Ad Astra Per Aspera.

You can tell when I have to edit this on mobile bc the formatting breaks </3

After years of estrangement, Colt decides to get back in contact with his twin. As they start talking again, Colt realizes that he knows nothing about Ryland anymore. He aims to fix that.

The Main Plot

poorly described as: “slow burn found family, but it’s just your twin that you haven’t seen in 2 decades”

under #flicker of a streetlight!coltland twins au Part 1 Part 2 Part 2.5 Part 3 Part 4 Part 4.5 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13

Part 14

Part 15

Part 16

Extras

under #flicker of a streetlight au On image ID Playlist Original Inspiration Ryland’s Tattoos Bloodymary intro idea Court’s status

Colt’s though process/The Garden

General Warnings

Flicker deals with complex relationship dynamics between family members, romantic partners, and platonic attachments. Do not take all of my depictions of these relationships as healthy, a lot of them aren't.

Flicker also deals with references to patricide, childhood trauma, and child abuse. Partially due to the fact that this is a ColtLand Gentry au and thus deals with Court's backstory through the eyes of his little brother.

Manipulation is a major theme in the main conflict! Learning that the image one has of past events is the wrong image is incredibly destabilizing and Flicker will deal with the aftermath.

Several characters struggle with their mental health and Flicker will include depictions of c-ptsd, passive suicidal ideation, discussion of past suicidal behavior, hallucinations, and intrusive thoughts. There is currently one panic attack depicted in somewhat of a dangerous environment. Nothing will be graphicly described and support for the struggling characters is present.

While I didn’t initially want to include flashbacks, I am trying my best to provide an accurate representation of the trauma faced by these characters. As such, some flashbacks will be depicted.

If I ever sensationalize or misrepresent something in a way that is harmful, please feel free to yell at me.

It became less comical for Colt the one time the stunt crew were rushing and grabbed (a very flustered) Ryland and tried to hook him onto a rig, thinking it was Colt.

The way he ran up screaming, "DAN THAT'S NOT ME, THAT’S RYLAND! DO NOT DROP MY BROTHER OFF A 40-FOOT BUILDING PLEASE!"

Jody and Ryland still laugh about it. Colt still gets anxiety thinking about it

Trevor Noah has a great tip, that when he craves ice cream at night he breaks it down into parts: I want something cold, I want something sweet. He drinks a glass of cold water then waits to see if he still has the ice cream craving. Usually he doesn’t.

So listening to your body isn’t “follow every urge” but “decompose the urge to discover the underlying need.”

If you always feel like getting cozy in bed you may be: cold, dehydrated, and/or malnourished (maybe a need for high calories that are bioaccessible…not processed).

If you do not feel tired at bedtime you may: need to eat dinner earlier because your body is still digesting, need to exercise or go outside more during the day, get the fuck off your screen for an hour so your brain can enter sleep mode.

Hope this helps someone.