Moth’s Domain

I used to prep, wash dishes, and cook at mellow mushroom. I had chronic pain that wasn't NEARLY as bad as it is today, but it was still very debilitating. I told my employer "i cannot stand more than 4 to 6 hours. I CANNOT do shifts longer than this due to my illness." And even though i made my boundaries VERY clear, everyday i worked it was 8 hours at the least and 10 or 12 at the most. I would go up to my manager and say "look i really need to leave, my shift is over, my chronic pain is killing me." And he'd say "we really need to here, you HAVE to push through." And so i did, and after one, ONE month of that job my crps got incredibly worse to the point where i could no longer walk my dog around the block which was .5 miles. I quit, and that was FOUR years ago, and ever since that day I HAVE BEEN BEDRIDDEN AND HAVE TO USE A WHEELCHAIR. It is my biggest regret in life.

My best friend who has seen my whole journey has recently developed undiagnosed chronic pain, and she is in the EXACT same scenario i was 4 years ago. Busting her ass at a pizza place with extreme pain that hurts her so much she tells me "im in so much pain i don't even feel like a person." She doesn't feel LUCID. And her manager and coworkers are saying the same thing "if you don't help us you will let us down, we'll be in the shit."

Lost my mind a little and added (if my math is correct) 5,615 beads to Nim Teasdale's Odenwald pattern. Anything worth doing is worth overdoing!

The goal was “soothingly weighted but not uncomfortable to wear, even as someone with chronic pain.” It could have been a little heavier, so maybe I’ll make a shawl with larger beads another time, but I’m very pleased with this one. I used size 6/0 seed beads, applied as I go with a .6mm crochet hook.

Yarn-wise, used 2 cakes of YarnArt Flowers. I knitted the fully purple sections from both, then knitted all the way through the yellow-oranges with a single ball. When I hit the beginning of red-oranges, I used yarn from both cakes, alternating between them. (Not the entirety of both, I played it by ear to make sure I made it through the full rainbow.)

I do have edited charts with bead placements. I will only share them with Nim's permission.

goodbye chiikawa

Suffering does not bring you closer to your preferred gender

You are not better or more trans than someone else because you've suffered more

yes, we know the company is shitty, lazy, and terrible altogether, but sending FULL SPECS of ALL the company systems? To a SecUnit?? That seems like a pretty big cock-up for a security company. It makes me wonder exactly what the company's Systems thinks of the way they're forced to treat their people (constructs included). It makes me think about all the little ways Systems find loopholes to help people, despite corporate hegemony.

I wonder if the techs that were fixing up the Sec units after the Ganaka pit disaster understood that this was CAUSED by the govmod. That this was a vulnerability in the system, and the company was cheap and doing a shitty patch on this exploit.

I wonder if they knew, and understood how easy that would be to do again. And "accidentally" giving the Secunits the specs, so that they could maybe patch things themselves. Maybe they could protect themselves from this exploit better than the company could.

I wonder how much Secunit techs understand about the units they create and maintain. I wonder how much they know of the personhood everyone tries to disguise.

QUEER IS NOT A SLUR

We reclaimed it way back in the 1980's. It is the accepted term used in academia, in colleges and universities ALL OVER THE PLACE.