wait ok also what i was trying to say and not really managing to convey is that ilya is a hedonist but not like, as a philosophy. he’s just stuck chasing anything that feels good. he is the definition of instant gratification, because he doesn’t think the future is real. so re: tuna melt, he wants shane to stick around because it feels good for him to be around shane. shane is not substantially experientially different than a fast car or a line of coke.
and then he also has a pretty appallingly low distress tolerance also common in PTSD where once it isn’t fun, he can’t fucking handle it, like when shane gets bonked on the head and ilya is like oh my god i need to break up with him. he just exists in a pretty triggered activated animal state where he moves toward reward and moves away from pain, like he is fairly fight or flight at all times. which is kind of what i mean by having a lack of a view of a future, he exists only in the present moment (which is actually the past moment that he got stuck in).
