From my angel to a friend fallen into a love I never thought Iâd feel
Trusting the process, believing we both wanted something fucking real
Knowing each other from flesh to our pasts, understanding trust is a big deal
The love followed the connection effortlessly like magic
I wasnât prepared for the joker to pull a hat trick
My tears fall to the paper as you bail
Now alone, frozen, colder than icy hail
Pain lies deeper than the ocean floor
I thought youâd protect my heart, now ruthlessly tore
Lies coming from the same soft lips that kiss me goodnight
As you look in my eyes while pulling me into you so tight
A deep love uncomfortably resides within me
I canât escape the pain that I was beginning to set free
Why was the truth so damn hard for you to fight
My protector, I thought weâd have it all, me your sun and you baby my light
Shot in the chest, seems my heart canât get any rest
Scared and alone, I turn to see it was my fallen angel holding the gun
Paralyzed by shock and pain, unable to run
Blindsided, like blowing through a stop sign
Tonight my prescription begins with a bottle of wineÂ
You kill mv soul slowly as I now see months of lies
Youâve lied with me watching my intense cries
Promising truth while staring into my eyes
How could you look me in the eyes
And simultaneously keep on the lies?
No remorse as you feel my cries
Weâve come so far just to break the most impossible part
Our foundation once so strong falling apart
Cautiously I had let love in as he dissolved the hard parts
The walls around my heart crumbled and came apart
Me, so cautious thinking Im prepared for anything as Iâm so damn smart
How did I allow him to penetrate my heart
Soul shattering, my heart just like the glass on the floor
Lying in pieces, he walks right over me to the door
My soulâs only company is from the hotel lamp nights before
I truly believed I was the only one he adored
Or so I thoughtâŚblinded by my love for him, I never saw the impending stormÂ
My mind body and soul now caught in the downpourÂ
Lying in pieces like the lamp on the floor
Weâve come so far to knowingly keep on with the lies
Trust and love all a disguise
Realizing the lies after his continuous denies
he tries so hard to turn every around on me
So easy to have told me the truth from the start
Instead telling her you love her while lying in bed with me from the start
Reading every word I saw the lies
I soon realized parts of my poem were inspired by his muse
The pictures put me over the top
Flesh exposed, the denials wouldnât stop
Why was it so hard to love and respect me
Confused by this pain you arenât here to see
Iâm undone, broken once again
I crawl back under the covers for protectionÂ
Too weak to pick up the pieces todayÂ
Here in bed I think Iâll stay
All I wanted was you and only you
Unsure of anything anymore that I thought was true
Itâs never been about past relations
Its the lies to my specific questionsÂ
How could you say youâre truthful as you pretend?
I thought you were my best friend!
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