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Choosing time

What if I can't break free What if I never truly see What if there's still more buried In the deepest parts of me.. Will you still be waiting?

Keep it to myself So call it pride. Heart kept on a shelf Makes it easier to hide. Yet all of this I'm feeling Can't be denied. Held me when I was asleep and you Hold me when I cry.. Have you felt me lately?

More marks on my skin To move closer to you. Shedding baggage of my kin When will this all be through? Not sure I'll make it to the end Mind - body battered Heart now a permanent bruise.. Do you still blame me?

Legs long past gone weak. Depths of my being I aim to seek. Damning my pride - and the will to be meek. Reclaim my voice now time to speak.. Can you hear what I'm saying?

Let me just play with this delusion for a moment Can't seem to hide from these deep feelings so I'll own it The Ravens and now the Hawks have all just flow in  Will I be blessed beyond belief or face atonement 

It's like the message never comes in when I need It's always lessons before blessings time to take heed Lived with a cage around my heart now it's been freed Removing the disguise - opening my eyes so I'll believe

They said love for me is just around the corner  Back to that nervous wreck always looking over my shoulder Tests were sent to make my poor heart colder  Change is intact when I don't need to react Heart and mind finding perfect order 

It is the fear that is the hardest overcome  Hard to imagine the stakes getting from under that thumb Had to put myself first you know, I Am number One Blessings beyond belief is what's to come