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amanda seyfried is consuming me right now. the testament of ann lee has become a hyperfocus centered around christian mysticism, syncretism of spiritualism, song, prayer & dance. this recent FLAUNT magazine shoot by greg swales is TAKING ITTT.

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๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ, ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ท๐ช๐ฏ๐จ, ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐ช๐ค๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ,
๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฃ๐ช๐ณ๐ต๐ฉ, ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐ฉ.
if youโre a woman seeing this, close your eyes and put a hand on your womb and tell her:
I am here for you and I love you
I am here for you and I love you
I am here for you and I love you
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me and the fact my belly likes to grow really round even after losing a ton of weight (seriously, iโll eat likeโฆ a piece of cheese, and she swells up like i just ate a big meal ๐ )
So for one of my classes, I've been doing a lot of reading about somatic work for trauma.
Somatic means "of the body" and in this case refers to focusing on the physical signs of distress/trauma rather than the emotional or cognitive sides.
That means noticing the tight muscles and working to relax, noticing a need for more or less sensory input and filling it, noticing the clenched jaw and working on relaxing it, etc. The whole idea is that these are indicators of the CNS being aroused, like what happens in times of stress (fight/flight/freeze) and recognizing that with trauma the physical arousal cycle doesn't get a chance to finish. There is no physical release and so the body does not get back to baseline. The physical energy of the trauma stays in the body and pops up in the physical sensations of distress that we carry forward with us into new situations.
Somatic work is a whole thing and is generally done with a trained practitioner and has been useful for people with PTSD and it's all pretty fascinating.
Then I got looking at Trauma Tapping Technique - tapping is a form of somatic work that is safe to do on your own because there's a low risk of re-traumatizing (because you don't actually focus on the traumatic experience or the emotions associated with it). Tapping is recommended for helping people refocus their thoughts, to treat insomnia, to help with positive self talk etc. It stimulates the CNS through pressure points in a gentle and calm way, giving a sense of release.
And I am reading this and thinking about it and being a person with ME/CFS and endometriosis and knowing that my CNS fucks up and gets in a state of arousal when there's no need and doesn't get a physical release. And I'm thinking about the "tired but wired" feeling so many people with chronic illness, chronic pain and disability experience because they just can't settle. And I'm thinking about all the times I want to jump out of my skin because things feel bad but there's no cause and no problem and nothing is "wrong", I'm just in a crash or did too much or there was too much sound and or whatever.
And I'm wondering if anyone has studied using somatic work with people like me - people who live with a body that doesn't react the way we want it to because of physical disability or chronic illness.
I want to be clear - I am not in any way saying that the symptoms I, or any other patient, experience are "in our heads" or caused by "bad thinking" or we need to "just be more positive". I am just recognizing that the CNS reactions that people with chronic illness, chronic pain and disability experience have a lot of parallels with the CNS reactions of people who experience trauma.
I'm curious if what has been proven helpful for one might be helpful for the other.
Does anyone maybe have any experience or research or anything about using somatic therapy in this way?
In the meantime, I'm going to start using tapping as a tool when I'm feeling my CNS needs a release, and I thought some of you might be interested in it too.
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I'm also going to tag @heyatleastitsnotcancer and @thebibliosphere because they both have a ton of experience, information and understanding that might be relevant, and might find these thoughts interesting too.

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๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐น ๐๐๐ป๐ด ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐ฏ๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฑ๐๐ป๐ฎ๐บ๐ถ๐ฐ ๐น๐ผ๐ป๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ ๐ด๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐ถ๐ ๐บ๐ผ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ป ๐ป๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ๐.
The empath does not meet a monster at the first gate. They meet a mirror that feels familiar. A mirror that recognizes similar wounds. At the entrance it looks like devotion. The Intensity is mistaken for intimacy and the pain is mistaken for depth. The shift is slowโฆ a quiet collapse of your inner world. Each time you descend just a little further you tell yourself it is love, that it is fate and that it will turn out okay in the end, and you believe it. Within this quiet erasure of the self is how the underworld opens. The narcissistic wound does not want to be healed. It wants to be centered. It feeds on your empathy and it shelters itself inside your self doubt. It is a parasitic complex disguised as connection. Your nervous system becomes the offering on the altar, and so the empath descends into Hades, believing they are there to rescue Hades, until one day the realization arrives, You were never meant to save the god of the underworld.
๐ฌ๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ผ๐ป๐น๐ ๐บ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐๐๐ฟ๐๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ป๐, ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐๐๐ฎ๐๐๐ถ๐ป๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป.
Live look at me walking through my anger, rage and hatred. ๐ก๐ก๐ก๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ ๐ ๐