it's so embarrassing to be alive, it really is

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Ali Louis Bourzgui winning Best Featured Actor in a Musical at the 79th Tony Awards

I truly can’t get enough of how quietly but fiercely protective Taissa is of Natalie. I would go as far as to say that Tai shows the most genuine, untainted care and empathy for Nat out of any other character on the show. Tai gives Natalie a lot of shit, but it always feels a lot more like the exasperated concern you would hear from an older sister.

Tai is the only character so far to recognize the impact of Nat’s home life before the crash (“Her dad, at home…Horror show”). She consistently pulls Nat back on her feet after her relapses and toxic stints with Travis and pays for Nat’s rehab on multiple occasions. Taissa is the first person Nat thinks of to call when she gets arrested. In Nat’s time as leader in the wilderness, Taissa appears to be her right hand man, the primary person she entrusted to offer her guidance and direction (“Don’t forget what happened to Jackie”). Even Tai’s opposition to Nat’s leadership feels more like concern that Nat can’t handle the burden that has been placed on her than actual hostility. Tai has a uniquely deep understanding of Nat. She sees Natalie’s full picture, not just her addiction and self-destruction, but the damage underneath, the why behind everything she does.

It means so much to me that Tai starts tearing up during her interrogation of Nat in the Coach Ben trial. These aren’t just tears of anger, they’re tears of disappointment and betrayal. They come from a place of deep care and admiration for Nat. Tai is genuinely hurt by the realization that Nat has been lying to her and, in her eyes, endangering the group’s safety. This whole interaction between the two of them, both with angry tears in their eyes, really feels like an argument between siblings. This is about a personal breach of trust, and Tai feeling let down by Nat.

In the aftermath of Coach Ben’s death, when Nat stumbles out bloodied, Tai’s first instinct is to check if she’s hurt.

When Shauna threatens to kill Nat, Tai is the first one to step in to protect her. She steps right in front of where Nat is kneeling on the ground, blocking Shauna’s path to her with no hesitation. Even though she doesn’t agree with Nat’s decision to kill Coach, she is ready to go head-to-head with Shauna to defend her.

I love that they both get teary-eyed in this scene. To me, it just shows how much care and respect is behind that anger. You can see the betrayal on Tai's face, she trusted Nat, had faith in her, and she can’t believe she would lie to her. And the moment Tai exposes her and raises her voice, Nat bursts into tears. She knows she’s disappointed Tai, someone she deeply respects, and she’s feeling the weight of having let her down.