rereading the whole series, I'm on Victory of Eagles at the moment. the level of laurence's self alienation and the violence of the whiplash that comes when tharkay "laurence what are you doing"-s him is insane. like laurence is in killing machine mode, not even paying attention to temeraire (!!!); tenzing deus ex machina tharkay flies into camp in the early days of march, goes "i would prefer not to" at laurence's order, adds on a "laurence what are you doing", and our iceman literally starts bawling right then and there. cries for ten minutes, has a crisis at tharkay's own way of life, and goes out at once to apologise to his dragon. insane. the kind of emotional rollercoaster that would have me in bed for three days straight.


















