#maydie

Has May Ever Actually Chosen Her Own Path?

So this started because I was rewatching Season 5 — specifically episode 5x15 of 9-1-1 — and it made me realize something I hadn’t fully processed before.

Right now, everyone (myself included) is focused on Season 9.

All the analysis, all the theories — they’re centered on what’s currently happening.

But rewatching older seasons?

It unlocks completely different conversations.

And this one is about May.

First Thought: A Relationship That Just… Disappeared

Let me be very clear about something before I start.

This is not about ships.

I don’t care who you ship. I’m not talking about romance.

I’m talking about human relationships.

Because what doesn’t make sense to me is this:

How do two characters who had that level of connection…

end up acting like strangers in the same room?

May & Eddie: Same Moment, Same Struggle

In that episode, May and Eddie have one of the most genuine conversations in the show.

She tells him she chose dispatch because of her mom — because after Athena was attacked, that felt like a place where she could protect her.

And Eddie immediately gets it.

“Tell me about it.”

Because he’s the same when it comes to family.

Then she says something even more important:

She realizes she lost sight of who she was — of what she actually wanted.

And Eddie answers:

“When you figure it out… let me know.”

That line matters.

Because in that moment, they’re in the same place emotionally:

– both stuck

– both dealing with fear

– both disconnected from their original path

So Why Is That Gone?

What I don’t understand is why that dynamic was completely dropped.

Not just romantically — again, that’s not the point.

But as a human connection.

Because fast forward to Season 9, and May is dealing with the exact same internal conflict again:

– law school

– questioning her path

– feeling lost

And yet… she doesn’t reconnect with the one person who already shared that moment with her.

That’s not just a missed opportunity.

It feels unrealistic.

Bigger Issue: May Feels Isolated

And it’s not just Eddie.

If we’re being honest?

May barely interacts with anyone.

Take away Harry and Ravi, and she’s almost completely disconnected from the rest of the core cast.

Buck, Eddie, Chimney — they might as well be background noise in her storyline.

And that doesn’t make sense for a character who:

– worked at dispatch

– shared emotional moments with multiple people

– is deeply connected to this world

Second Thought: Has May Ever Chosen Her Own Path?

This is where it gets more interesting.

Because rewatching Season 5 made me realize something:

May has never really followed a path that was fully hers.

The Athena Pattern

Let’s break it down.

We find out Athena originally studied law.

Then she became a cop.

Now look at May:

– She goes into law → just like Athena

– She questions it → just like Athena did

– She pivots → again, mirroring that journey

At first, it feels like a natural influence.

But the more you look at it, the more it feels like imitation, not choice.

Season 9 Confirms It

In Season 9, May literally says:

“Maybe this isn’t what I want.”

After finishing law school.

And it hits you:

Wait… did she ever actually want it?

Or was she just following a path that felt expected?

The Maddie Parallel (And Why It Matters)

This is where it gets really interesting narratively.

Because May’s arc mirrors Maddie’s — but in reverse:

– Maddie: nurse → dispatch

– May: dispatch → possibly nurse

They’re almost like complementary archetypes.

Two sides of the same journey.

Which makes May’s confusion even more intentional — even more designed.

The Umbilical Cord Problem

So here’s my actual theory.

May is still, narratively, tied to Athena.

Not in a bad way. Not in a toxic way.

But in a way that prevents her from becoming fully independent.

She’s orbiting her mother’s identity instead of building her own.

And if the show wants her to become a fully realized character?

That connection needs to evolve.

Or, metaphorically speaking:

It needs to be cut.

Why Season 10 Could Change Everything

Here’s where the Theory Time kicks in.

There are a few real-world factors that might actually impact this:

– Harry has been heavily developed in Season 9

– Corinne Massiah (May) has already graduated

– Elijah M. Cooper (Harry) mentioned focusing on studies

– Angela Bassett will also be working on American Horror Story

So what does that mean?

It’s possible Season 10 will shift focus.

Less Harry.

More May.

Final Thought

This whole reflection started from a rewatch.

But it turned into something bigger.

Because May is one of those characters who has everything to be incredible:

– strong foundation

– emotional depth

– narrative potential

And yet, right now?

She still feels… unfinished.

Your Turn 👀

Again — no ships.

Just character and story.

Do you think May’s arc has been inconsistent?

Do you see the Athena parallel too?

And most importantly:

Ship Rating Game ❤️

My favorite couples from TV shows that are currently airing:

Eddie & May (9-1-1)

Bobby & Athena (9-1-1)

Chimney & Maddie (9-1-1)

Benedict & Sophie (Bridgerton)

Anthony & Kate (Bridgerton)

Sandokan & Marianne (Sandokan)

Wally & Maddie (School Spirits)

Jury & Charley (School Spirits)

Jack & Belle (The Artful Dodger)

Tyler & Wednesday (Wednesday)

💙 There's More to 9-1-1 Than One Ship

Hey everyone! 💙

I've decided to create something fun—a sort of fan club, if you want to call it that—for all of us who absolutely love 9-1-1 but aren't Buddie shippers. 😊

First of all, this isn't meant to be anti-Buddie in any way. Buddie fans already have an amazing, supportive, and incredibly active community, and I'm genuinely happy they have a place where they can celebrate what they love. ❤️

But I've also realized that those of us who enjoy different ships, different dynamics, and different interpretations of the show often don't really have a place to gather. Sometimes it can feel like our voices simply get lost, even though we love this show just as much.

So... I thought, why not build one ourselves? ✨

I've put together a page that serves as a little hub for everything related to my 9-1-1 universe—my fanfictions, essays, analyses, meta posts, and all the thoughts I've shared about the series over the years.

But I'd also love for it to become something more: a meeting place for fans who simply enjoy looking at 9-1-1 from a different perspective. 💙

To make things fun, I even created four "teams" (think of them like Hogwarts Houses 🏰😄), each centered around one of my favorite ships. It's all completely lighthearted! If you're new to my stories and don't know the pairings yet, you can simply pick the team that includes your favorite character—or just whichever one feels right to you.

This is really just the beginning.

I'm tagging a few people who I think might be interested. Maybe you'll want to join, maybe not—and that's totally okay! ❤️

If you like the idea, feel free to reblog this post, share it, or invite other fans who might enjoy having another corner of the fandom.

My dream isn't to compete with anyone.

My dream is simply to build a welcoming community where people who love 9-1-1 in different ways can meet, talk, analyze episodes, share fanfiction, participate in watch parties, meta discussions, games, contests, creative challenges, and whatever fun ideas we come up with together. 🥰

I'm always open to suggestions, too! If you have ideas for events or activities, I'd absolutely love to hear them.

Every fandom is stronger when there's room for different voices. 💙

If you've ever felt like you were a little "outside the mainstream" but still love this show with all your heart, then maybe you've just found your people.

Everyone is welcome aboard. 🚢✨

Let's build something special together. 💙

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Evan Buckley - Eddie Diaz

from the way I conceived the song in my mind, you can imagine that I dedicate it to them, but also May to Eddie and Elara to Buck.

A hundred candles set the mood A thousand reflections in your eyes Across every muscle of your back — and over us The warm wind of this evening Carries the sweet scent of orchids

The movement already binding us Is like a rising tide Lifting us higher Higher than you ever thought we’d go

As you move your hips against mine

Let yourself be loved Do it the way you know how Without limits, without shame Don’t hold back — love me like this Inside a single shiver, a hundred meters above the ground

Let yourself be loved Let yourself be wanted For as long as it lasts Until the very last rush, yeah

Want me to light you a cigarette? I’ll take one drag, then pass it to you But your warm hand still reaches for me Checkmate

Because you’re so beautiful And you don’t even know it More beautiful than the gods

As you move your hips against mine

Let yourself be loved Use all your words Don’t stop now — love me like this Inside a single shiver, a hundred meters above the ground

Let yourself be desired All the way through And tell me one more time Say yes

I feel you there You give me That vibration The one that feels right

I feel you going Beyond every limit Chained to me

So I look at you and confess — Now that it’s us We are the proof That paradise exists

Let yourself be loved Let go of your fears Don’t hold back — love me like this Inside a single shiver, a hundred meters above the ground

Let yourself be wanted Without limits, without shame Let yourself be carried To that place

Where for me And for you There’s one last dizzying fall

Quick Thought: What If We’re All Looking in the Wrong Direction?

Okay, this is just a quick thought — not a full meta, just something that clicked after reading a recent statement about 9-1-1.

Also, quick disclaimer before we start:

I’m not Buddie, but I am very pro-discussion. I genuinely think every fandom conversation deserves more than one perspective. You don’t have to agree with me — I’m just offering an alternative lens. Pick your side, have your fun, just keep it respectful 😊

This might sound crazy… but stay with me

At this point, I’m starting to feel like I accidentally predict things before they happen.

Because something I wrote recently — about May’s storyline — suddenly lines up perfectly with what Tim Minear just hinted at regarding Eddie’s love life.

And that’s… interesting.

Eddie isn’t in a romantic phase — he’s in a transition

A lot of people are frustrated with Eddie Diaz right now.

He feels stuck.

Like he’s in a kind of emotional limbo.

But here’s the thing: I don’t think that’s bad writing.

I think it’s intentional.

Because if you look at Eddie post-Kim, he’s not the same character anymore.

Before, he did have multiple romantic dynamics. After Kim? Everything shifted.

And that matters.

“He’ll look within his circle” — but that doesn’t mean what you think

Minear basically confirmed something that actually makes a lot of sense:

👉 If Eddie’s love life evolves, it likely won’t be with a completely new character

👉 It’ll come from someone already in his orbit

Now, I know what a lot of people immediately think when they hear that.

But here’s where I gently go… what if not?

Same clue, different conclusion

A lot of fans hear that and go:

“Okay, that confirms Buck.”

And listen — I get it. I really do.

But I read it completely differently.

Because the show has always worked best with internal dynamics, not random external love interests:

Bobby & Athena

Maddie & Chimney

Hen & Karen

Even when someone started “external,” they became part of the core.

So yes — the pattern is real.

But the interpretation? That’s where it gets interesting.

Let’s talk about May

Now bringing this back to May Grant.

Everything happening with her right now feels… temporary.

the Ravi situation

the cut kiss

the lack of emotional follow-through

the introduction of someone new

It doesn’t feel like a love story.

It feels like setup.

Like they’re giving her experiences, not endgame.

And here’s my actual theory

If Eddie does eventually open up again romantically…

I don’t think it’ll be with someone new.

But I also don’t think it has to be the obvious choice.

Because sometimes the most unexpected story is:

👉 the person who’s been there

👉 but not really seen

Someone you think you know, but actually don’t.

And that’s why — yes, I’m saying it — I wouldn’t rule out May at all.

Why it actually makes narrative sense

Think about it:

They already have a base (dispatch / early interactions)

She’s grown — a lot

She’s no longer “the kid” in the narrative

Their age gap isn’t actually that extreme in canon

And most importantly?

It would be a true plot twist.

The kind that makes people go:

“Wait… what?”

Final thought (aka: my possibly unhinged percentage update)

Am I saying this is definitely happening?

No.

But am I saying that what we’re seeing right now — for both Eddie and May — feels like groundwork rather than payoff?

Absolutely.

So yeah… maybe I’m still a little delusional.

But I’m upgrading my odds from 0.01% to a solid 5% 😌

And honestly?

🤍 I’m tired.

I’m tired of being targeted because people assume everything I write comes from AI and not from me.

I’m Italian. English is not my native language. I don’t speak or write it perfectly—and I never claimed to. I write my thoughts in Italian, my own words, my own ideas… and then I use AI to translate them so I can share them with more people.

Is that really something to be judged or mocked for?

Because let me ask you this: would you be able to express yourself flawlessly in Italian without any help?

If you can—honestly, I admire you. Truly. 👏 But if not… then maybe you understand why I do what I do.

If translating my thoughts so I can be understood bothers you that much, I can just go back to writing only in Italian. But tell me—how is it fair to judge or insult someone for not speaking a language perfectly?

Second point: the “Buddie” topic.

I see them as a bromance. That’s it.

And here’s the thing: even though my Tumblr, IG, and feeds are FULL of Buddie content, I do not go under people’s posts to mock them, insult them, or invalidate their interpretations. Never.

I have a different opinion, and I express it respectfully. I thought that in a free space, it was okay to think differently—especially when you’re not attacking anyone else’s view.

If someone disagrees with me, they are more than free to: 👉 ignore me 👉 or share their perspective in a civil way

That’s how discussions work. There are always different perspectives, and everyone chooses the one they connect with.

But here’s what I don’t understand: if 98% of the fandom thinks one way… why does the remaining 2% have to stay silent?

Why can’t we simply coexist as two parts of the same fandom, loving the same show, even if we see things differently?

Because honestly?

I’m tired of being treated poorly by people who claim to stand for equality and inclusivity… and then do the exact opposite.

And no—I’m not generalizing. I know very well that this is just a small part of the fandom. Most people are kind, respectful, and thoughtful 🤍

But those few? They still hurt me.

Yes, I deleted their comments. But I still received them. And words… words can hurt more than anything else.

I’ve experienced bullying before. Real bullying. To the point where it affected me deeply.

And I won’t let anyone have that kind of power over me again. Not now. Not ever.

So please—

Let’s not turn something beautiful, like the love we all share for this show, into something that goes against everything it stands for.

We can love the same story… and still see it differently.

May Grant x Eddie Diaz

#Maydie

How long do we even have? Just the time it takes to drink a coffee… but hey, we’ll drink it anyway. Because what kind of life is it if we don’t?

All the things we’ve had to give up — maybe I’ll get used to them. But if this becomes one more thing we lose, I can’t take that. I really can’t.

Come on, let’s take one day for us… tomorrow. What difference would it make? Life won’t suddenly change if you stay right now.

Stay… stay. I’ll stay too. Heads or tails, I’ll pay.

What is it you’re trying to tell me? What is it? You’re not really going to say you never have time for me, are you?

What’s our destiny supposed to be? Is it all already written? But why? Just stay close to me, at least for the time it takes to drink a coffee.

Come on, let’s take one day for us… tomorrow. What difference would it make? Life won’t suddenly change if you stay right now.

Stay… stay. I’ll stay too. Heads or tails, I’ll pay. Stay… stay. What time is it? Just enough time for a coffee.

No one does it like you. No one. And it’s not just about the coffee we share.