a void of spam reblogging

Okay this is just on another level. I'm not crying IT'S JUST RAINING. ON MY FACE.

Dispatch hit me in a more personal place than I expected. I related a hell of a lot to Visi. Her ADHD, her anger, her insecurity, the way she identified with villainy.... Some people are naturally assholes. I certainly am. And it sucks when you're a natural asshole but you want to be a good person. Because that's not easy. People say it "costs nothing to be nice," but it's often a lot of hard work. It takes vigilance, reflection, self-awareness, and effort. I do often feel the way she felt in that scene in the park. Like I was put on this earth to be a bad person and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm *great* at being a bad person... but I just don't want to be, y'know? That's not what I want. I want people to be happy to have me in their lives. I want to be the good guy. And that's not natural. I have to work for it, and when I fuck up I have to rely on others to recognize that I'm trying my best. And that sucks. It sucks being dependent on others' forgiveness... It sucks knowing your next fuck-up is right around the corner... But there's no other way to be happy with who I am. So when you put a character in front of me who's going through that exact thing, yeah, it's not even gonna take me a second to press that dialogue option. I won't hesitate. You think you're unforgivable? Well I forgive you.

The "welcoming committee" is really branching out lately!

"What's up, big dog; I'm ratsmacker" is going to live rent free in my head for a little while

They make me physically ill

ok but this unironically works. talk about how the working class is exploited and you can basically sell full-on marxism to your average republican if you do it right. all you have to do is avoid the words "Marx," "capitalism," "socialism," "communism," "means of production," etc - just use synonyms. say "big business" or "corporate shareholder interests" instead of "capitalists." say "a government that prioritizes the needs of the working people" instead of "socialism." it WORKS. I've DONE it. the hardest sell are usually things like social and racial equity, welfare, things like that, because people have been primed with the racist/classist idea that those things are somehow unfair - but you can get your foot in the door to getting them to buy into those too if you start with class issues. read up on your theory, make sure you REALLY understand your own ideology, because that will enable you to reword it and successfully sell it.

Oh. Shit.