Wilko222

i'm so tired

it'll be a year since my dog died soon, and yet i still remember every detal

i still remember calling my grandfather to ask if everything's fine

i still remember seeing my cousin playing with her dog and comparing her to him, thinking "what if ahe's dead right now" and quicly dissmising the thought with "my family would tell me if something went wrong, they'd tell me" and go play with them

i remember the ride home, wondering how she's doing

i remember the ride to my grandparents' house, not sensing anything wrong, being happy to see her again

i remember wondering where she is when she didn't come as i got out of the car

i remember looking for her

i remember getting a bad feeling when my grandfather told me he'd show me where she is

i remember freezing when i saw dug up dirt from 10 meters ahead as my brother still blisfully folowed him

i remember turning around to my father with a look i could only imagine told the only thing going through my head "please don't let it be true please don't let it be true pleasedon'tletitbetrue pleasedon'tletitbetruepleasedon'tletitbetrue" only to find him gone

I REMEMBER THE EXCUSE OF A GRANDATHER JOKING THAT "she's here in the body but not the soul"

I REMEMBER FEELING MORE RAGE, SADNESS, DESPAIR, GRIEF, RAGE, RAGE, RAGE THAN EVER IN MY LIFE

I REMEMBER THINKING OF CHOKING EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO KNEW

I REMEMBER THE COWARD WHO WALKED AWAY TO HIDE FROM MY TERRIFIED EYES COMING OVER AND PUTTING A HAND ON MY SHOULDER

I RMEMEBER TURNING MY HEAD TO LOOK AT HIM IN AN EXPRESSION I CANNOT IMAGINE, FULL OF BETRAYAL, TEARS AND RAGE RAGE RAGE UNTIL HE LIFTED IT

I REMEMBER RUNNING TO THE WOODS AND JUMPING THE FENCE AFTER WALING AWAY

I REMEMBER CRYING FOR HOURS TILL THE COWARDS CALLED ME BACK SINCE WE HAD TO GO TO ANOTHER TRIP AND MY ONLY OTHER OPTION WAS STAING IN THAT GODDAMNED HOUSE

I REMEMBER NOT SLEEPING TWO NIGHTS AFTER THAT

I REMEMBER NOT EATING WITHIN ANYONES SIGHT FOR WEEKS AFTER THAT

I REMEMBER FINDING OUT she WAS SICK FOR WEEKS BEFORE I CAME

I REMEMBER FINDING OUT she WAS ETHANIZED TWO WEEKS BEFORE I FOUND OUT

I REMEMBER THINKING EVERY DAY "THEY DIDN'T TELL ME FOR TWO WEEKS she WAS DEAD. THEY DIDN'T TELL ME FOR OVER A MONTH she WAS SICK. THEY. DIDN'T. TELL. ME."

I REMEMBER THEM BEING ANOYED (EVEN IF THEY RIED TO HIDE IT) THAT I STILL HOLD A GRUDGE AFTER THEY DIDN'T TELL ME she WAS IN PAIN, AFTER THEY KILLED THE ONE WHO WAS THERE MY WHOLE LIFE, WHO WAS THERE SINCE I WAS A YEAR OLD, WHOS DEATH I FEARED SINCE I UNDERSTOOD THE CONCEPT

AFTER THEY TOOK AWAY MY SOULMATE WITHOUT A GOODBYE

THEY'RE STILL SO FUCKING LUCKY I DIDN'T CHOOSE TO DAMN THE COSEQUENCES AND EITHER TAKE REVENGE OR JOIN her YET

i will join her in four years if i don't find a reason not to till then

but for now

I WILL REMEMBER

superspeed, superstrengh, telekinesis, laser, healing, the revival ofc and the not metioned here teleportation(unless that goes under the shapeshifting category) yeah those we saw already

and then there's the freaking magnetic feild, cloning, animal communication???i mean we saw that with their animations but i didn't think it was classyfied as a power i just thought they listen to them cuz they made them(guess they're a princess now), fucking shapeshifting and gravity warp and wather breathing

WHAT THE FUCK

I WAS JUST WATCHING WITH A HAND ON MY MOUTH WHEN THEY STARTED FIGHTING