Ok so it's been a hot minute since I've posted anything anywhere and I feel like I should be honest (groundbreaking, I never do this). This is like, my third time drafting a post like this, so hopefully I actually post it this time.
First is that I'm not dead. Shocker I know.
Second is that despite being alive, I haven't exactly been living recently. Nothing particularly bad has happened, but I've always had shit mental health and it's been kinda Bad for a little while now. I'm coping and I'm trying, but I am, ultimately, not at my best and haven't been for some time.
Third, the reason I've not been posting any fics is because I've actually been writing original fiction. I've not talked about it on here (or many other places, admittedly) but I'm primarily writing a fantasy series. It's been really hard to write fanfic, because I'm writing so much other stuff.
I'm at a point with it where the first book is maybe as good as I can make it. I've been working on getting an agent list together, learning about querying, trying to get myself to a point where I'm able to actually do the querying.
I don't know if it will lead anywhere, but I figure that I should try and that I should probably talk about what I'm doing so that it's not complete silence on here. I keep thinking that I shouldn't talk about it, and I think it's an arbitrary rule which is actually holding me back. I might talk about it some more at some point, but even this post feels like A Lot.
In short, thank you for your patience. I'm finally reaching a point where it feels like things are moving forward instead of stagnating. Hopefully posting this is a good sign of that.