#teaspirations

and the wishes have all dried up

i’m out of change anyway

you’ll never have enough

you convinced me i was ordinary

that you were worth the cost

but i see to the bottom

i can’t lose what’s already lost

happy endings aren’t in stone

drafts aren’t the stories that live

love cannot come from a fountain

that never had it to give

after the math

In A Corner 

In a corner of the basement Amidst the dust and shadows Half buried by time and clutter  Sits a bike Tires flat Tassels limp, unmoving No one to ride it now Its once bright colors Dimmed with age And neglect Just a conveyor of memories Useless except to bring back visions Of years gone by Occasionally it gets dusted To reveal the image Of a child Riding, laughing Sometimes crashing But never stopping But now it rests Waiting for a ride Bright and shiny Tassels flying Laughter trailing behind Down Memory Lane one more time

I said, the ocean is violent

he said, no baby, it's raining

but tonight the ocean is quiet

the water is calm, the sea is still

yet something inside

rocked internally, moved me

ceaselessness of time and tides

painted a sky of danger

played me like a stranger

and now the halls and walls

unlike yesterday, they're empty

there's no one running

up and down them, no one

harbor waters retreated

no one heard me say

that I felt like I've been defeated

seems too to be, seems to me

that too frequently it's raining

I tell him that's it's raining

and he says, no, it's beautiful

I've never seen skies so blue

it's not overcast, it must be you

and I said, I believe you

what else could I do

some things never change

he doesn't understand

and he never will...

I long have contended with hope. To hope is not something I am used to. I’ve always found it difficult to be hopeful. Oddly, in the most trying of times, I found hope and I am adamant to keep it.

For without it, I will continue drifting with no destination in sight. My soul would have no anchor for every turmoil and storms awaiting. My feet would not find solid ground in this fleeting life.

One should hope... always. And this is not me preaching toxic positivity. Because I understand each and everyone struggles, and it is hard to find light in grim darkness. But if one understands darkness is only the absence of light, then light have always existed.

So if you are in one of your darkest days today - know that you can always believe there is light - so do hope for today. 

convinces me

that I'm the exception...

Divine essence

Heaven's design.

Dime breathless

she looks at me

as if I'm breakfast

Blind but shines

Like a diamond necklace

refined Nexus

A Divine catch

But miles of extra.....

We fly together

And dare time to catch us..."

I’m sick to death of seeing it Almost everyday a new clip So much so it’s got me feeling sick

I just wanna see a video Where the bystanders pull the cops off the dying guy And subdue them in an attempt to save a life Then keep the blue thugs down Until cooler backup can arrive

But you’ll never see that You wanna know why?

Because blue thugs are quick To turn a rescue mission To a gun fight

Claiming “They thought about my gun I had to end their lives”

It’s never been more apparent That video is the best defense When fighting Blue crime