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I'm James, creator of The Transgender Dictionary. The transgender dictionary is a collection of words, terms, phrases, acronyms, etc, that primarily have to do with the transgender community and transgender issues. Click around to find more extensive resources on certain topics.

I am a 25 year old trans woman. This is a mainly fantasy nsfw kink blog with concepts, some sprinkles of kink safety, and occasional snippets of me. I’m a switch leaning sub. This account provides ammo to those who wish to tease~

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My experience with testosterone gel

1. It smells a lot, and it smells bad. It’s a chemical-y, factory-like smell. It’s very pungent. If my pets are in my room when I open a packet they leave. It doesn’t linger on fabrics or anything like that but it is unpleasant.

2. It’s cold! I apply mine as soon as I get out of the shower and oh my gd it’s cold. I put it on my stomach so that amplifies the effect but it is pretty jarring and unpleasant sometimes.

3. It’s messy. This is not something you can apply to your thighs or stomach while standing up or even sitting, in my experience. I have to be fully laying down- not wearing a shirt or binder so the gel doesn’t get on anything- to apply it to my stomach. There’s a lot of gel in a single packet (I’m not sure how exactly they go about supplying lower or higher doses though, so you might have a much easier/harder time with this) so it will drip if you don’t spread it out thin enough.

4. Speaking of spreading it thin, it takes time to apply and leaves a flakey residue if there’s too much. This is why I recommend doing it on your stomach (and thighs if there’s too much to spread thin enough), because it has a big surface area. It takes approx 5-8 minutes for my gel to dry enough to put on clothes if I spread it out right, but it all depends on how much surface area you have and how meticulous you are about getting every inch.

5. It produces a LOT of trash. Personally I use a glove when applying T because it’s a lot easier than having to think about every surface I touch to get to the sink. This means it takes about 5 days to completely stuff a regular sized ziploc bag with medical waste- which goes by much faster than you think! I’m lucky enough that my mom works in a place with access to a medical waste bin, so I’m not sure how one would dispose of this without that.

6. It is exxxxpensive. I’ve been told I can double my dose, but I’m not going to because of the cost. I don’t want to switch to any other form of T, and paying double what I already pay is just impossible for me. The price definitely depends on where you are, though, so consult a doctor/whoever you consult about it before ruling it out because of the cost.

7. It does NOT slow down transition. Before I say what I’m about to say: do not expect the same results or anything close to it. (Most) medical professionals know best when it comes to this, listen to yours instead of listening to me. I’m just one guy! I do not represent everyone who has tried gel. With that said, my voice dropped almost instantly (within a week there were noticeable changes). I got more hair within a month, I have a full happy trail now that it’s been ~5 1/2 months. My hair darkened and thickened within ~2 months. By now my voice is unrecognizable to people who haven’t talked to me since before taking T.

8. You *have* to take it daily. I know, I know, you’ve heard that before, but I didn’t really internalize it. Think about it. Do you have enough time around school/work/whatever to sit around and wait for the gel to dry? Do you travel regularly? What will you do if you can’t take your T with you? Do you have somewhere you can store it without it freezing? Do you have a safe way to dispose of all the waste it produces? Can you handle a consistent schedule of ordering it from your pharmacy a few days before it runs out (I can’t lol)? Etc. etc. Think about all of this before deciding.

9. It’s easy to remember. I’ve never tried other forms of testosterone, but lemme tell you it’s a lot easier for me, personally, to remember something I do daily versus something you have to do weekly.

10. Kind of a weird point, but it just feels like it works better. It’s all the placebo effect, but taking it every day just feels more effective to me :) every day I can look forward to putting it on and know that it’s doing something.

With all that said: these are just considerations. They haven’t in any meaningful way affected my preference for testosterone gel- I just wish I knew these things so I could prepare in advance! I wish you luck with your hrt journey <3<3<3

“FIRST EVER TRANSGENDER JOB FAIR IN LA ALSO, THEY ARE GOING TO BE HIRING ON THE SPOT SHARE AND RETWEET TO INFORM ALL THE HOMIES.”

-  Cielo Oscuro‏

Now that I am officially post op (double incision) I thought it may be helpful to compile a list of things I wish I knew before top surgery that may have made recovery easier.

1. Wear a Zip Hoodie or a very large short sleeve button up shirt. Trust me - it is so much easier to get in and out of than a normal button up shirt. The sides of my incisions (close to my arm pit) are the only place that hurt and I feel a burning pain when I put clothing on if I need to move my arm back. Wearing the short sleeve shirts a size up have made getting changed so much easier.

2. The Post Op Binder Sucks. I didn’t really know what the post-op binder WAS - I just assumed it was a normal binder. But really what it is is (for my surgeon at least) was the following: Bolster Dressing on my nipple grafts, a layer of soft foam stuff (?), a light compression binder that zips and clasps, and then a stiff wrap that wraps around my chest and velcro. The stiff wrap made it impossible to get comfortable - it was so tight and I was so swollen. My stomach and upper back hurt and it kept riding up. Take deep breaths and do your best to get comfy with pillows. I needed to wear it for a week and I was very ready for it to come off.

3. You may be itchy. Be prepared. I was SO itchy after top surgery - everywhere. I slept with socks on my hands because I would wake up scratching the sides of my incisions, the bottom of the binder (where it rubs against my skin), and my entire chest. Luckily I didn’t hurt anything but have topical Benadryl and/or oral Benadryl in place. I was not expecting to be this itchy but i felt like my skin was crawling.

4. The only pain I felt was on the sides of my arms, near my arm pits. I wasn’t expecting to only be in pain in one spot - I was expecting pain everywhere. I feel a pulling/burning at the ends of my incisions. My surgeon said this is because of a gland they remove (?). 

5. If you are a natural side sleeper like me - sleeping will be tough. I pillow forted myself in to prevent myself from rolling over. Falling asleep was hard but the medicine I took for my itching helped me. The first few nights after surgery I was so tired it didn’t matter, but as I began to feel more like a person again, falling asleep became increasingly difficult.

6. You may pass out and/or throw up at your reveal and/or your first shower home. I was NOT expecting this. My nurse informed me of this at my 1 week post op appointment. I nearly passed out as she undid the post op bindings (I was lying down and we took it slow). I wasn’t expecting to feel so faint and nauseous. I nearly fainted during my first shower (partly due to how my nipples looked and partly due to standing up bare chested for the first time). I showered with my eyes closed and sat naked on my toilet for 20 minutes before I felt settled enough to change.

7. Your nips will look very strange/gross post op but do the dressings. My nipples looked absolutely disgusting and grossed me out. So much so I didn’t want to do my daily dressings my surgeon told me to do because it meant seeing them and touching them. But they can’t heal unless you take care of them so sometimes you just have to bite the bullet and do it.

8. Take a deep breath. It feels so good to breathe without binding or excess baggage on my chest. Enjoy it.

9. You will be flat. My chest is so flat I can’t believe it. It looks better than I expected. The amount of confidence I now have is unreal. I’ve always struggled with my body but top surgery has made me SO much more confident in my body, even in areas that I am still self conscious about (like my hips)

10. Having fabric brush against your chest - especially incisions - will feel weird at first. As the nerves are waking up, walking around and having my shirt brush against my chest almost hurts in a weird way. This is normal. Take it slow.