just a box of rain

but for my mom's family it was. true. we encountered some nonsense with her siblings when we lost my dad. his siblings aren't any more well-adjusted but they behave in public. they never did anything like fight over their parent's stuff when their parents died, and they didn't get weird and invasive in my mom's house when their brother (my dad) died. and my cousins on that side are mostly normal and even the wackier ones were really really kind to me.

my mom's siblings do NOT know how to act. everything is about them at all times. they did get weird and invasive, they did say insensitive shit to me. some of my cousins were just as bad.

so you can imagine how the death of my grandmother is going. it's messy as fuck. there are individuals who have the emotional maturity to deal with it like reasonable people but even they have done some childish shit. and this is something that happens, you get in fights about trivial garbage because there's nothing you can do about the real problem. trust and believe that I know that.

^^ is something I thought on the subway while going through my music on the train but this is also absolutely not a joke, I've helped with 2 funerals now where we had to guess what song the person would like to have played, and it was a rough decision. make a death plan and include what song would make people cry at your funeral, please.

I AM NOT MAD at any individual about this so please please don't start yelling at my family to me but I did have to have a conversation of "I am only going to put real photos in the folder & album I'm saving for the funeral, I am not going to put anything fake." this was partially based on a misunderstanding (someone sent me a video that was not intended to be saved for this purpose) but as a result I did need to get out ahead of it and tell people, you need to tell me if you send me AI, so I don't include it. and like I said: I am. not. angry. about this. but it did make me feel very tired and sad that I even had to clarify that at all.

asking AI about my grandmother's health prognosis and then sending it to the family? ... that person is doing a lot of good work and means well and is putting in the time and effort and not relying on stuff like this to make decisions. however. for that one. I am working very hard not to get angry about it. ... still no one talk shit about this person to me. only I get to talk shit about this situation. but oh my god what the fuck.

switching from personal to work: even the people developing AI tools don't want to be developing AI tools. spoke to someone who is like "I used to make things people wanted, now I'm being asked by upper management who is only interested in saving money, to make something that literally no one who is going to use it wants, and I don't even know if it will work, or actually save money." and I'm just. holy shit. no one wants this!

Germany: Black Forest

This is the location of Stalag VC, a Nazi POW camp in Malschbach near Baden-Baden. It was built in 1939 and closed in 1944. Information at the site notes that of the forced laborers, Soviet & Eastern European prisoners were treated much worse than the American and French POWs. At least 205 people died there.