i've been listening to gracie abram's "i knew it, i know you" almost nonstop since cc put it on the tlkof playlist, and this might be silly but if i don't get it off my chest i will explode so:
here is how i would break down the song
and then orange is just my annotations
I swear to God, I haven't thought of you in ages
I've lived a lot, I've loved and lost, I've let the rain in
(Almost pettily) I'm pretty sure, I mean I've heard, you never faced it
(As if ignoring the previous line) I understand, I changed your plans, I had to, baby
(Both righteously, but with regret) And all I did was right by me, I heard that almost killed you
Well, I knew it, I know you, I called it
And I think that you earnestly have waited on apologies
But I can't pretend that I'm sorry
So, aren't you sad about the fact that you can't write me?
(Slightly hurt) I cheered the loudest for you when you won your trophies
(A little bitterly) I'm on the ground, how's the weather on your planet?
(A little meanly) An empty house, the noise is loud, it's how you stand it
(Kit angrily, Ty wistfully) And don't you feel alone at night or sorta kinda daily?
Well, I knew it, I know you, I called it
And it makes me wanna cry sometimes, but don't you know the deal now?
(A little petty again) Well, I just can't pretend that I'm sorry
(Kit clenching his fists, Ty staring at Livvy) When I'm not sorry
(In a raw voice) And we don't even know each other now
And I'd blow all my plans if you'd meet me out
(Hopeful) We could talk, we could get it, we could both calm down
[And now it's just Kit getting in his feelings and getting a little bit angry and a little savage again]
It all changed for me and I told you (down)
(Calmly) You had the wrong idea about me (down)
And all I ever did was consider you (down)
Until all I could do was consider me (down)
I was your entertainment from a dark place (OUCH!!!!!)
(Kit accusingly, Ty a bit hurt) You don't know how to step outside yourself
It's not my fault you can't sit with the hard thing
You really thought you would get what you wanted
You really thought you would get what you wanted
The last verse is SOOOO "kit has thought too much about this and every time he thinks about it he gets angrier"
Anyway thank you (not) for this playlist CC it fucking broke me.