ilya.rozanov.loves.shane.hollander ~ao3:oral.history ~ao3:ottawa.centaurs.player.shane.hollander ~ao3:alternate.universe.-.canon.divergence ~ao3:love.languages ~ao3:comedy ~ao3:gerald.the.sourdough.starter ~ao3:multimedia ~ao3:pov.outsider ~author:moonamona

"What would you say?" Shane asks, tightly, "If you were playing for Montreal." "You want to practice chirping?" Ilya asks, a bit dubiously (and probably rightly so; he's heard enough of Shane's prepared statements over the years, has heard him read a teleprompter, has seen his stiff ads-) "No. No," Shane is emphatic, "I just. Want an idea. Of what to expect." Ilya takes a pull on his water bottle, eyes trained on Shane. He swallows, before replying, "You have played just as long as me. With dirtier team." "Hey," Shane protests, laughing a little, but Ilya doesn't smile back.

Shane wants to be prepared for anything Montreal will throw at him on the ice. (Words: 2,924)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:game.changers.|.heated.rivalry.-.all.media.types +fandom:heated.rivalry.(tv) ::rating:explicit ::category:m/m character:shane.hollander character:ilya.rozanov relationship:shane.hollander/ilya.rozanov ~ao3:post-book.6:.the.long.game.(game.changers) ~ao3:light.angst ~ao3:happy.ending ~ao3:homophobic.language ~ao3:established.relationship ~author:trustingno1

This is not the first time Leonide has been guided to the Argument Lounge. Since her first arrival I have had drones marked on her position at all times, though this will be the first time we are in the same room together. Oh. Perhaps this is why Perihelion and SecUnit M.1.0 told me Leonide’s destination. With a non-functioning governor module, I could leave the room without telling anyone why or where I am going. Still, I do not leave.

or, SecUnit 003 speed runs a lot of rogue unit lessons and trauma. (Words: 10,128)

!!!fandom !!fic |site:ao3 +fandom:the.murderbot.diaries.-.martha.wells ::rating:teen.and.up.audiences ::category:gen character:secunit.3.(murderbot.diaries) character:murderbot.(murderbot.diaries) character:art.|.perihelion character:holism.(murderbot.diaries) character:leonide.(murderbot.diaries) relationship:murderbot.&.secunit.3.(murderbot.diaries) relationship:art.|.perihelion.&.secunit.3 relationship:holism.&.secunit.3.(murderbot.diaries) relationship:art.|.perihelion.&.murderbot ~ao3:post-book.7:.system.collapse ~ao3:pov.multiple ~ao3:secunit.003.centric ~ao3:secunit.related.trauma ~ao3:so.many.secunit.headcannons ~ao3:minor.character.death ~ao3:panic.attacks ~ao3:self-harm ~ao3:implied/referenced.self-harm ~ao3:secunit.bonding ~ao3:discussion.of.genocide ~ao3:the.corporation.rim.is.terrible.(murderbot.diaries) ~ao3:mild.gore ~ao3:threats.of.sexual.assault ~ao3:dead.dove:.do.not.eat ~ao3:hurt/comfort ~ao3:just.two.secunits.doing.their.best ~author:biorusted