yeah this is the pearl house askblog

got my lab results back turns out i’m full of rage because i am full of grief

I love you violence I love you descent into madness I love you transformations into an unrecognizable self I love you monsters who were human I love you questioning if I’ve changed or been like this all along I love you being scared I love you secrets I love you twisted coming of age stories

does everyone have a teacher that they still have beef with/ hold a grudge against today??

My least favourite teacher died recently and now everyone is talking about how she was “a beautiful soul whose Legacy Will Be Cherished By Those Whose Lives She Touched” and I’m stuck here like Actually Do Yall Not Remember She Was A Massive Bitch? She Sucked As A Person And Was Bad At Her Job. She Made Children Cry. Are You Fucking Kidding Me. But noooooooo we lose the stage 4 cancer lottery and now we’re the fucking saint of orphaned puppies. “Ohh she was such a generous and caring soul” shut up Debra, she was a cunt and now she’s a dead cunt. Death doesn’t make you special

sea slug saturday lets go

sea slug sunday lets go

sea slug smonday lets go

sea slug stuesday let’s go

sea slug swednesday lets go

sea slug sthursday lets go

sea slug sfriday lets go

part of the reason I think it’s so sad that we collectively write so few stories about unrequited love is bc I feel like there’s very little public acknowledgment of how much it sucks to be the one somebody is in unrequited love with??? and not in a way of like, oh they’re crossing boundaries or putting expectations on me or whatever. becoming close friends with someone and then finding out they’re in love with you and you don’t love them back the same way is heartbreaking, bc a) someone you love is in pain and there is literally nothing you can do about it, and b) it usually means that whether you like it or not there’s going to be distance in your friendship that wasn’t there before as they try to get over you. idk man I just feel like we’ve all discussed the tragedy of loving someone who doesn’t love you back quite a lot and very rarely discuss the tragedy of finding out the way that you love someone just isn’t enough.

no bro you don’t understand. we have to make out. it’s for science. dude just listen to me. when was the last time you kissed someone? i’m willing to help you out! you can practice by making out with me. i’m your oldest and best friend. this totally won’t be weird or change anything about our dynamic i promise. it’s what friends are for. making out with your homies to make sure they can really impress the ladies. maybe you’re on top of me. maybe we’re both flushed. maybe you have my hands pinned over my head and we’re both breathing hard and we both wait a beat too long to move but i promise bro this is totally no homo.

i think ultimately you do really have to kill that part of your brain that vividly imagines how you would redo parts of your life.

the curse is lifted! you are no a beast no more! congratulations! but you'll never forget the way they looked at you, will you.

Honestly? My main piece of advice for writing well-rounded characters is to make them a little bit lame. No real living person is 100% cool and suave 100% of the time. Everyone's a little awkward sometimes, or gets too excited about something goofy, or has a silly fear, or laughs about stupid things. Being a bit of a loser is an incurable part of the human condition. Utilize that in your writing.

not doomed by the narrative but saved by the narrative. yeah i know you'd rather die than keep suffering but the story doesn't actually care what you want. you have to keep going, even when it hurts. even being erased from existence won't stop you from being salvaged from the wreckage of un-being. get up. keep pushing. keep bleeding. keep living.

it’s seasonal lads

IT’S SEASONAL AGAIN LADS

welp

#The wisdom#The kind that sits on your chest heavily#And you don’t so much get over it as you learn to keep existing with its weight

I love characters that are completely harmless until they finally unleash their power and then they’re TERRIFYING

or, even better: totally harmless but occasionally the other characters catch glimpses of what’s underneath and you just know

Or, even better: A character that used to have the reputation of being terrifyingly powerful but nowadays is seen as totally harmless and no one believes that they could have ever been that terrifyingly powerful until they show what they are truly capable of.

bigggg fan of characters who died before their arc completed. who never got that happy ending. bonus points if they come back but it’s not the same and never will be