angry glasses

at some point during high school i drew a centaur girl with large breasts because i wanted to draw a character that looked like me, and my biofamily got real upset about it. "why are they so large" because mine are that large. "wouldn't that make it hard for her to run" interesting that you think that but keep trying to make me run. "don't draw things like this, it's morally bad" ok i and my apparently inherently pornographic body will just be over here trying to avoid being looked at

this is not to say porn is bad, tbc. i just wasn't a fan as a teenager of being treated like it was impossible to look at bodies like mine non-sexually. frankly i'm not a fan of it now either lmao. i keep kind of thinking about how so many female protagonists are canonically flat or small-chested girls/women who textually wish they had larger breasts, but i can't remember the last time i encountered a protagonist with large breasts where that fact wasn't meant to be sexual. what is up with that dynamic and how do i destroy it

it's like... in order to be accepted as a woman, the character has to desire the idealized form of The Perfect Woman (or if she's a #feminist, reject and detest that same idealized form, but the focus on it is often still there). but in order to be a non-pornographic protagonist, she can't attain it. the moment you have a large enough chest you don't really get to be a normal character anymore, you have to go to sex world. idk. probably someone better read than me has written some sort of papers on this. idk what search terms to use though

I really, really, really liked One-Eyed Flashback, awesome movie and one of the best in the franchise. But it's very obvious that it was written by people who have never lived in mountain country. Which would ordinarily not be a problem (I don't think it's a hot take to say that Detective Conan movies are a little unrealistic), but it just so happens that both me and my partner did grow up in small mountain towns. So all our commentary was like "The way this scene fits so neatly against the larger franchise themes of criminal rehabilitation and redempti– Oh that is a dumbass move. That's not how any of this works. No one in their right mind would ever do that. Guys I think Komei is going to die."

the thing about lestat de lioncourt is that he has objectively done horribly cruel and selfish things, and he has objectively had horribly cruel and selfish things done to him, but on top of that he cares deeply about how people see him and is constantly on the defensive about his cruel and selfish things, which means it’s difficult to say anything in his favor without sounding exactly like him at his worst. “manipulating people is his coping mechanism from all the trauma he’s suffered” is an argument that can be made, but it’s also something lestat would tell david talbot word for word while drunk and speaking about himself in the third person