#thorough

But thorough is precisely the type of person I need to be right now. The type of person that doesn’t just allow chips to fall where they may, and lets people show me who they are and doesn’t try to change them. Maybe I just need to finally learn to let sleeping dogs lie. To let people be their own thorough selves and to accept that, no matter what it shows me.

It’s not easy to come to the conclusion that this decision is also being thorough. That this is not giving up on people and things but choosing. Choosing what feels right and thorough to me and to what I deserve. To what I should expect of people and things in my life. This little but huge step is me being the most thorough with every bit of my being. It’s being the most authentic and the most true to me, and I owe that to myself.

Maybe thorough doesn’t make sense to some but it makes sense to me and at this point in my life making sense to me matters. It matters because when things don’t make sense I don’t feel well and I need to feel well. So being thorough matters because I matter. It’s hard to explain to people that you matter especially when they should know, especially when they did know.

Be thorough. With yourself and your feelings and what those mean to you. Be true to what that means no matter how uncomfortable it might make you in the moment or how much you think your life might change. Change is good. Change is necessary and change, above all else, is thorough.

Grey’s Anatomy {6X9}

Christina: I’m sorry, where were you before Dr. Altman?

Teddy: Baghdad with Dr. Hunt.

Christina: Oh, no. I mean before that. Where did you do your fellowship?

Teddy: At Mayo.

Christina: Oh, with Paul Moak?

Teddy: No, Moak is in Rochester. I worked primarily with Joshua Moore.

Christina: Oh, Mayo in Florida.

Jackson: Moore wrote that paper on retrograde coronary sinus perfusion, right?

Teddy: Yeah, I actually worked on that with him.

Jackson: Yeah, I almost- I considered Mayo.

Christina: Where’d you go to med school?

Owen: Dr. Yang is, uh, a little thorough

Teddy: U.T southwestern. And then I did my residency at G.W