I've always had troubles with what seems to be called sensual attraction. I've always been disgusted by the idea of having to kiss people on the cheek to say hello (French people like me are culturally required to do so), hugging,... In fact, when I see people, I never want to touch them. I've read a bit about it and perhaps it's due to the fact that I am neurodivergent.
But no matter the cause, it's still very confusing, because there are some (very rare) people, to whom I feel very emotionally close, and with whom I sometimes imagine myself hugging. It feels very weird, because I can't know for sure if I would want/appreciate this for real, when they are right in front of me. So I've never tried, and I don't know if I would like to. Perhaps that's because my family got me used to forcing myself to reciprocate their physical affection I did not like, which makes me very reluctant to even think about it when I am with other people.
So... Are there people on the asensual spectrum here? Am I one of them? Is there a label which applies to me? Do you happen to have any pieces of advice for me? Thanks ^^
