#offshorewritings

I have to see

She wears her past

Beneath her mask...

Im limitless within

My poetic existence

She interests me

Attention peaked

Wrapped in sheets

Not your average

She's havoc between heartbeats

Dangerous and attractive

And I'm an addict that's got to have it

And she'll forrver be a part of me

She relentlessly

attempts to finish me

With the ferocity

And determination

Of an enemy

Denying her

slowly

I push all of me

Into her

Energy

Collecting

The essence

She pushes back into me

She now begins to see

That she was meant for me

My unfinished symphony

Sprinting through

My mind endlessly

Trying align my horizon

With her symmetry

Forbidden memories

Haunting me tempting me

Unforgiving fingertips

Trace her a path to my soul

If shes in my thoughts

Then im in her dreams

I've been long since

Past control

I let the rage

Of her oceans wave

Splash into me

Crash chemistry

Bad ministry

As we dash towards heaven

lost

In my vast divinity

Magnetic attraction

Tender tragic

Animalistic madness

Ill eat you alive

In cannibalistic fashion

With a savage

lack of compassion

Giving in to the madness

Fading in the blackness

Don't even have to try

to make it last

It just happens

Back to back to back

Again and again and again

it just happens....

I found the light

And within my weakness

I found the courage

Somehow to fight

As the warrior within me

Screams loud inside

I can't stand the way they lie

Existential visions

interdimensional wisdom

I can see thru your prism

with my third eye

Desensitized

Luckily I forget how to cry

Carry on live

With ever lasting energy

Yet lacking symmetry

Crash chemistry

My passion limits me

She says I love you

But it just doesn't sound right

Life is a constant battle for self

So I'm always wound tight

Vampire's are all around

ominously searching

For a sound bite

Unfortunately

I just don't know how to die

Her engineering is impeccable

Yet threatens to finish me

No Self control

I find that

My own soul is the enemy

And nothing is as it seems

At least not

what it pretends to be

Offended by their ministry

Yet still in search of divinity

Feet in the sand

Heart on my sleeve

Head in the clouds

wishing this Darkness would leave

Traveling against

the current of the crowd

As my sanity

slowly parts from me

Blessed but stressed out

And I dare not start to speak

lest my heart start to bleed

splatter on the page

Its ok my pain is all art to me

Uncharted

attempting to protect

and somehow resurrect

all the Lost parts of me

The fire burns different

When you know

you could have done better

but didn't

So many times we've died inside

sacrificing this life of mine

for the sake of somebody else to live it

Resentments turned me cold inside

another casualty

of another attempt at commitment

How much pain

how insane must I be made

How many "mistakes" does it take

for me to finally get it?

Check my pulse for me,

or just hold me closely

before I Impulsively

make another attempt to forget  it.

I'm not living well

Throw quarters in my wishing well

Some Wishing I fell

deep in a prison cell

waiting for medication

reservations in hell waiting

mental health fading

cradle to the grave quick

like rooftops to pavement

so impatient

and she couldn't be the glue

that holds my broken heart together

so she was gonna break it....

She's a blast of silly string

to avoid the fight

She's that cool

breath of fresh air

That tells me

it's going to be alright

She's the moon,

Illuminating the night

But don't get it twisted .

Her essence is mystic

Spellbound and cryptic

She's a suprise submission

Bareback saltrock shotgun shells

on a dark summer nights

psilocybin mission

She's Hell bound addiction

And heaven sent

And no amount of medicine

Can make me forget

She's the rabbid wolf

in any fight...

The girl you want

by your side

But the calm seas

make Cyanide

Tephlon Ironhyde

Rest on

Thru the darkest time of night

Juggling the prettiest kinda lies

Lascivious fireflies

I can think of nowhere I'd rather be

but by her side

As my moon starts to fall

And the sun tries to rise

My current circumstance

Is my penance

for living this kinda life

So tired of just surviving

I'm trying to thrive

And She's always on top

Cuz she likes the ride

And I am, of course obliged

To let her grab the stick and fly

And pilot thru the pink and violet sky

Into the horizon

Where the mouth of heaven

opens wide

To whisper life into this mind of mine

AWAKENING....

I would ask you

All to be patient please...

Don't turn away

And don't be afraid of me

Fear destroys love

I beg you... please

Reconsider your ways

Remember grace

don't walk away from peace...

Let's work together

To heal all our pain and grief

Look inside....

The meaning is there...

Our savior is being prepared

Cooked to temperature

Tempered by relentless expenditure

In this Matrix bakery

Words whispered

Begin to take shape

In this maze

Where there once was

just mental vacancies

Renting the space for free

As the wind gets

carried away with me

Stretched past limits

In a world with no forgiveness

learning to pray

To keep the demons

away from me

Temptation

In the face of complacency

Roof tops to side walks

Like cradles to the grave

Probably afraid to sleep

In this bed we have made

Without being faded

Sanity fading away

Because of these crazy dreams

Keep your eye open

Never give up hope

And remember nothing

Is ever the way it seems....

He will come in

riding the same horse

As the assassin that left

No mask

3 streets past death

Flag half mast

Breathing his last breath

Bringing light

To the black-ness

Saving life

evading caskets

Escaping

Their dragnet

Unrelated to fascists

Face of an Angel

Can of gas

And some matches

Solidify your place

This is no place

to half step

If we don't have it

Maybe we haven't learned

to ask yet

What's a spell

If you have no intention

To cast it

And just brag

To let everyone know

you have it

Are you a man

Or matchstick

On a grind

Or lack compassion

Complete lack of reciprocation

And symmetry

Exhale the lies

Inhale the chemistry

Fishtales about fishscale

Just to be impaled

by the enemy

Energy too pure

For anyone in my past

To match it

Unleveled and unsettle

We are just useless metal

Until we meet our blacksmith...

I am trying to be...

I am

failing to climb

To where I aspire to be

There's trouble on the horizon

It lies Disguised

Just beyond the construct of her eyes

are signs

that say

Clear skies

as far as the eye can see

But I get that ole familiar sting

That feeling someone

Is lying to me...

Hopeless Romanticism

An explorers fantasy

Storm winds damaging

Like swords from a war

I'm mismanaging

Like before...

I'm yours

For mishandling...

I used to wake with wonder

Laying in wait

For what this planet would bring

So many high horses

So many holy rollers

So many rollercoasters

It's made me manic I think

I switch from panic to grief

Praying in some way

I can split this tab amicably

Walking away from so much pain

Sounds too much like a fantasy

To me however

outstanding

understandably

And I believe in God

But not according to man's

standard belief

Even though I'd pray

To get away

Everytime I ever ran from police

Don't judge me

And I won't ever judge you

If you should ever happen to fall

from a place of grace

And land on the streets

And you gotta do what you gotta do

so you and your family can eat...

Because I don't know about you...

But nothing has ever been handed to me

as my sanity runs rampant

And all my thoughts become poisoned

And rancid

until I'm just a hollowed out manikin and you can put your ear to my chest but you

can't hear a beat

And I stand on mine

And would never stand for defeat

But your promises

are like a cancer to me

I call out to God but only you came

Answering me

My commander in chief

The sandman

The romance to my dreams

And it seems the answer is bleak

Growing weaker

Watching the image of me

Disappear in the mirror

it finally became clear...

That the answer is me

Her words

Like sandpaper

Scraping his mind

Gears grinding

As she constructs

the shape of me

With her mind

With no brakes

her curves are

treacherous to your drive

Yet he's impetuous

In her eyes

Her words stir deep

The tears burn

from her heat

Before they even fall

to her cheek

She will not be hurt

Before she's hurt me

Concerned and worried

when things turn bleak

Now we just want to burn free

In hopes our flames dont

Return to burn me

With clipped wings

Picking up tripped things

Still dirty and lost

I clean their wounds

My pressence

calms their mind...

Still, it dreams

And feels its things

I so long to fly

by her side again

I still carry her memories

But when I play them back

in my mind again...

And again...and again

It stings...

The loss of her is like...

Battling

...Hell...

And all of the demons

....it brings